Hot breaths intertwined with two sweaty bodies touching and gripping each other.
He just can't let go the soft and plump lips as if he is addicted to them, his tongue wanting to enter the hot and moist territory to taste the juices he has been yearning for but the stubborn teeth keep denying the entry.
It's frustrating....
It's so goddam frustrating..
And just like that, the yearning for the person beneath him intensified. It intensified so much that his body couldn't take it anymore and he woke up from his dream. Panting and in despair while thinking about the content of his dream.
Seungcheol looked at the person sleeping beside him.
Looking at Jeonghan who looks like an angel while asleep he couldn't help but think about the person in his dream. He has never been able to see the face of the person underneath him clearly but he feels like the person in his dream is beautiful, actually very beautiful. The most beautiful person in this whole world.
And to Seungcheol no man is as beautiful as Jeonghan, as for why he is so sure that the person in his dream is a man? He himself is not sure about it. It's a kind of feeling, a feeling that's engraved in his mind and heart, it's a feeling that's difficult to explain.
He keeps having such dreams these days, everytime he dreams about the same person but his dreams are very hazy, he couldn't see anything clearly but his body and mind feels the feelings, emotions and touches with a very intense clarity. Everytime he wakes up from his dream he feels so frustrated and helpless that he is about to go crazy.
Seungcheol admits that he used to have feelings for Jeonghan...
Okay, that's a lie.
Seungcheol admits that he has feelings for Jeonghan but he has stopped thinking about him since Jeonghan got into relationship with someone else and the thing is he himself is in a relationship with a girl named Sara and his relationship with her is not fake, he genuinely wants to plan a happy future with her while burying the feeling for his first love deep into a small corner of his heart.
But these dreams are messing with him and the fact that Jeonghan has started to bother him by repeatedly invading his personal space these days is not helping at all.
He sighed as he recalled how Jeonghan kept insisting that he wants to sleep beside him even as Seungcheol kept rejecting it again and again.
It's not like they both were the only one who were sleeping in one tent as it was shared by three friends but with Jeonghan insisting to sleep beside him, Seungcheol feels really restless due to the constantly revolving thought that Jeonghan is within his arms reach. His thoughts start to run wild and he keeps wanting to do the things he shouldn't do...
Seungcheol shook his head to stop thinking in the direction he shouldn't but it resulted in him feeling dizzy and a sharp bout of headache. He forgot that he had drunk so much that he was about to lose consciousness before falling asleep.
He clutched his head and took deep breaths to lessen the pain while reaching towards the water bottle he placed near his mattress. After taking a few gulps he finally felt a bit better. The pain he felt just now successfully distracted him from his complicated feelings towards Jeonghan.
He looked back at Jeonghan and noticed his long and thick eyelashes as well as his pink lips curling into a small smile as if the dream he is dreaming about is very sweet, sweet enough that it's making him smile in his sleep.
How cute.
But on the other hand Seungcheol couldn't help but mock himself at the irony cause the dreams he was dreaming these days are no less than a nightmare to him. A tempting and torturous nightmare.
As he led down to sleep again, his mind kept thinking about things such as his childhood memories that are filled with shared sweetness between him and Jeonghan. He has never seen a kid who is as naughty but also as innocent as Jeonghan.
For a younger Seungcheol, Jeonghan has always been a kid who needs his protection and care, a playmate who liked to prank him but also the first person who came after him asking if anything was wrong with him or if something happened with him if Jeonghan detected that his mood was low or down.
They have grown up with each other while depending on each other and sharing everything with each other. But these unpure thoughts in Seungcheol's mind about Jeonghan are something he can never share, not just with Jeonghan but with anyone.
He has been pressing these feelings down since high school and it's suffocating. It wasn't this bad before until the appearance of these recurring spring dreams.
Seungcheol turned his body so that his back was facing Jeonghan. He adapted the stance of out of sight out of mind to sleep peacefully.
There's one thing he has been unable to understand. Him and Jeonghan has been university students since two to three years where Jeonghan spent his first year chasing after his crush without having time to bother his childhood friend and later entered the sweet couple phase with his current boyfriend in the second year where yet again he couldn't spare much time to spend with Seungcheol but since the start of third year he has started act clingy with him?!
To Seungcheol it's incomprehensible and confusing.
Maybe it's because Jeonghan has been giving him too much attention these days that's why he keeps thinking about Jeonghan more and more daily so maybe that's why he keeps dreaming about Jeonghan at night. Isn't this how the subconscious mind works?
Maybe he should think about something else...
By now, Seungcheol started feeling drowsy but his thoughts kept turning.
Before his eyes started closing automatically he was still searching the topics to think about.
What should he think about?? Should he think about his mid term exam? Should he think about Sara? Should he think about the games he is gonna play after returning to his apartment from the trip?
Should he think about....
Huh?
Minghao?
And just like that, the name drifted in his subconsciousness so fast that it was impossible for a sleepy Seungcheol who fell asleep uncontrollably to catch it.