Dilema !
Ren had just finished at the gym, taken a shower, and was heading straight to pick up Smart.
Smart came out and smiled when he saw him.
"What are you doing? Put something else on or you'll catch a cold."
"Why? Don't I look cool like this?" Ren replied, adjusting his sunglasses.
"If Leo could see this right now, someone would definitely be in trouble," Smart said mischievously, laughing.
"Leo? If he saw me like this, he'd admire this body," Ren said, lowering his gaze to his own body, proud of the physique he had built.
"No doubt, he'd totally melt for me," he added.
"Alright then, let's see!" Smart said, taking out his phone to snap a picture.
"Come on, hop in the car now—enough talking," Ren said.
Ren was wearing a white tank top that showed off every single muscle.
Especially since he had just finished his workout—he looked even more toned and impossibly sexy.
Smart sent the photo straight to Leo, and it wasn't even a few seconds before Leo called Ren.
Ren picked up immediately when he heard Leo's voice.
"Where the hell are you going dressed like that?" Leo asked, his tone teasing but sharp.
"Hmm… did you like what you saw?" Ren replied with a smirk.
"I liked it so much… I want to tear that damn tank top off you right now," Leo said, his voice low, heated, and impossibly eager.
"Hey, cute devil, watch your mouth!" Ren laughed, feeling a thrill.
"I'm not alone in the car—I'm with Smart. Don't make me start imagining exactly how you'd do it."
Smart smiled lightly.
"Go ahead, guys. It's not a problem for me.
Just pretend I'm not here right now," he said, enjoying the entire situation.
"Ren, what the hell are you saying?!" Leo shouted.
"Dare to step out of that car dressed like that, and you'll be sleeping alone again tonight."
"If you don't come to me tonight, I'll come and take you by force.
You know I will," Ren said confidently.
"Oh, absolutely. If you manage to find me in my apartment, sure," Leo replied, matching his tone.
"Leo, don't play word games and don't push me," Ren said, his voice turning sharp and fierce.
"Then do as I said.
When I tell you not to get out of that car in that outfit… you don't get out, got it?"
Leo's voice was calmer now.
"I don't follow orders. Others have to follow me when I say so," Ren continued, asserting his authority.
"Damn it, Ren! You're driving me crazy.
Put something else on and stop arguing!" Leo snapped, ending the call.
His voice had clearly gone out of control.
Smart smiled and turned to Ren.
"What did you just say to me a moment ago?"
"Don't talk," Ren replied, turning his head toward Smart.
"Look straight at the road… or you'll drive us straight into a ditch," Smart said with a hint of irony.
Ren stayed silent, only pressing the accelerator harder.
"Damn, Leo was so damn cool even when he shouted," Smart said aloud, just so Ren could hear.
Ren smiled lightly.
"Fuck… I know.
He looks cute and cool in every way—when he's annoyed, when he's happy, when he's serious…
I adore him in all his versions."
"So… you're in love with him?" Smart asked.
"I don't know if this feeling can be called love, but I do know I can't stay away from him for a single moment."
"How far has your relationship gone? Have you slept together?"
Ren took a deep breath.
"Damn… not yet.
I swear, there are moments when I can't hold back… my eyes go dark for a second, and I just want him to be mine.
But I can't.
Leo has always been the top, and he needs to be mentally prepared to accept being the bottom for me.
I can't force him, and I won't let this affect his mental health.
I have to wait until he allows it himself, until he tells me he's ready…"
"I tease him every now and then… just to see his reaction.
And he pulls back every single time.
I can't explain how torturous it is… there are moments when I can't hold back, when all I want is to feel him completely mine.
Damn… I don't know what else to do…"
"Ren, do you think Leo will accept that position?
How do you see it—from the gestures he shows?" Smart asked.
"Yes… the moment he lets himself go and relaxes, I can feel that deep down he's starting to accept it, even if just a little.
But the moment I mention it, he drops everything and pulls back again."
"I think you've passed the hardest part.
What matters is that, in his mind, he's already starting to think about it and preparing himself for the process.
It will be a bit difficult, but in the end, he'll let himself go.
You just need to be there at that moment and show him that, between two people who share deep feelings, the position doesn't matter."
"How will you act?" Ren asked.
Smart hesitated for a few seconds—not to avoid the question, but to think more deeply.
It's easy to give advice to others, but when you apply it to yourself, things can sometimes be much harder.
"I'll do whatever feels right…
This time, I'll let myself be guided by my feelings, savoring every emotion, every nuance.
Even if the strength of desire and feeling shifts from one day to the next, I'll be like water—taking the shape of any container, flowing freely.
And I'll enjoy every single moment, as if I were the only one in control."
Ren shook his head and smiled softly.
"Careful… don't overfill the container… you might drown."
Smart listened, but barely paid attention to Ren's words, letting his mind lose itself in the pleasure his thoughts were creating.
"We've arrived. Let's get out," Ren said, unfastening his seatbelt.
"Wait… but what do you have to do before getting out of the car?" Smart teased, giving him a sly look.
Ren exhaled once, then turned, grabbed a hoodie from his bag, and put it on.
"Anything else?" Smart asked.
"What else am I supposed to do… satisfy Leo's ego, right?" Ren said, pulling out his phone and snapping a picture to send to Leo.
As he took a few steps toward the café, Ren's phone buzzed.
A message from Leo appeared:
📩My good boy—
📩 You look so sexy when you obey me!
Ren chuckled softly.
"I'll show you who's in charge when we meet—who gives the orders and who obeys."
He slipped his phone into his pocket.
The two of them walked straight to their usual café.
The place had a cozy autumn vibe, and the aroma of coffee gave off a warm, pleasant feeling.
They sat in a quiet spot with a view of the city streets.
"So, how's work going?" Ren asked.
"Good… it's something new for me, but interesting," Smart replied.
"Here, let me show you some of the photos." He pulled out his phone.
Ren started looking through them, completely amazed by the shots.
"You really have a talent for this, you know," Ren said, scrolling through the photos until he reached one with Jin in it.
"So… how's it going with Jin?" Ren asked directly, not wasting any words.
"How far has your conversation gone?
No need to hide anything—I can tell you have feelings for him!"
Smart knew very well that Ren had figured it out, and he had been expecting this question.
"We're together now," Smart said.
"I don't know what awaits us next.
I know it won't be easy, but right now, in this moment, he's mine—and that's what matters."
Have you had sex?" Ren asked bluntly,without thinking twice.
Smart shook his head with a small smile.
"Ren… we've only been together for two days.
We haven't gone that fast yet."
Ren laughed and looked him in the eyes.
"Sometimes feelings don't ask permission. They just push you to the limits, right?
I don't even know how Jin has managed to hold back."
Smart chuckled softly.
"When I see Jin completely driven crazy for me, then I can do whatever I want.
But at the beginning, I'll torture him a little longer."
"You and your teasing and mind games," Ren said, laughing.
"Damn, I can't even explain how good he kisses," Smart said, as the memory of that fiery kiss from earlier flashed in his mind.
"You're getting all worked up over just a kiss," Ren teased.
"Imagine how it'll be when it's more than that."
"I hope he doesn't disappoint me in bed…
I'm not easily satisfied," he said, a sly smile appearing at the corner of his lips.
Ren leaned his face a little closer to Smart, lightly brushing his fingers against his head, as if to say, "What are you thinking?"
"Stop those messy, overthinking thoughts for a second… and tell me—have you told Jin that you work at 'Light'?"
Smart shook his head, biting his lip slightly.
"I'm asking because I haven't told Leo either," Ren continued calmly, watching him.
"And if you do, I'll have to tell Leo too."
Smart let out a quiet sigh, eyes fixed on nothing.
"Ren… honestly, we haven't gone that deep yet.
We're still at the beginning.
I don't know much about his life, and he doesn't know much about mine.
What we agreed on was simple—I asked him not to dig into the past and just get to know each other from now on."
"Even though I've met Jin at this point in my life, that doesn't mean I have to change my routine.
Just because he's rich doesn't mean I should depend on him financially!
I want to live on my own strength—and achieve my own things! You know me better than anyone in this part!"
Ren looked at him, trying to understand.
"Smart… you don't have to hide your past. Especially with Jin—he'll notice things anyway."
"I won't hide it! But that doesn't mean I have to tell him everything.
That's why I made him promise—whenever he finds out, he won't interfere.
That's also why I told him we shouldn't turn back to the past.
We met today, and from here, we move forward together."
Ren nodded slowly.
"Okay… but working at Light isn't exactly part of the past… you're still there."
"I know," Smart said, eyes narrowing thoughtfully.
"I just… I want to be careful. I want him to see me the way I choose… the way I want him to."
Ren leaned closer.
"Smart, you should show all sides of yourself; he should accept you as you are."
"Ren… sometimes I just want to tease him, test him, see how far he can go.
Sometimes I give signals that I'm not as cute, just to show limits.
I want to play with every side of my personality.
But in the end… I always like being cute for him."
Ren lit another cigarette, leaning back.
"Okay, but you really think Jin won't figure it out?"
Smart gave a small, quiet smile.
"You met him once.
You saw how he observes.
But noticing and asking… that's different."
Ren exhaled slowly.
"So… he might already have an idea?"
Smart glanced down, thoughtful.
Even if he does, he can't do anything right now, not in these early days.
He knows that if he tried now, he wouldn't be able to stop me.
He'll wait for the right moment, when I'm fully under his control.
Then he might have the power to tell me and even stop me from working as a waiter.
And honestly, I understand that—anyone in his position, with his wealth, wouldn't ever let their partner work as a waiter, right?
But even if he doesn't know yet… it's only a matter of time before he finds out.
I just need to be ready when that day comes."
Ren exhaled.
"So… you're really going to let him take the first step, no matter what?"
"Exactly," Smart replied softly, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
"I'll let him come to it on his own… let him tell me himself.
For now… I just want to stay close to the music and dance I love.
I want to do this on my own."
Ren lowered his eyes, then raised them again, sensing both the fire and the tension in Smart.
"And until then? What's the plan?"
Smart lifted his head, determination shining in his gaze.
"Until then… we leave things as they are. It's too early to complicate something that's just started.
But I'll be ready for whatever comes."
Ren nodded slowly, understanding more than Smart said.
"About your situation with Leo… does it cause any problems?" Smart asked, not wanting something he'd decided to hurt their relationship.
"No, don't worry. I made everything clear with Leo from the very beginning."
"What?" Smart asked, surprised. "What did you tell him?"
Ren leaned back comfortably in his chair.
"I told him that the day you become mine… that's the day he'll learn everything about me."
Smart laughed, startled by Ren's boldness.
"Why would you say something like that? Don't tell me you did it just to make him rush things and sleep with you."
"No, that wasn't the reason," Ren replied calmly.
"I just didn't want him to know where we work right now. At first, I simply didn't want to tell him.
And now… I really don't.
I don't want him getting jealous or feeling uncomfortable every time I have to go there."
"You're not just crazy about Leo," Smart said, just as his phone screen lit up.
"You're insanely in love with him."
Smart opened the message. The moment he read it, his expression changed.
"Damn… how did he get my number?"
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