Sorry, for this late update
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A quote is quite common and proved to be truthful many times, when we talk about love. "Your first love can never be forgotten" A wise man once said.
For Taehyung, his first and only love was "Jeon Jungkook". His boyfriend of almost 8 years. Since the 8th grade, Tae caught himself staring at Jeon a lot. Sometimes so long....that even their eyes met, taking Tae off guard when Jungkook stared at him so deeply with a tilted head.
Those little eye contacts and shy smiles gave way to a beautiful proposal by Jungkook to Taehyung, on their high school graduation. Taehyung was shook, felt his knees go weak. When Jungkook had kneeled before him, saying out loud all the feelings that he felt. Which Tae never even dreamed of. Never dared to.
To be honest, neither Taehyung nor Jungkook were the TALK of highschool. They were pretty normal students . They weren't popular like the default romantic novels. And even their dating thing, was a hot topic only for their respective friends group. Which later merged, and became a friend group of 7 funny, crazy, fascinating and refreshingly handsome boys.
But Tae and Jungkook were really happy together. Living and trying to love each other the best. Their little dates blossomed into a lovely relationship, and the school love turned into an established college affair.
Until the 2nd year of college, Tae and Jk were in a quite well state. Their romantic bond was quite stable and both were joyful and fulfilled with each other.
But, in the 3rd year. Jungkook had to switch cities to continue his college's 3rd semester as a business economics major. His father was at the brink of bankruptcy in the city of Seoul. So, in order to renew his business and regulate his work. He switched cities.
Resulting in a tearful farewell of Jungkook. Everyone cried when they came to know about Jk's sudden departure. But, the most devastated one was Tae.
Their relationship was hidden from their parents as they were not that strict, but considered dating more of an unnecessary thing in college period.
Tae would just cling to Jk and both would cry, sometimes laugh and make endless promises.
The airport was the witness to their seperation, Jimin and Jin were holding onto Tae. Who was weeping, while Jk was just silent. He has bitten his lips so hard for them to bleed a lot, trying to bottle up emotions.
Finally after a long hug, Tae gathered himself and kissed him for the last time. They were ready for a long distance relationship. The worst form of love.
TIMESKIP~
For the initial months of their new connection form, calling, messaging and video calls became their lifeline.
But as things began getting hectic for both of them...it was hard. Long hours in college, hiding from parents and yearning for each other's presence.
And the thing they feared the most, happened atlast. Tae began doubting Jungkook. Unknowingly, he said things that he himself never thought of before. Always doubting and accusing.
It began getting overwhelming, they still loved each other. But their love was slowly getting choked by their consistent arguments and hateful words.
On a certain day at night~
Tae was laying on his bed, as usual lost in thoughts of Jungkook. Wondering what he must be doing. Was he studying? Or was he... partying? Or... talking to someone else?
But his trail of thousands was broken as his phone rang. He picked it up and his breath hitched as he heard "his" voice.
"Hi, Taehyung-ah?"
Jk said somewhat nervously....and Tae shut his eyes.
"Hi...what are you doing?"
Tae said out loud and Jk grinned as his tone seemed normal. Not angry or upset.
"I am just with a friend of mine. We are in college library."
Jk said unknown to the spark of jealousy he just burnt in Taehyung.
"What? This late?"
Tae said sitting up with an unsettled tone.
"Yeah...it's just, tomorrow is a presentation we have to perform in class. There are many others in our group. But you know, some are just lazy and nonchalant about projects. She is the only one, who showed up."
Jk said and Tae furrowed his eyebrows.
"So? It's too late .."
He said with a stern tone.
To which Jk blinked and replied uncertainly....
"Because we have to do work for others too now. As they didn't show up. And we are not alone, many are there. "
After a long moment of silence. Tae asked contemplating this...
"Are you....by any chance... lying, kook?"
Now this had hit a sensitive nerve for Jungkook. He instantly stood up from his seat and walked out leaving the girl looking around, confused.
As he walked to a corner, he pressed his palm against the wall. And took a deep breath.
Then answered with a little icy layering...
"Why? Why would I lie? And after a whole hectic day, you ask this? Seriously, Tae? "
Tae shifted on his bed and muttered under his breath...
"Who knows.... I am not accusing. Just asking."
Jk scoffed and said with a clenched jaw ....
"You know what, baby? If this is what you have to say after whatever we have been through. I don't think, this was what we are in a relationship for."
Tae replied back with angry tone...
"What do you mean? Now I can't even ask questions? "
The argument slowly peaked up and one line threw Jk off...
"If I am so problematic. Then why do you even call me huh? Why do you love me? And even, why do you still date me? Get yourself some other then, must be easy for you there."
Tae said huffing and panted after ranting.
Jk stood stunned and wordless for a whole minute. With same intensity he replied....
"Why? Because I fucking love you. I fucking fell for you. I have been loving you since 8 years. Because I see a fucking beautiful and blissful future with you. But now....it's blank, Tae. It's all black and blank.
And if I am such a player in your eyes. Then let's break up. And you can get a fucking prince charming for yourself."
Tae's eyes widened and he clutched the duvet tight. He muttered with a heavy yet upset voice...
"Alright, Jeon. If you wanna throw 8 years of this away. It's alright. You are free....just like you wanted to be, since forever. "
And then the call went dead...Tae cut the call and stared at the wall. Feeling so much that he couldn't even cry. 8 years... trashed so easily. But the thing that hurt the most was, he knew this was coming.
For the next few days....they didn't talk. Hell they didn't even mention each others name while conversating with their friends. Even when Jk got messages from Rm or Suga. He would keep Tae out of everything. Same goes for Tae, himself.
At some point, they didn't talk to or about each other. But whole day, they would rethink everything. Replaying everything. As if that could change something.
No one dared to contact the other. Keeping everything locked to themselves.
For once, Jk thought of visiting Seoul. To meet, probably sort out things. But he was scared of Tae's reaction. Scared what if his visit just worsens the situation even more.
This silence stretched long...longer than what they expected.
For a whole year...no one talked. No one gave some closure or anything. It was like, they disappeared from the scene. Even on birthdays or their relationship anniversary, none texted.
On Jk's birthday, he got several birthday wishes from friends on his phone as he had became a known student in college due to good ideas and presentations. But he was just scrolling and refreshing the app to see a certain wish from a certain someone.
Taehyung....but he never got any. While on the other side, Tae would just cling to the stuff toy Jk gave before. Weeping or sometimes whispering yearning words. But never dared to send the pre typed message to Jk, while his phone layed beside him with the wallpaper of them.
Slowly they began blending in their lives. Even other friends like Jin, Jimin etc stopped mentioning Jk before Tae. They were still in Jk's contact, unknown to Tae. But not wanting to upset both of them, they kept quiet on this topic.
While Jk was getting busier by each passing day as his graduation came near. As he was a business economics major, his ideas and presentations now had opportunities to be presented before businessman or angel investors. Which had loaded him with several responsibilities and leading chances.
Taehyung, as an architectural designing major. He too focused on working more and sketching designs more. To quieten those devastating thoughts. His hardwork made his parents feel happier. They thought their son is getting mature and responsible.
But unknown to them, he was bearing a heartbreak and burden of unknown endless possibilities of his relationship, which seemed ended yet bonded.
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