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Yoda actually chuckled, a gargling sort of sound. "Great secret that is, yes. Control, the key is. Anger, fear, aggression the Dark Side are they. Powerful emotions they are, control the key always is. Anger I have felt oh yes, grief, yes that too. Ancient am I, trained hundreds of Jedi. Grief an old friend it is."
Yoda shook his head, looking like an old tree, ancient and gnarled from too many winters. "But reaching out to the Force, a Jedi cannot do while feeling those emotions. Abstaining from emotion works better than confronting or controlling for many."
"That leaves you open to those emotions when you cannot 'abstain' from them." Lily said shaking her head. "It's a short sighted and very, to my mind, stupid approach. But worse to me is that you don't allow for marriages or attachments."
"Attachments to each other we allow," Yoda prefabricated, not truly understanding where she was coming from or rather why this was such a problem.
"Master Yoda," Tholme said slowly, looking between the diminutive alien and Lily, wondering where this was going to go, "She is speaking of acquaintances beyond friendship, love I believe."
"Yes," Lily said sharply. "By your own rules, I would never have been able to marry I would've never been able to love and have my child, I would not be able to love him because that is an attachment."
"Split loyalties, cause tension they do. Jedi Lords, loyal to their planets they were over the Republic, conflict this caused, conflict leading to death and the Dark side. Personal attachment, to jealousy it leads, then leads to the Dark Side. Over the years, fallen to that have several Jedi." Yoda said bluntly.
"A group of Jedi, fell to that kind of thing when I was young. Involved in a triple relationship, the woman leading on the two men. Another girl, unrequited feelings for one of the men she had. Fell to the Dark Side they all did. A lot of damage did they before they were brought down, by me and others. Other single instances of Jedi falling to the Dark Side because of jealousy or lust there have been."
Yoda shrugged. "The Ruusan Reformation, right it was to forbid attachments, marriages and such like."
"I have a major problem that. It makes no sense to me it isn't such a simple equation as you paint it. And I believe that if a Jedi was able to acknowledge that they were in a relationship openly, their other spouse could keep them on the straight and narrow.
"As for split loyalties, here is another major issue I have with the Order." Lily said, her emerald eyes narrowing dangerously, a sign that would've sent any of the Marauders, or indeed anyone who knew her at all back on Earth running for cover. Lily's anger was not like that of most redheads. She never burned hot and fiery, she was cold and controlled and all the more terrifying for that. "You… take... children… from… their… families."
"Of course," Tholme said, frowning as he tried to work out where Lily was going with this. "Learning to be a Jedi takes a lifetime, the younger we find a child, the better for them."
"You take people children from their families! And what if a family refuses to hand the child over?" Lily went on inexorably. "I understanding many worlds, that having a Jedi could be seen as a great honor, but is it such a great honor that it makes up for them missing the love of a family, of knowing your parents, knowing your heritage, where you came from, your world? I have talked to some of the children here, and though many of them don't know it, at least five of them seem to have been taken by force!"
Yoda's ears drooped, and he looked at Tholme who shrugged. "I'm sorry Master, I don't know anything about that. You'd have to talk to the Jedi who brought them in."
"Thanks to my own special circumstances I was forced to miss out on the first eleven years of my son's life. I know how painful that is, how it cuts at you, never seeing your son or daughter again. And if you had tried to take my son from me, I would have done anything I could to stop you. How many parents have fought to keep their children? How much fear and hate are you spreading by taking children from their families like that?"
"An honor to be a Jedi it is." Yoda said, but there was no conviction in his tone, and he looked away. He knew that sometimes in the Outer Rim parents did object, and were overruled if the Jedi who found the child thought he or she was strong in the Force. He had never considered however how bad that could look from the other person's point of view, not being at home with the idea that such things as family and loved ones mattered to an individual. His people did not reproduce in that manner, and barely had anything resembling clans, let alone families.
"Indeed, it is not like that." Tholme said, though he too was looking somewhat thoughtful.
"How do you know!?" Lily roared suddenly causing Tholme to jerk backwards his eyes widening as Lily's hair seemed to move in an unseen wind. Yoda however weathered the storm of the Force Ghost's anger, feeling no reaction from the Force around them which was interesting.
It also could be simply because the Force Ghost didn't have much power at the moment, but Yoda didn't know whether or not that was the case and assuming it would have been foolish.
"Understand your anger I cannot" Yoda said finally. "Family, attachments based off physical love, nothing to me these things are. Human I am not."
"She's right Master," Micah's voice said from the doorway, and he moved in to join the discussion, sitting down on the floor as if he was a youngling again. "I have been on such trips, I know that the Jedi are just as much reviled as we are respected on many worlds for that policy and others. You know I've had discussions with the Council of First Knowledge about this before."
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