(Colton Cypraes)
Did I intend to fall for Orion? Nope. It wasn't even on my list, falling in love. It just happened, and now I'm dreading the day he will find out about my relationship with Finn. Worse, I'm still keeping it a secret from him. I hope it won't break him. Fuck, I screwed up big time.
Before going to the village for our work, I had my sister look into his and Finn's relationship, and from what the results show, it wasn't good. I can't believe I blamed him for the fallout I had with Finn. The old driver at Finn's house brought so much information to the light.
I'm scared he isn't going to continue seeing me. If what we are doing is seeing each other. I haven't even asked him out on a proper date yet. It has been three days since I let Orion go home with his little girl.
Whipping out the photo from my wallet, the contents of that photo make my heart swoon and does this little dance. He looks cute in this photo with this little bump. His little princess was even cuter in person. How come no one knew that he had a child? No tabloid or even anyone in Finn's household mentioned her. Maybe she isn't his. I mean, no one in Finn's household has blue eyes and certainly not curly hair, she got that from my little Kitten. My little Kitten, that name alone changes my mood.
As I touch my lips, I remember that kiss was soft, electric, and unforgettable. If there's one moment I wish I could experience again and again, it's that day. The taste of sweetness stays in my mind, and the warmth of our shared breath sparks something deep inside me. Is this what love feels like? The desire to relive a perfect moment over and over, wrapped in the fire of passion? Is this what people call love?
"Well, what happened to you. You seem different, good different son."
I look up and spot my father leaning in the door, studying me, like something changed about me. Which feels offensive, I'm still the same person.
"It's nothing, Dad."
"Well, son, I know that look all too well. You forget that I was once a young man too."
The image that comes to mind is seriously disturbing, imagining my father courting my mother doesn't sit right with me.
"Hey, don't give me that look that union brought you to this world. Be grateful."
He scoffs as if I've offended him.
"I'm sorry, Dad, it's just that your type of love is different from ours."
"Son, love is love. We raised you to know that. Don't embarrass me in front of my son-in-law."
"Seriously, Dad, I don't even know if he'll want me after going radio silent for three days. I think he'll hate me."
I bury my face in my hands. I've been replaying everything I could do to make him forgive me. Fuck, I went shopping for gifts to give our little princess, and I don't know.
"From what I saw from my future son-in-law, I think he'll forgive you if you come clean," he then places a kid's makeup kit in front of my study desk, "I could see it from his eyes the way he looked at you."
I don't know if that's supposed to cheer me up. It only makes me feel even more awful. I've been typing and deleting texts, every time I want to send them to my little Kitten. Sometimes when I feel like texting him, I see the typing notification on his chat, and then it disappears. It has happened more than once, and I live to know that he still has me in his mind and heart, I hope.
Well, here I am four days later at his door with all this stuff. Fuck I pray that he opens the door for me. I ring the doorbell and nothing happens. It's quiet. Is he even in the house? Did they lie to me about his whereabouts? Does he not want to see me anymore?
I walk towards the window, and it looks open. As I stare inside, I spot Orion staring at me, my little Kitten.
Well, at least one hurdle is over. Fuck, how do you ask someone out on a date? I've been trying to bring up the question, but I'm scared shitless and but before today I'm going to ask him out. The pressure is too much, I have to do it.
"Hey, little Kitten, do you wanna go out on a date with me. It's okay if you don't want to. I know I messed up when I didn't contact you for days, and well, I won't give up until you agree, so what is your answer?"
"Wait, are you scared now?"
Me, sacred nope I'm not scared. I'm screaming my lungs out. I am scared, I think my soul just left my body for a minute there.
"Okay, I'll go out on a date with you since you asked politely."
I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding onto. That felt so relieving. I was scared he would reject me. Thank God, he didn't refuse me.
"Really?"
My voice comes out, barely as a whisper. And he smiles at me. That sight brings me so much joy fuck. Orion Cypraes sounds kinda hot, or Colton Ligh fuck, I want him to have my name so that everyone will know he's mine. We will get married at a seaside near a cathedral Fuck will live in a house just like this, but bigger, near a waterbody. We will have lots of children, the little princess included. And grandkids, we will have lots of them, running around our house.
I'm getting ahead of myself, but fuck it. It's worth it. I'm not letting him go, even if it's the end of the world, I will fight for him like those people who fight for their lives when the world is ending.
Gently cupping his face, I bring it close to mine and place my head on his. I notice again that he is standing on his toes. Fuck there's just something toxic knowing I'm taller than him. He is perfect for my size. All small and warm and soft. Fuck, I shouldn't tease him or else my body won't listen to me. Who cares, he is mine, I'm going to have him all to myself.
I have to prepare for that date. Shit, I've never been on a date before. What are you doing to me, little kitten? Well, at least I have my sister to help me, right after she gets better. I wonder what he is allergic to. Well, at least I know that he likes strawberries, so that is a must. Well, the planning is going to be my future problem, not right now. I just want to get lost in his embrace.