Ivana thought for a bit before saying
"I obtained my power when the war happened 9 years ago. When my family was on the brink of being destroyed, we suffered an ambush in our villa. And my…"
Ivana stopped for a moment before continuing her explanation
"Anyway. I've been brought to my deepest nightmare and despair at that time. As I experience that hell, something strange happened to me"
Ivana picked up a wine bottle and poured it into two wine glasses. She pushed one to Ilaya and picked the other as she sipped in it. Then, she continued
"My heart… or rather, the place where my heart is located suddenly hurts a lot. It's so painful that… it felt like it was burning. Yes, Slowly burning. That's what it felt. And I saw this red mist appeared out of me"
Ivana held out her hand. In her palm, a blood red aura appeared. To Ilaya's eyes, it looks like a ball of red fire, floating in the air. As she saw it, it made her realize again that they're leaving the mortal world and entering a supernatural one
As she marveled at the beauty of the red aura, Ilaya's eyes widened as she remembered the time when she did her experiment. She vividly remembers that her heart hurts like it was burning! It's just like what Ivana had experienced!
Then, Ivana explained what happened afterwards
"...After I felt the pain at that time. I… couldn't remember what had happened afterwards. I'm almost sure that I'm supposed to die that day. But, I managed to… survive. With a lot of injuries of course"
Ivana became silent as she remembered that day. With her loved ones shielding her with their bodies as bullets tore through them. They all fell down and something broke in her. Then, her heart started hurting. She shook her head to remove the memories and said to Ilaya
"After I was found by the members of my family. I was sent to the hideout where my grandfather is hiding. But… after I woke up, my grandfather didn't tell me about what had happened of how I managed to survive
Maybe it's because of the horror of what I had experienced that night that he decided to not tell me the truth. And that time, I didn't care about such things. But… before he died two years ago, he suddenly told me what happened that night"
Ivana put down the wine glass as she took a deep breath
"He told me that I had killed all of them. A 16 years old girl, a little kid basically who had a weak body. Killed more than 40 grown burly men, armed to the teeth with all kinds of weapons. He said that our men that responded to the ambush, saw all of the enemy bodies pierced in all of their vital areas"
Ilaya gasped as she suddenly shivered. She remembered when she killed the serial killer. She had become a blood thirsty monster that time and she was certain that if Ivana didn't arrive in time, she would have similarly killed Yamato in a more horrifying way. And after that, she will look for more
Ilaya trembled and tears appeared in her eyes. She's really afraid of what she had once, and will become if she ever returned to that state again. As she stared at the red wine, Ilaya suddenly became nauseous as she averted her gaze. Then, Ivana said to her
"I believe you know what I'm talking about. After I heard what my grandfather said to me. I didn't really believe it at first, but I also have a hunch that there's some truth to what he said. All i need is confirmation"
Ivana then looked at Ilaya and smirked
"And to my surprise, you also exhibit the same characteristics as my grandfather told me about when you killed that serial killer. Though, I'm somewhat sure that the behavior we will show when we go on a rampage depends on what influences us at that time. At least, that's what I think"
Ivana put her hand in her chin as she ponder before saying
"What I had experienced at that time was people killing other people. They had one goal, to end the lives of others. So, based on the information from my grandfather, I killed the people in the most efficient way. To strike at their vitals. For the sole purpose of killing"
Then, Ivana looked at the trembling Ilaya as she slowly said
"You on the other hand. Because of the serial killer's love of using a perverse method of torturing his victims before killing them. You were influenced and somewhat copied or inherited his tendency for brutality. You feel satisfaction whenever you make someone suffer. Tell me. Describe to me in what way you killed the serial killer"
As Ilaya heard what she said, she leaned forward and hugged herself as she trembled violently. She gripped her upper arms so much that her fingers turned white from the force. As Ilaya stayed silent, Ivana said to her
"Ilaya. I know it's painful for you. But for us to be able to know our conditions, we both need our input to be able to find the information that we want. You're also a different case as you remembered the memories of your rampage unlike me"
Ilaya nodded as sweat dropped from her face. Ilaya said while weeping. In a tone of confessing her sin
"I-I saw him running away… and used my power to… break his knee"
As Ivana saw Ilaya in a pathetic state of heaving and crying at the same time. She suddenly had a thought
'Is it possible that what happens to us when we go into a rampage is the opposite of what our true nature was? I love my people and want them to live so much that I killed the others. Ilaya is a kind and polite person, but she killed the serial killer in a brutal and sadistic way. Bordering on being demonic one could say. For me, it's life and death. For Ilaya, it's good and evil? Then, if a time ever happens when we go on a rampage again, doesn't that mean that I'll bring death to everyone. As for Ilaya…'
As Ivana thought of that, she suddenly shivered. She quickly vanished the thought and she had a realization
'What happens when we go into a rampage is; either we were influenced by what's happening around us. Or our opposite nature comes out to replace us. O maybe it's both. But, is what influences us when we rampage changes according to the situation? Or is it fixed when we first go out of control?'
As she's thinking. She heard Ilaya continued talking while weeping
"I-I felt so good when I heard his screams… and I broke all his flexible body parts…"
Ilaya suddenly felt a vomit coming up to her throat as she forcefully swallowed it back to her stomach. She felt so cold now as she continued talking
"Then, the killer passed out. I-I want to hear… his screams again so…ghp!"
Ilaya couldn't take it anymore as she suddenly got up from her chair as she rushed towards the bathroom and vomited. Ivana looked at her rushing figure as she finished her words in her stead
"So, you stabbed him to death"
Ilaya heard her words as she kept crying as she stared at the sink. She felt the man's blood all over her again as she opened the tap and washed the non-existent blood that kept reminding her of her sin. As she's all messy now, Ivana said to her
"Get back here Ilaya. We need to continue our conversation"
Ilaya turned her head to Ivana as she glared at her. She felt something exploded inside her as she shouted angrily at her
"I'm suffering here! Can't you show some consideration to me!?"
Ivana stared at her as she got up from her seat. She walked towards Ilaya as she suddenly rushed at her. She brought her right arm behind her with her hand tightly closed. As she closes to Ilaya, Ivana threw her punch to Ilaya's cheek
Twack!
Ilaya was startled as she was hit in her cheek. She fell down in the bathroom as she felt an extreme pain in her face
"Aggh!"
She groaned as she felt something warm streaks from her nose. Then, a liquid dropped to the floor. She stared at her blood on the floor and realization hit her that Ivana punched her