hi there, been a long time I have written anything, so to test if I hadn't lost my touch I want to write about my daily life...
Today was Sunday I didn't go church I knew my mom was not really happy with me but what can I do,thinking about it last night was quite steamy and fun even if I'm beginning to find him annoying.. Ugh!!! He gets on my nerves!!!!
....Saturday afternoon..... Ring! Ring!! Ring!!! Swipe to answer "Good afternoon ma" calm and respectful voice "Mma have you gone to collect my clothes? asked the person on the other line "No ma! I have not seen the.... " that money is too much for just pin_up buttons na, didn't you bargain with her? "I didn't make,but when I get there I will let you know if she is willing to reduce the price" I replied "Okay no problem! Beep! Beep!! Beep!!! "Ahhhh, sigh " I shouldn't have collected that clothes in the first place, which kind wahala I put myself so..... I grabbed my phone, sat down back on the chair and was browsing through the internet, I had already told my boyfriend that I was heading home. He has been saying he was horny and wants to have sex again after what we did last Saturday, well that's why they say bad company corrupts good manners, what can I do with him "Go shop na... Why you wan go house by this time" he asked me. I knew I had to make him desperately need me " well I go home anytime I want...if you don't reply me by 7:30 I'm leaving this place"I said laughing within me "okay ma" he replied immediately, I guess you can say when they are horny they become vulnerable, he has been sweet and attentive, not like him, then something struck my mind "you said Saturday?... 'For? he asked seeming to have forgotten,then his next message dropped "Oh! Chill I forgot!!" Forgot how "I said I was going to do it before" I exclaimed " ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! " wait if you coming I will do your tfare with it, if not I will do it alone"my mind was like you really want me to come hmm?? " wahala you are not going to add what you promised me, promise and fail ahhhhhhhhh"I said letting out a soft sigh "Madam calm your nerves" is this a rude word?? "Ok"... As if, he has never done any meaningful thing, never, I see lots of people get gifts,money, apartment all sorts of things from their partner, even till the extent of tushing them up to their own taste, but for him, I'm not sure I can call this love,cuz its not; I know there is someone else and the way he acts is hmmmmmm... After sitting with my phone for about 2 hours I decided to take a trip to the tailors shop, getting there I called her to send money for the clothes...ring! ring!! ring!! ....beep!goes the call, she wasn't picking up her calls. "are you the one paying"asked the tailor "no! I replied swiftly"just give me your account number let me send it to her, I wasn't actually sending it to her...you can call this side hustle I have been spending money like a what? Hahahaha I don't even know what to call myself right now..."is this woman joking with me... Am I at fault"I questioned myself"I might be doing something when she called me na...even if I take my time, if I comot for here she go come collect am by herself..... Ring! Ring!! She called after wasting twenty_four minutes of my precious time..... We spoke then I did the transfer, got into a motorcycle, to get to the estate you need to take two motorcycles, the one that drops you at the bustop and the one that drops you at the gate, I wasn't planning on doing that, I alighted from the first motorcycle, entered a shortcut and started trekking... "Chidinma abi? A lady with dreads blocked my way, why are you calling me if you are not sure of the name, she was with an elderly man, "I will meet you in front sir," she said to the man,then turning to me " are you going to church tomorrow? she asked "Uhm! I wasn't really sure I was going tho! "Yes I'm going"I lied "Which church? Can I invite you to my own, you don't have to worry about transport and anything" she said eagerly.....her eyes lit "I don't know, uhm I'm not going to promise you look",I replied stuttering ....this woman dey go na "Why? You don't have to worry about transport like I said and you know tomorrow is last Sunday, just come with your prayer requests.....miracles anything you are believing in God for, you just have to come... She went on for about 10 minutes and I was just nodding my head like a lizard... "Send me a message on WhatsApp" "Okay, I will" I replied "Don't forget oooooooo" she said as she walked away... As if... I was thinking about how my life has turned out very hard,getting this space was it a right decision? I asked myself, I have loosing customers instead of it been the other way round..what was I not getting right, I can literally do anything to get more customers, I don't mind the price whatsoever I have to pay...aghhhh to be an adult is such a big stress.... I didn't have it easy since I turned eight just one thing to another. How I wish I wasn't born... Even my love life sucks....I see people at my age doing stuffs I can't do no matter how hard I try to climb up I just come crashing down, I envy the rich, the ones who don't have to suffer to get what they want, the ones who find true love without stress.... Why was I given this life... Look at me I've a space but I'm still like an errand girl nothing has changed, ugh I hate my life... How worse could it get, I'm owing lots of loan companies, let's not think about that..... What can I do to get money hmmmmm I let out a long sigh. It is well.....I got to the gate then sent a text. " I'm at the jubilee estate gate ma" this is part of the estate life before grant access,the resident have to call them and if the call doesn't come through you will have to go and come back....