The gun ring hollow, it's empty.
I hesitated.
Relief sags my entire body as I can litterally feel the desperation seeping from Twitchy's body.
His muscles become slacks as he let out a broken sob, I follow him with a sigh that make my shoulders tremble.
Just before my shoulders rise up. Tightening.
I hesitated.
The gun in his hand slowly lose ground, it moves like a drunk under the influence of both of our forces opposing, the exhaustion of the situation, and the feeling of desperation flooding Twitchy's body.
It almost fall to the ground as his hold on said gun slowly become slack, the finger inside of the trigger being the only thing keeping it in the air as it stumble against gravity, gain inertia and clatter uselessly against Twictchy wrist and my own hand.
I hesitated.
My hand, bloody and hurt. That was resting in the air come closer to my face, clutching it, digging in my hair.
Staining it.
Just as I feel it. Shaking. Resting above Twicthy, more traumatized than him after beating him up.
I hesitated.
I try to figure out a joke. Some dumb shit about dogs, or anything, as it rise up. Hard and violent. Making my chest hurt. My teeth grind and clench. All while making me want to puke.
I just can't find anything funny to say.
It's my fault. It's my fault. I almost died twice and it's my fault.
It rise, again, fueling my tired limbs.
Uncaring of his despair I roughly grab the gun out of his hand, even with no bullets in, I do not want this guy with it in his hand, this thing is better in my hands, safe and sound, stocke-![stocked one glock 17 into inventory] this work too.
Yes, yes, shock and disbelief.
That's funny ludger, isn't it? That's funny.
Don't think about how you hesitated and almost died again.
Or don't think about how THOSE FUCKING JOKES made you call him twitchy out loud and escalated the situation.
Ah, I thought of it.
My right hand run through the air, landing right into his face, my left hand used to the movement by now shows the ropes to my right hand, making teeth fly out of twitchy mouth, he's shaking, but without much hesitation I keep on going.
His two arms come to cradle his face in a mean of defense as I breathe heavily over him, my hands just straight up hammering his forearms.
I almost FUCKING died! It rise up in my throat, uncontrollable.
"Yes, I think you're a bitch."
Spitting out hate.
My punch pick up more power as I speak, destroying the ego of this insecure little shit that dared to mug me, to try and kill me, ME!
"You're the worst of them all"
My left hand grab one of his forearm forcefully prying it open to punch his face from the opening I made.
"They all were fucking right, YOU'RE A BITCH, YOUR FUCKING MOM SHOULD BE ASHMED BITCH BITCH BITCH" Every single one of my word are accuented by a punch.
I keep it up, remembering all he said during his little insecurity crisis to hurt him as much as possible, to hurt him badly, just like dad taught me, just to see what makes him hurt and press and press and press and press and press and fucking press.
I like to think of myself as being calmer than most. And I believed myself to be right.
I said I was calm. I said it. Before I punched him. I said it, I thought I was right. I reacted pretty fast after the first shot after all.
However, now that I am here, words coming out of my mouth uncontrollably, punch lashing out again and again.
I'll admit that I was wrong.
I.
Am.
Not.
Calm.
[Congratulation! You are one of the first people to kill a member of your species during the initialisation!
You1011010110 SYSTEM ERROR PLEASE WAIT PEACEFULLY FOR THE END OF SYSTEM INTEGRATION, YOUR REWARD SHALL BE PROVIDED DURING THE TUTORIAL]
My bloodied hands come up to rub a itchy spot above my brow, blood is pretty warm.
I doubt I can pledge self defence now can I?
That was an abuse of force or whatever it's called, I could have run away when he didn't have any bullet lefts, that's a fucking crime, a murder, in the middle of the city.
Looking down at twitchy body for a second I slowly realise what I just did.
As if I couldn't believe it. My right hand come down to grasp twitchy messed up face, tilting it left and right.
Hah. He does look like a pizza now.
What am I even saying?
Ignoring how I feel right now, my trembling hand come to slap twitchy, gently, trying to rouse him up from his sleep.
It didn't really settle in me.
Did you ever had this feeling? The one where you just messed up, and just fucking realize it? Just now? After everyone else already did?
Yeah, well now it's settling.
Oh my fucking.
I'm in deep shit. Deep shit. Deep deep shit.
My head snap. To the left. Then to the right.
Is there someone? Did someone see that? Fuck, I need to, to, to, I don't know? Hide evidence?
My hand tighten against Twicthy shirt, splattering the blood over it. Frantically rubbing every little part of blood there is, it doesn't work that well.
Fuck fuck, I need to move, run away, do something anything.
With the effort of lifting a thousand mountains I rest my hand against my thigh to support myself as I stand up.
Lifting one feet away from his warm dead body, I start walking away.
The adrenaline is seeping out of my body faster than I thought possible.
My jaw hurt, perhaps it's time for a...dentist?
I'm disappointed at my joke, if it even can be called that.
What a great day...
I don't really know why but I feel like I'm in a dream, that's not good is it? Everything feel foggy.
Slowly picking up the speed I start running.
Fast
Faster than I ever ran before, my legs burns and my heart try to escape from my chest unwilling to go through that much effort again.
The cold winds bite at my mouth as I inhale and exhale like a fucking asthmatic, I still don't know where I'm going, where am I going? Where am I fucking going? Home?
Home!
I turn around and start sprinting in another direction, my speed ramping up even more, I need to go home!
[Thank you for waiting! You will now be transported to your system consultant! They are responsable to answer any of your questions! Please stay still to ensure a smooth transportation]
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Two big slaps resonate in the middle of Aekar' Nu office.
Well more like office the system gifted them for this mission.
"Nu, I just won't"
Staring into the mirror provided by the system, Nu stared at their reflection as his friend and family. Aekar'Tdu talked, right from a system call.
"You shouldn't too."
Giving a last look at his reflection satisfy Nu, perfectly human! A normal jaw, not too big, not too slim, androgene features and a big hole revealing meaty tendrils pulsating in red rage in the middle of the cheeks! Wait, that's not right. Staring at the files provided by the system again, Nu took their time to shape the holes in their cheeks.
Looks like Tdu words are impacting him too much.
"Tdu, you're being ridiculous right now."
"It's not like that Nu! they have pretty high stats for level ones! I'm not a fighter. We're not fighters!"
[Prepare to receive the integrated!]
Oh horns of balecius! It's already time!? Nu, now pressed for time finished small modifications on their body to make sure their attendee would feel at ease!
Remove pointy teeth.
Tear the skin to make it less translucent.
Make sure to keep 5 fingers, not 6, not 7.
All while his friend keep blabbering.
"Did you heard what happened to Ksu? I don't want to deal with a crazy omnivore that will see me as a convenient meal to gain more essence!"
Nu stop for a second at those words, frowning.
Seeing that, they rip the muscles responsible from this.
No need to look angry toward their future attendee after all!
"For sure Tdu, I have an attendee to take care of, we'll talk later"
With that, he end the system call with a sigh.
Tdu is overthinking too much, even bringing Ksu in his story? That's too much.
Nu annoyed by their friend ramblings, turn around and inspect the fully white room where the first meeting will take place.
Now even more nervous than before Nu sit down on their chair and wait...alright they will check the information given one more time, if only because their friend made them even more nervous for their dumb reason.
The passing of Ksu affected them badly, Nu definetly need to talk about that to Kdu again.
Looking at the system given files. The blue window floating in front of Nu make him notice something.
Something he already noticed but now feels different.
Those humans do have quite a huge and varied amount of stats for a newly integrated race.
Nu probably couldn't take one of their grown one in a fight, his body stats aren't build for a fight, compared to other of his race.
He's a consultant. Nothing more.
but still, that's too much, Tdu is simply sensitive.
Everyone can have a chance in the multiverse, and it's not like Nu will get a homocidal one like Ksu did.
Ksu didn't had any chance for sure but that was an anomaly, what kind of consultant is unlucky enough to get an integrated attendee that litterally killed someone of their own species! DURING the first small minutes as the integration began! That's simply unlucky.
"Oh? What's that" Nu humanoid eyes, skim around the new information provided by the system, a title? At that stage?
Wow, sounds like their new attendee have some potential!
With a practiced smile on their human human extremely human looking face, Nu try to see the title they will be awarded.
Nu smile freeze in motion, the meaty tendrils that make the inside of their body do the same, they suddenly curls and squirm around, expressing panic.
Before Nu can get used to the idea, a thing rush in the table in front of them from his left, sending it flying away.
Perhaps they should have heeded Tdu advice.