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VIII: Fear is not indulgence. Fear is currency. Spend it wisely.

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Born in the lightless depths of Terra, Kael Varan was one of the first of the Emperor’s Eighth Legion — the Night’s Children. Calm where others raged, disciplined where others killed for sport, Kael hides a secret gift: the power to command the darkness itself. When the Emperor departs and Konrad Curze claims his sons, Kael becomes both shadow and conscience to a Primarch who can no longer see the difference between justice and fear. Leading his company, The Veiled Hand, from the dagger-shaped cruiser Watcher Above, Kael wages the Imperium’s silent wars — the ones history will never name. But as Curze’s visions turn to madness and Nostramo burns, Kael must choose between a Legion that has lost its soul and an Imperium that may not deserve his loyalty. When Kael Varan walks, men forget to speak.
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Chapter 1 - Chapter 1 – The Boy in the Sink

Part I – Underworld Terra

Beneath the Himalayan Arc the air never moved. It hung like water in a cistern, thick with oil smoke and the sour exhalation of a billion lungs. The people who lived there called it the Sink, though none could say whether they meant a place that swallowed or a thing already drowned.

Kael was twelve and old by the measure of the Sink. The children who lasted that long had learned to feed on sound: the scrape of a ration tin, the sigh of a dying lamp, the echo that warned of boots too heavy to outrun. He slept in a conduit three levels down from the waste recyclers, one eye on the dark and one ear on the drip that marked the seconds between patrols.

He had seen soldiers once—tall men in armour the colour of old moonlight. They had passed through the tunnels without speaking, their weapons whispering like thunder under glass. Afterwards there had been silence for a whole day, and then new gangs had come to claim the bodies. Kael had taken a knife from one of the corpses. It was still sharp. That was months ago, maybe years. Time was another thing the Sink forgot to count.

Now he watched three men arguing over a generator core, their voices jagged, the metal behind them glowing faintly blue. Hunger pushed him forward, but he kept to the edges where the soot was thickest. The men were too loud to hear him; they thought noise was strength. Kael thought noise was a wound.

When the first one turned, Kael was already behind him. The knife went in under the ribs, the way the older boys had shown him. He felt the body stiffen, then sag. The other two froze, confused by the sudden quiet. Kael stepped back, let them see the blade, let the dark hide everything else. They ran. He didn't follow. Fear would do the rest. It always did.

He crouched by the generator, fingers trembling from the nearness of light. The core's heat pulsed like a heartbeat. Enough power to trade for food and a week of safety. He wrapped it in a torn insulation sheet and slipped away before the echoes caught up with him.

The market was a corridor of shadows broken by the yellow glow of chemical lamps. Traders sat behind wire screens; their goods were bones, tools, teeth, data-chips stripped of their casings. Kael traded the generator to an old woman with cataract eyes. She didn't ask where it came from. No one in the Sink ever did. He ate standing up: a slab of protein, dense and tasteless, washed down with gray water. The ache in his stomach eased, leaving the ache in his thoughts.

Fear was everywhere down here—thick as the soot—but Kael noticed it behaved like a tide. Some men drowned in it; others learned to breathe through it. He had begun to wonder why. He could feel when a fight would start, could taste the pressure of terror in the air before blades were drawn. When he stood very still, it seemed to move around him, bending like smoke in a draft.

He didn't tell anyone. Secrets were worth more than food.

That night he lay in his conduit and watched the shadows shift across the ceiling. The darkness felt alive, patient. When the patrol passed, its light lances stabbing the air, the dark folded itself over him like a blanket. He didn't think; he simply willed it to be thicker, quieter. The beams slid past. The soldiers kept walking.

After they were gone, Kael touched the wall. It was cold and damp, but something in it had listened.

He whispered to it without knowing why. "Not yet."

The darkness settled again.

He woke to a different sound—boots heavier than enforcer armor, a rhythm too precise for the gangs. Voices followed, metallic, filtered through masks, speaking High Gothic that no one in the Sink should know.

"Sample confirmed. T-gene signatures present."

"Subject is male, approximate age twelve to fourteen. Baseline cellular decay within tolerance."

Kael tried to run, but a white light pinned him like an insect. Figures moved through the glare: men in pale environmental suits, the sigil of a thunderbolt and raptor stamped on their shoulders. One of them knelt beside him, the face hidden behind lenses that reflected Kael's own dirt-streaked eyes.

"Don't be afraid," the man said. His voice was calm, almost kind. "The Emperor has need of you."

Kael didn't understand, but he knew two things at once: the man was telling the truth, and the darkness behind him had just withdrawn—respectfully, as if it recognized a greater predator.

They lifted him onto a stretcher. The last thing he saw of the Sink was his knife lying in the dirt, already being picked up by another child.

The first of them arrived on Luna in silence.

No fanfare, no banners, not even records made public to the Administratum that was still learning to count the Emperor's conquests.

They were the prototypes of a new kind of soldier — not Thunder Warriors, but their replacement. The start of something cleaner. The beginning of the Night's Children.

Kael Varan was twelve Terran years old when they opened him for the first time.

The Cutting, the surgical vaults beneath Luna were colder than death. Not metaphorically — literally. The temperature was maintained at levels just above freezing to slow infection and encourage compliance. The walls sweated vapor, and the light never wavered.

Kael lay on the table, eyes fixed on the pattern of frost spreading across the metal above him.

He didn't resist. Resistance wasted breath, and breath was counted here. The chirurgeon began with the secondary heart — the first step in remaking him. Kael felt it beat beneath his ribs a moment later, a smaller rhythm chasing the first. Two hearts, one memory.

Next came the Ossmodula, fused to his spine like a prayer made of bone.

The pain was white, absolute, but he didn't scream. The medicae murmured approval, marking something on a slate. "Good subject. Sink-born tolerance."

Kael didn't know what that meant. He only understood that surviving pain meant being worth something again. As days blurred into nights, the Biscopea taught his muscles to obey commands they had not yet received.

The Haemastamen turned his blood into quicksilver discipline.

The Larraman's Organ made him hard to kill; he would learn to regret that later.

One by one, the surgeons built the foundations of an empire into him.

It was during the installation of the Occulobe that things began to change. For hours he could see nothing but light — blinding, invasive. When the glare faded, the medicae leaned close, studying the results with fascination.

"What do you see?" she asked.

"Everything," Kael whispered. "And nothing."

She frowned and turned to the lumen mirror on the far wall. His reflection stared back with pitch-black eyes, the sclera consumed by darkness. No whites, no color — just void.

Another surgeon muttered in Low Gothic, "All of them. Every subject of the Eighth. Same manifestation."

The lead adept made a note on his data-slate. "Unexpected mutation of the optic nerve cluster. Possibly stable. Potentially… useful."

He turned those black eyes toward them — eyes that reflected no light, no emotion, only the outline of their own movements.

For the first time, the medicae hesitated before looking too long.

"Perhaps," the adept said softly, "fear can be engineered after all."

They healed for months, kept in sterile dormitories where even their voices were monitored for signs of instability.

A dozen boys in each chamber. Of the sixty taken from the Sinks of Terra, thirty-two survived the first wave of implantation. Seventeen would survive the second. Kael was one of the few to remain at the end.

When the Black Carapace was finally grafted beneath his skin, he stopped thinking of himself as human.

Pain had been the last thing he shared with the people he came from. When it ended, so did that connection. The Carapace linked him to the armor — to the machine that would become his second body.

The first time it connected, he felt it recognize him. The servos whispered approval, and the armor sealed with a sound like a sigh.

They assembled in the great hall under Luna's southern dome. Rows of recruits in half-worn Iron-pattern armor stood at attention beneath the seal of the Emperor's thunderbolt and the numeral VIII.

Their commander, Var Juren, strode before them — a tall Terran with one cybernetic eye and the tone of a man who expected obedience as naturally as breath.

"You are the Night's Children," he said, voice amplified by the vault's cold air.

"You were born in filth and taken from it, because only those who understand fear can wield it properly. The Emperor does not want brutes. He wants instruments."

He walked down the line, boots ringing on steel, stopping in front of Kael. Juren studied him — the black eyes, the calm, the silent defiance.

"What do you see, recruit?" he asked.

Kael met his gaze without flinching. "Everything that needs to be done," he said.

The commander's smile was thin but approving.

"Good. Then do it without hesitation, and you will live longer than most." He turned to the assembled company.

"You are not the First. You are not the strongest. But you will be the ones they whisper about when the lights go out." A ripple passed through the ranks — not pride, not excitement, but understanding. The Night's Children had found their identity: not glory, but inevitability.

That night, Kael sat alone in the dormitory.

Most of the others slept, though their dreams were restless. He studied the faint lights of the medical monitors, watching them pulse in rhythm — dozens of heartbeats, synchronized in forced unity.

He closed his eyes and saw nothing. Then, a flicker — not a thought, but a sensation. A moment too soon.

The door hissed open behind him, and a medicae entered carrying nutrient rations.

Kael didn't startle. He had already felt it coming.

The medicae gave him a brief, puzzled look before moving on. When the lights dimmed again, Kael whispered to himself the words he hadn't dared say aloud since Terra, "Fear isn't the enemy. It's the message."

By dawn, he was ready to join the others for deployment drills. They would fight soon — small tests at first, proving actions under Legion command. Kael didn't care what world they sent him to. The war was only another system, and systems could be learned.

When he walked from the dormitory to the embarkation bay, the shadows of Luna stretched long across the ground, and in them his reflection was indistinguishable from the dark. The Night's Children had begun.

The transport shuddered as it fell through the gray glare above Luna. Inside its armored shell, fifty warriors sat motionless — recruits no longer, but not yet legends. Their armor was still bare cobalt-gray, unadorned and unpainted, serial numerals etched where heraldry would someday go. Fifty soldiers of the Emperor's design, nameless and waiting.

Kael sat among them, silent. His armor fitted him now as though it had always known his shape. The air inside the pod smelled of metal and machine oil. Every heartbeat echoed twice — one human, one engineered — until the two rhythms merged into a single calm cadence.

The vox clicked once: the voice of Commander Var Juren, their Terran-born master. "This is not war," he said.

"This is instruction. The Emperor watches our first measure. Make it efficient." No one answered. The Night's Children were not a talkative breed.

Their target was a derelict ore transport, the Narakir Dawn, captured by convicts during transit to the Jovian shipyards. The Emperor wanted it taken intact—a test of discipline, precision, and containment. No orbital fire. No extermination protocols.

The drop-pod struck hull plating with the sound of controlled violence. Anchor claws bit deep. Plasma torches traced a perfect circle. A moment later, the Night's Children entered the ship like the concept of consequence made flesh.

The corridors were narrow, built for miners, not giants. Kael advanced at the point of his squad, bolter raised, vox-silent. The air was stale and faintly metallic. The ship's emergency lumens flickered red; every shadow looked alive.

Movement ahead — a figure with a cutting torch.

Kael's weapon barked once. The torch fell; so did the man. His body twitched, a mechanical reaction. Kael's mind noted it without interest.

"Squad Three, secure port corridors," Kael voxed.

"Squad Two, clear engineering. No flame. No explosives."

Acknowledgment came as wordless clicks.

The Night's Children moved like mathematics. Every motion predictable, every result deliberate. Bolter reports echoed once, twice, then faded into order.

When they reached the command nexus, the mutineers had barricaded themselves behind a wall of mining machinery and broken bulkheads. They fired wildly into the dark — panic given shape. The Astartes replied with calm precision, methodically unbuilding the barricade with single, surgical bursts.

In three minutes, it was over.

Kael stepped through the smoke. The air shimmered with heat and blood mist. Two rebels were still alive, slumped against a console. One lifted a sidearm with shaking hands.

Kael didn't raise his weapon. He simply stepped aside. The shot passed where he had been — a reflex before it was fired.

He took the man's throat in one gauntlet and crushed until the sound stopped.

The other rebel dropped his weapon and whispered, "Why? Why us?"

Kael looked down at him, his black eyes reflecting nothing. "Because the Emperor wanted an example," he said.

"And because someone had to make it."

The debriefing chamber on Luna was a vault of stone and light. The warriors of the VIII knelt as servitors stripped their armor for decontamination. The hiss of disinfectant mist filled the air.

Commander Var Juren stood before them, hands clasped behind his back. He looked like a man built from function rather than faith.

"Fifty entered," he said. "Forty-nine returned. The Emperor will call that victory. I call it instruction."

He paced before the kneeling warriors, boots ringing on steel. "You are not conquerors," he continued.

"You are exemplars. The Imperium does not need heroes; it needs instruments that make obedience cheaper than rebellion. You will not shout. You will not boast. When you arrive, the enemy will understand — there is no victory in defiance."

He paused, his artificial eye glinting as it swept across the assembled soldiers. "Remember this: fear is not indulgence. Fear is currency. Spend it wisely."

His gaze rested on Kael. "Section Leader Varan — your squad performed with precision. You anticipated resistance vectors before engagement. Good work."

Kael inclined his head. "Anticipation is survival, Commander."

Var Juren's smile was a fraction too sharp.

"Keep surviving, Varan. You may make an officer yet."

Luna's nightside training domes became their world. The Night's Children drilled in simulated urban labyrinths under red emergency light. They learned controlled pursuit, silent entry, psychological suppression. The instructors taught them not how to kill—any fool could do that—but how to end fights before they began.

Kael excelled in the latter.

He learned to predict panic like a mathematician learning weather. One glance at a man's stance told him where fear lived in the body. He used that knowledge as the Emperor had designed him to.

The others began to notice. When Kael moved, they moved. When he stopped, they listened. Not out of loyalty, but instinct — the kind that told them the dark followed his command.

Malchion once said, half-joking, "Varan's like a shadow that decided to walk." Kael didn't disagree. Shadows didn't need permission to exist.

After a week of drills, Var Juren summoned Kael to the observation deck overlooking the proving grounds. Below them, another squad was running a live-fire exercise — clumsy, loud, inefficient.

"Do you see it?" Juren asked.

Kael watched in silence for a moment. "They waste movement," he said. "Noise before necessity."

"And what does that make them?"

"Predictable."

Var Juren nodded. "Good. The predictable die first."

He turned to Kael. "You came from Terra's underworld. You understand something most of them don't — that fear is language. The Emperor intends this Legion to speak it fluently."

He studied Kael for a long moment. "You're different, Varan. Not soft, but still... aware. Keep that. There's a line between discipline and delight. The Emperor built us to walk it."

Kael met his gaze, unflinching. "And if we fall off it?"

"Then we'll make the galaxy remember why the dark was meant to be feared."

The first class of the Night's Children graduated after six months. Only two hundred and twelve of the original thousand recruits survived the full transformation.

They were assigned to Luna-based expeditionary forces awaiting orders from the Emperor Himself. When their armor was sealed, their serial designations replaced by numeric identifiers, they stood in perfect silence beneath the Legion standard — VIII, unadorned, flanked by the Emperor's thunderbolt.

Var Juren's final words to them echoed through the chamber. "You are the Emperor's night made flesh. Where you walk, rebellion dies quietly. You are the Night's Children. You will make the stars afraid to sleep."

Kael's twin hearts beat once in unison.

He thought of the darkness of the Sink, of the knife and the silence that had raised him. The Emperor had only refined what the world had already built.

When he looked out across his brothers, their black eyes caught the light and gave nothing back. They were the future's shadow. And Kael was ready to become its hand.