The lights around me was dimmed to the point , even I could not see my hands .
My heart pounded with the rhythm coming out of the mic set I had on my ear
" Get in the position, starting in three , two , one -"
"I know you like me at night
In morning , I am not divine
I am helpless but faceless
When I see you in morning light "-
My body moved as Summer started singing ...it knew how more than my soul did .
I had been practicing this same choreography for last two months. Even in my dream , my steps could never be wrong . It was Rain's turn to sing -
"Say , boy from next door
Did you come out of my dream
Is that why only at night I can be his ?"
I just realised that it was the first in months , I had come up on the stage . Also it was my first time to rap part on the stage , since Winter was no more our rapper .
' Winter ...can you see me ? Are you watching us from some part of the world ?'
' I feel like a princess
Sitting in a castle
Waiting for your call or a message
Please your highness
Won't you look at your Odette
In the morning, can't we be together?
No , no , no '
I looked at Rain for assurance, she gave me
a small node ,before starting her own part -
'My friends say we are tragic
Only happy ending can be by magic
But I am cursed with love '
Both my friends circled around me . With their makeup done and wearing matching blue dresses they looked like pair of butterflies . Under this dazzling light , there was nothing imperfect about us , it was like a dream , I was not longer Julia Anderson, I was Autumn, I sang -
My friends say you are prince charming
But each time we part , I am crying
I don't know if I am ever gonna be enough
The beats dropped low , before the chorus started -
'Oh Oh Odette
My lady , lady , in white dress
A lone night is such a big waste'
And then it was Summer's turn to take the centre -
'Hello lady lady Odette
Your mint chocolate fate
Will a Shakespeare write my name
In a tragic novel .'
The crowd around us cheered with light sticks. I was forgetting my worries with my each step . Here , everything was so simple . Here , for tonight , I was someone so flawless.
I could never let of of this feeling . Even though the shadows of faces surrounded me. I could almost see my dead father in the darkness . But I was not going to look at his face tonight .
I was out of my breath before even the next song had started . The backup dancers would buy sometimes for us .
I could see the crowd cheering for us . Half a year ago , I thought that it would be never possible for me to get back on the stage again .
' The song starts in three , two , one -'
I got into position as my mic gave me the order . We were also doing an old favourite today , the one that won ' Global Sensation ' award -
' Dream of a Paradise '
The audience were screaming louder than the music . I started singing -
' If you look at my eyes
I will let you see a paradise
If you hold our your hands at me
I will be the heaven that you dream '
Usually, I would be holding hands with Winter for this part . But her absence felt hollow. Like I had lost a limb I needed for dancing .
'My dear Winter , you had no idea , that you had taken a part of me when you had left me like this '-
I wanted to tell her this . I wanted to curse her and asked her how she was doing .
If she ever missed dancing with us like this -
' Aa -I will let you dream of a Paradise
Don't let me go , I will dance with you tonight
Don't you know I came to put a spell on you ?
I will steal your heart and hide it in mine '
The light sticks around us swayed with the rhythm. It was like watching a billions stars dancing around us .
I felt like I had become a part of the night sky tonight. Vivid and beautiful ....I could hear the audience cheering for me .
For all the time , I had wondered what a broken , weak , useless person I was - these people told me something opposite.
I could hear them calling me lovable , beautiful. It made me choke . I never thought that I would be able to receive love like this .
" Dream , dream , dream of a Paradise
I am here with you so don't you close your eyes.
Dream , dream , dream of a Paradise
I will let you feel , I will let you have me tonight "
I knew that when the light was turned off , when I no longer had an ocean of pink light sticks waving at me - when I was just Julia Anderson....I was a broken woman with a messy marriage, I was an unfilial child who caused my father's death , I was a weak , useless woman who could not even protect her own husband.
I was worse than any ordinary woman.
I shivered , realising the storm that was to be hit tomorrow. And before coming on the stage , I had already received a message from my brother -
" I have found the real Mira Palmer you are looking for "
I could not wait for the tsunami to hit my life again .