I think I understand what that measurement and percentage are about… I think these three things are the keys to starting a relationship.
It doesn't matter if the other two are missing; as long as one is strong enough, something can begin.
If she has enough emotion and sentimental love, she can ignore the sexual and rational sides.
The same goes for the rational: if she believes I can give her a good future, a family, and stability, she could overlook the sentimental and sexual aspects.
And the sexual aspect isn't exempt from this logic: if she desires me intensely, something can also start.
Of course, if the other two are too low, it would only work at first, but that's enough for me.
And although I don't know if that's the case, really because it's just my interpretation, I see the possibility of entering it through that door called "carnal desire."
"No!! I can't... ugh! But it's just that you to me... ugh! It's just too much... ugh, how my hands felt touching every curve, every piece of you, and your scent that intoxicated me and drove me to a beastly madness that I just couldn't stop... not to mention your insides that just squeezed me... ugh! No, I can't, this... I shouldn't feel this way, but... ugh! Iris, forgive me!"
"I... I... haah~ first calm down, let's calm down. We're both a little confused and Agitated , and this is not the time to do anything rash."
"Calm down!... Calm... down... yes, calm down... haaah~ okay, you're right. I got a little overexcited, I'm sorry about that... I honestly don't know how you can stay so calm... I mean, you're married too, and your husband... wait... oh, no! If you're the lady of the town, he is... what if he finds out?... I don't matter, but Iris... oh no! Oh, no!!"
"I told you to calm down! First of all, I know how to deal with my husband. Second, as I said, nothing will leave this room. And in case it does, I have enough authority to keep your wife safe. But, as I said, only if this leaves here... which it won't."
Uuy, the way she talked about her husband was very dry and without guilt."}
That says a lot. And on the other hand, I think it's more than clear how much I love my wife. It may seem counterproductive, but it won't be.
I also gave her something to make her feel like she has me under control. We'll see if she uses it, or if she's a better person than I thought.
"Ah... I'm sorry, I got excited again even though... huu... haaaa~ you know, lady, all this is hard to take in... huaaah~ but I'm glad you're a trustworthy and kind person."
Now it's time to take this further. We need things in common, more resonance and a feeling of compatibility and mutual understanding. I have to slowly build something...
"Huh? Kind?"
"Yes, well... you're patiently calming me down again and again. You know? In retrospect, it's not all your fault. I was also full of desire... and passion for your seduc- Ah!, sorry for talking like that, lady... hmm, did you mention your name?."
"No, it's Azalea, that's my name... And you can call me that… in private. Okay, now that you've calmed down, we can talk about it calmly. I understand that you love your wife and you're sorry, and I know I threatened you to continue. Really, that was wrong of me."
"No, as I said, it's not entirely your fault. If I really hadn't wanted to, I would have refused more strongly. I also have to apologize for my lack of professionalism when I gave you the massage. It's just that... when I was with you, I felt something I can't explain, something beyond the physical."
"I... I think I understand... By the way, what's your name?"
"Oh, it's Astar."
Good, she agreed.
I think that often the carnal and the emotional can become mixed up or confused.
If I tell her that I felt something, and she felt it too, then if I give it a clear meaning—even if the source was just lust—she could unconsciously deceive herself and believe that it was actually what I said. That's what 'suggestive interpretation' is all about.
Well... I think she must have...
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Emotional: 23%
Carnal: 56%
Rational: 12%
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Oh, as I thought... the emotional will grow based on vague feelings and sensations... hmm, I guess the carnal increased because of... good, it doesn't always need my direct intervention.
"Well, Astar... we're both adults... and we both make decisions and have to take responsibility for them."
"Yes... you're right. Again, I apologize for earlier, I didn't show my best side."
"I understand, you were shocked... it's normal."
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Carnal: 57%
Rational: 15%
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The rational side also began to rise, now that I started talking to her calmly and gave the impression that I'm not a totally irrational person, and since she doesn't know anything about me, anything could improve it.
I feel like this would be the easiest to increase in the low percentages, since a person who doesn't have serious prejudices doesn't end up hating or having a bad rational opinion of someone they've just met.
If I act normal, it will continue to rise quickly, and I think it will stop around forty. From there, she would have to start reasoning about the feasibility of having me as a partner and so on.
And I think the carnal will continue to increase over time until she finishes digesting everything.
But my focus is on the emotional. That's the hardest part, and I need to raise it no matter what.
I need more emotions, more things in common, more things that, even if vague, bring her joy, more positive emotions, so that just thinking of me brings her a warm feeling.
"But what do we do? Is keeping it a secret really the solution? I don't know if I can do that to Iris... haaah~ I think after what I did, it's inevitable that we'll break up... haaah~"
"... Is it...? Do you really think doing that is the solution? Do you want to do that?"
"No, I don't want to, but I love her... and that's exactly why I have to do it. Especially because now I feel that... with you... ughh... but that's not going to continue either, so—"
"Who says it won't?"
"Huh?"
"It doesn't have to end... You don't want it to end, do you?"
"No, but wasn't it bad? You know, I felt like I got carried away, it must not have been a good experience for you."
"Actually... ahem! It wasn't that bad... more importantly, I don't think it's something we should just brush aside."
"Wait... you're not trying to tell me that...?"
"Why not? It's not that bad. You probably don't know because you come from a remote village, but polygamy is common among the nobility."
"But I'm a commoner, with no status. That has nothing to do with me, and besides..."
"Wait, let me finish. My point is that you don't have to feel so guilty. In the grand scheme of things, loving more than one person is not unusual or uncommon. There are many nobles and even some commoners who practice it if they are able. So you don't have to feel bad about how you feel."
Yes, that's what I wanted, she feels that my interest in her now is at the same level or even higher than I feel for iris, and I have already shown how much I really love iris, that will definitely give her a good feeling.
"So... is it okay to tell Iris and then—?"
"No! You can't. Even though I said it's normal, it still falls within the same status. People don't need to know we have something, and telling her could be dangerous. As you said yourself, telling her would put her in danger. It's for her own safety…"
Oh, you're not using it to threaten me, but rather to convince me.
Now that she's calm, I realize that she's a good speaker and a very reasonable person. It's cute how she's the one trying to convince me with reasoning now.
Although at the same time she could be convincing herself, either way, it means that everything was going well.
"So we'll be something like secret lovers?"
"To put it simply, yes."
"Hmm... I love Iris, but honestly, I don't know if I can live without you now... I feel like if I refuse and let you go... I'll always feel a void inside me. Huff, well... I think, even though I know it's wrong, it's best for everyone, maybe like you said, it's not even a bad thing".
"You're right, it's not a bad thing, and in fact, life with your partner will be more stable than ever."
"Yes, I think you're right, hmmm... but I want to make sure of something first, I have something to ask you."
"Go ahead."
Okay. Now that we've reached this point, it's time for you to clarify how you feel.
"Tell me, did you... did you feel it too?... That something! That something you didn't know was missing, that you needed… that thought of 'this is the person I've been looking for' popping into your head, even if you weren't really looking for anything."
"Something I was looking for...?"
"Yes, that feeling that a void inside you was finally filled, a void that made the nights especially cold and lonely."
"That's..."
"That feeling of warmth, of fulfillment, and of finally being where you're supposed to be."
"I think... no, now that you mention it, that feeling you're talking about..."
"Yes, it really is a feeling, but at the same time so many things... so many things I don't know how to put into words, things I didn't even understand about myself until now."
"That's why I... so this is what I..."
"And this same feeling is what tells me that going our separate ways is not an option. Do you... do you feel all that? The same thing I'm feeling? Because if you just want my body, I don't think this will work, and I think it's better for both of us..."
"No! Wait... wait a minute, what you said... I... I believe it too, no, I definitely felt the same thing."
"Really? You too!"
"Y-yes, it's the first time in my whole life that I've felt something like this."
"Right? It feels like the real thing-."
"Love!" / "Destiny!"
"A destiny that leads us to love each other."
Ugh, why are you jumping so quickly to love? I thought you would say destiny... that was my mistake. I think I corrected it anyway.
I tried to strengthen our bond by saying the same thing, as if we were in sync, but I failed. I thought she was someone who had a hard time expressing her feelings, and my safe bet was destiny.
But she didn't seem to care. Instead, she closed her eyes for a moment, as if taking in everything I had just said. I quickly checked to see how she was doing and—
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Emotional: 45%
Carnal: 58%
Rational: 22%
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That was a big leap.
I didn't really feel any of that, but it was what I assumed. She couldn't find an explanation for it. She had probably been unsatisfied for a long time, and I came along and gave her an overwhelming amount of that and more, so when she woke up, she was very confused.
That confusion and uncertainty about what she was feeling was what I wanted to exploit and change on her emotional side.
Obviously, with my eyes I could see that it was carnal, but it would be difficult for anyone to make sense of those feelings.
And I did it for her. In the end, what matters is the meaning she wants to give to things she doesn't understand.
That's how the illogical and irrational work... but even that can be controlled.
"..."
"..."
She opened her eyes again, and it seemed that her beautiful red eyes had a different meaning than when she looked at me a few moments ago.
There was a silence as we looked at each other. If this was what it was all about, as long as I made her believe that the desire she felt was something emotional and sentimental, everything would be fine.
Suddenly, she got out of bed and came towards me. Well, we weren't very far apart to begin with, but for a moment I didn't understand what she wanted to do....
Wait, does she want to kiss me?