My Jin
Those words brought Jin back to himself.
They sent shivers through his heart.
He had never imagined that such words could come from Smart's mouth.
He focused, trying to look deeper into Smart's eyes, and there he saw his sadness.
He reached out to touch Smart's face, but Smart immediately turned his head away.
Smart unbuckled his seatbelt and stepped out of the car, taking a deep, almost desperate breath as if the air inside the car might suffocate him.
Jin froze for a moment—it was a reaction he hadn't expected.
The instant he saw Smart stepping out of the car, his heart nearly stopped.
A wave of panic hit him, stealing his breath.
He had never imagined Smart could react like that.
He immediately opened the car door and rushed outside, coming face to face with Smart.
He reached out and noticed that Smart's eyes were nearly filled with anger and pain.
"Smart! That angry face doesn't suit you. Calm down," he said, gently stroking his face.
Smart took a deep breath, determined not to let the situation end there.
He didn't speak a word, staying silent, and turned his head to avoid meeting Jin's eyes.
Jin could feel Smart's heavy breathing and understood that this wasn't a game—he was truly hurt.
He gently reached toward Smart's hand, took it carefully, and pulled it a little closer.
Smart lowered his eyes, clenched his fists tightly, showing every bit of tension and that he was still upset.
Jin felt the strength of Smart's grip and noticed that he wasn't just holding the hand Jin had taken—he had clenched the other hand as well, every muscle in his arms and hands signaling frustration and self-control.
He immediately took hold of Smart's other hand and spoke softly,
"Smart… look at me."
Smart, in that moment, wanted to be alone, but that wasn't an option. He took a heavy, stressed breath and turned his gaze toward Jin.
"Before you say anything… I need a cigarette," ," he whispered softly.
Jin wasn't in a position to argue. He knew that if Smart asked for a cigarette, it meant he was extremely stressed and needed to calm down a bit.
"Fine I promise I'll let you smoke, but only after we talk!" Jin said, just to postpone it,but Smart's eyes said otherwise.
He looked Jin in the eyes once more and said,
"I want it now! I can't feel my hands!"
Jin felt the tension and trembling in Smart's hands, and he wasn't lying. His hands were as cold as ice.
He slid his hand into his pocket, pulled out the pack, grabbed a cigarette, placed it on his lips, and lit it while looking Smart in the eyes.
He took one drag himself and then passed it gently, placing it between Smart's lips.
Smart didn't break eye contact with Jin, he inhaled the cigarette with all his strength and exhaled the smoke along with a heavy breath.
"We'll share this cigarette," Jin said as a pretext, to prevent Smart from smoking it all himself.
Smart nodded slightly.
After Smart inhaled a few more times and his breathing started to normalize, Jin took the cigarette back, inhaled a few puffs himself, and tossed it to the ground.
"Are you a little calmer now?" he asked in a soft voice.
Smart didn't answer; he just stared directly into Jin's eyes.
Jin grabbed his hands again, and now they were a little warmer than before.
"Calm down. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry for what I said.
I would never have imagined you could do something behind my back, crossing a line like that.
I said it in a moment of anger, overwhelmed by jealousy, frustration, and rage.
I don't want anyone else in this world calling you more than I do.
I want you to be only mine—to belong only to me.
I want you to trust me and tell me everything, everything you feel. If I ever fail to understand you, tell me. Don't stay silent."
I want to be by your side and take care of you.
Am I wrong?"
"I know my temper is a bit rough, but I'll fix it—for you."
Those words calmed Smart and softened him deep inside.
He listened, hardly able to believe that such sweet words had come from Jin's lips.
They made him feel that there was someone beside him, someone who could protect him from everything.
He completely forgot the situation and let himself be carried away by the emotions overwhelming him.
His heart was beating fast, in a wild rhythm.
—Slowly, he released his hands from Jin's grip and gently caressed Jin's hands.
Jin lowered his gaze to those hands and immediately held them even tighter, feeling a sense of relief.
He gently pulled Smart closer and wrapped him completely in his arms.
His hands slid around Smart's neck, softly stroking his hair.
His lips moved close to Smart's ear as he whispered softly,
"I want you only for myself."
"Don't you even think about leaving me,
"Remember this well: I will never let that happen."
"""Don't you dare talk to me like that about it again.
Just the fact that you even think it… annoys me, let alone saying it to my face,"," Smart murmured, leaning against Jin's chest..
Jin ran his hand through his hair.
"Okay, okay! My bad! I'm really such a jerk. I'm sorry… I didn't think it through. You won't hear it from me again."
"Jin… you're the only one I want.
"Don't you dare doubt this again. I swear, I won't let it slide if you do
The feelings I have for you would never cheat.
I would never cheat on you—not even in my thoughts.
You're mine," Smart murmured against Jin's chest.
Jin chuckled softly.
"Shouldn't you say… 'I belong to you'?"
Smart lightly hit his chest, pushing him back just a little.
"I like it the way it is," he said quietly.
"You're mine.""Only mine!"
Smart still couldn't believe how they had gone from a previous argument to this close embrace.
This relationship was going to be a challenge.
They were only at the beginning, yet it felt like every day would bring chaos.
Could we really handle this?
Uhh… how hard is this going to be? he thought, exhaling a heavy breath as if carrying all the stress inside him.
"You okay?" Jin asked, trying to gently move Smart's hands so he could see his face. But Smart didn't let go, keeping his hands firmly around Jin's waist.
"What are you doing? I want to see your face… just let me for a moment, and then I'll hug you again," Jin said.
"I don't want to," Smart murmured, resting against his chest.
"Okok, but hug me a little tighter, I want to feel you closer!" Jin said, still thinking about that number.
Who could it be? Why does Smart feel uneasy when he sees those calls? Is he trying to hide something from me? What could it be!?
Damn… this jealousy is driving me crazy. I don't want anyone near him.
Jin!! Smart called- pulling him out of his thoughts.
"Tell me… is something bothering you?" Jin asked immediately.
"Yes, it is," Smart chuckled, resting his head on Jin's chest.
"Hmmm… what is it?" Jin whispered lightly into Smart's neck, planting a gentle kiss.
"I'm just wondering…" Smart didn't finish the sentence.
"I'm listening…"
"Maybe you're wondering how important you are to me?" Jin laughed softly.
"If I were to ask that… would you answer me honestly?"
Jin pulled him back slightly to look him in the eyes.
He leaned in closer and spoke,
"Can you read my eyes?"
Smart stared deeply, losing himself in that gaze.
"They're melting for me…" he thought inwardly.
Jin understood, and there was no need for Smart to say anything.
"Then I guess you don't need any more words!" Jin added.
Smart kissed him lightly on the lips.
"Besides your eyes… are these lips melting for me too?"
Jin shook his head and pulled him tightly by the waist.
""Don't start teasing me again… I really don't know where you'll end up if you do!""
And he planted a soft kiss on Smart's nose.
"Let's go now," Jin said, taking him by the hand to guide him toward the car.
"Ok, *My Jin* Smart's sweet voice was heard as he lightly stroked Jin's hand in a teasing way.
Jin heard it and felt that touch deep within his soul.
That word made him feel something he had never felt before.
An emotion overwhelmed him, almost ready to burst out of his body.
*My Jin* — such a simple phrase, yet so heavy in Jin's heart.
How much I love that word, he thought in silence, unable to open his mouth and let those words escape.
Jin was the type who didn't openly express his feelings.
He was used to keeping words locked inside his heart.
He could show a lot through his actions.
More than anything, he showed his authority and his desire to have what was his, only for himself.
But Smart wanted so badly to hear those words from his mouth—words that would make him melt.
Smart noticed Jin smiling lightly when he heard that word, even though he quickly hid the emotion.
He stopped, pulled him back by the hand, and turned him toward himself.
He placed his hand over Jin's heart, feeling the wild beating of his chest.
Jin felt surprised and simply looked into his eyes.
"You like it when I call you 'My Jin,' don't you?" Smart whispered near his lips.
Jin didn't speak. He stayed silent, even though he wanted to shout it out loud.
"Fuck… do I like it? That word… it's the most beautiful thing I've ever heard."
"Hmm, you can choose to stay quiet," Smart said softly. "But I know that word affects you—it made you tremble.
Your body speaks for itself.
It hides nothing…
But I need to hear it.
I want every feeling to come from your lips.
I want you to express every fragment of those feelings… okay, *My Jin*?" "
I don't want you to only show your strength or jealousy with words.
I want you to let me see the gentle, tender side of your feelings for me too.
Jin smiled and kissed him on the lips, placing both hands on Smart's cheeks.
"You're going to make me lose myself over you, you know that?"
"Hmmm, I know. And that's exactly what I want too—for you to lose yourself completely in my being," Smart said with a sweet laugh, then headed toward the car to sit in the driver's seat.
"Where are you going?" Jin asked, laughing.
"Hmmm, I'm going to bed to sleep," Smart replied with irony.
"Driving the car?! Can't you see that again?"
Jin whispered softly,
"Soon you'll be lying in my bed!
But I don't know if you'll even be able to get up afterward," he laughed, a mischievous smile playing on his lips to provoke him.
"Hmmm, so you're telling me to prepare for the consequences before I end up in your bed," Smart felt a heat spreading through his body.
"Just a warning, so later you won't complain that I didn't tell you sooner," Jin said, sliding one hand firmly around Smart's waist and tightening his grip.
Smart laughed softly, imagining that moment.
He must be more than good in bed.
He must be a real beast that never feels satisfied, he thought, bringing one hand slowly close to Jin's hips—so close, but without touching.
Jin felt that hand on his body, and a faint, exciting sensation began to stir inside him.
"You never know," Smart said in a seductive voice, moving his hand lightly along Jin's body.
"Maybe we'll like it so much that we won't want to leave the bed."
Jin looked at him with a surprised, slightly suspicious gaze, not fully understanding what Smart meant.
Yet deep inside, he was already losing himself in an indescribable pleasure.
Smart laughed as soon as he noticed the expression on Jin's face and immediately reacted.
"I mean… maybe I'll just enjoy staying in bed a little longer."
Jin almost melted in that moment.
Those were words so arousing to his ears.
His imagination started taking on a wilder, more unrestrained form.
"I'm dying more and more every day to tie you to my bed.
I want to keep you there and enjoy every moment!
I want you to moan with just one look from me!"
"Fuck," slipped out of his mouth, breaking free from his thoughts.
Smart heard it and laughed softly.
"Yep… fuck. But let's get started before your imagination runs wild again."
Jin just stood there, staring into Smart's eyes. He had never even imagined Smart so free—not just in behavior but also in speech. He had only thought of him as cute and shy, nothing more.
But now, in front of him, was a Smart who was cute, cool, sexy, and super hot, and he was losing his mind over him.
"My Jin—let's go now."
Jin took Smart and guided him to the passenger seat.
"Now, let me drive—at your pace, otherwise I don't know what time we'd get there," Jin said, fastening his seatbelt with a laugh.
Smart looked at him with annoyance but didn't say a word.
Jin started the car, rolled up his sleeves, and placed his hands on the wheel.
Smart's eyes immediately went to the tattoo.
"Hey Jin, that tattoo on your arm looks really cool… I want one like that too," Smart said, reaching out to lightly touch it. He slowly rolled up his sleeve a bit more to get a better look.
Jin looked him in the eyes, grabbed his hand, and pulled it firmly back.
"Don't touch it like that. I won't take responsibility for what I might do."
Smart smiled lightly and leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to Jin's lips before pulling back just enough.
Jin tugged at the strings of Smart's hoodie, pulling him close again, and whispered, "You can't just tease me and walk away. You know I won't stop at that, right?"
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