"I need you to shift my uterus."
I stopped abruptly as my heart began to pound erratically in my chest, threatening to break out the next minute.
It can't be what I'm thinking, right? Maybe he was just missing me and decided to watch some porn. Right?
Inserting the password to his manor with shaky hands, I headed for his bedroom. The moaning was becoming louder the more I got nearer but I refused to give in to the images my mind hurled in my face.
Even though I was sure those high-pitched moans couldn't be coming from a device, I chose to hold on to that thought. He would never cheat on me. He has eyes for me alone, he'd told me that the previous day.
With a haggard exhale, I mumbled an inner apology to him for entertaining those thoughts but as I opened the door, my heart shattered into a thousand pieces.
Was I dreaming or was Ralph digging into a blonde woman like a starved animal?
The little box I was holding fell to the ground with a thud but they didn't even notice it.
"Oh, gosh. You're so fucking tight," Ralph growled as he increased the pace with which he rammed into a blonde.
Hot tears glided down my face as I watched the real life porn. Shutting my eyes close, I willed for the images to go away. But the opposite was the case as the woman's high-pitched moans continued to break into my thoughts. Reopening my eyes, I blinked a few more times. Fuck, who was I kidding?
That was my Ralph quite alright and he was having the time of his life with a woman that wasn't me.
"What is going on here," I finally found my voice but it came out as a whisper still. My head suddenly felt heavy for my head and a moment, I thought I would black out. Everything seemed made up_my being here, Ralph, the woman, the bed, our room….everything seemed so unreal.
"Fuck!" Ralph shrieked, as he jumped out of the woman's body. Somehow he had heard my voice.
Our eyes met for a second before I trailed mine down to his erect penis which glistened from the bitch's arousal. My heart escalated in its thumping as my gaze lingered on his penis.
"Amelia, it's not what you think. I-I can explain," Ralph stuttered.
I looked away as the sight of him suddenly made me want to throw up. How exactly was it not what I think? He was fucking cheating on me.
Hearing a low giggle, I turned back to the woman, an unfamiliar face as she shamelessly stroked her middle spot. Her facial expression was laced with amusement as she watched us like we were some kind of show.
And the fact that she was very beautiful made me feel even worse.
The woman made no attempt to get out of the bed, the bed that I had shared countless with Trevor, the bed that was filled with so many memories.
Slowing down my breathing to ease my rebelling heart, I turned back to Ralph, and his gaze immediately fell. My eyes stung from unshed tears but I held them back. There was no way I would cry, at least not in front of them.
"You said it's not what I think, right? Well, I'm listening. Tell me what is going on," I demanded, and was surprised by how calm my voice sounded as opposed to the turmoil that my whole insides were in. I was clouded with different emotions and wasn't even sure on the feeling to plump for. Even though I knew that there was nothing he could say as I had caught him red-handed, I still wished that he would say something to the contrary. Maybe that she forced him, anything but that he did it willingly. I was willing to forgive him if only he came up with a tangible excuse. What had I done wrong? What did I not do right? What does she have that I don't? It's not like I denied him sex. Why would he throw our four-year relationship like it meant nothing? Was this the forever he promised me?
I heard him sigh and it pulled me out of my thoughts. He made to hold me but I avoided his touch, tightening my face as his handsome face began to repulse me. Not to forget that he was stark naked in front of me while the scent of their activity invaded my nostrils and tugged at my chest.
"I asked you a question, Ralph. What is going on here?" I asked again, my voice coming out in a cracked whisper. I saw it coming. I saw the signs a year ago but decided to turn a blind eye to them all. He suddenly started to become secretive around me, going outside whenever a call came to his phone. He would insist on using a condom whenever we had sex, and would hardly display his love for me publicly like he used to. It was now crystal clear, how he would give me a dozen excuses as to why he hadn't called me as often as he used to. I had thought it was work stress and hadn't bothered to call out his behavior but now it was crystal clear. But somehow the truth was still hard to believe. How could he do this to me after all the sacrifices I made for him? After everything I lost because of him.
Just then, his whore…or whatever title she bore strutted her way to us and perched on his shoulder and he did not attempt to push her away. Gosh, why did I feel like he would?
Ralph sighed again as he held on to his temple and shut his eyes, a reaction that I would have rolled my eyes at if I was in a good condition. Who was in the better position to feel exhausted.
"Amelia," he started, as he ran his hand through his midnight black hair while he looked at the woman for a brief second. "This was bound to happen anyway. I just didn't think it to be this soon. But since the cat is already out of the bag," he paused as he wrapped his hands around the woman's waist and my eyes darted to it. My already shredded heart broke into many million pieces as the woman began to smile like she'd won a lottery.
"Meet Jane, the woman to my heart," Ralph announced as he stared at the woman lovingly. My stomach churned as I watched the way his eyes sparkled as he stared at her. Has he ever looked at me that way?
The 'Jane's' smile broadened as she dramatically fluttered her eyelashes, her lips broadened in a wide smile that a voice in my head wished for them to crack. Her ugly, perfectly….Who was I kidding. She was dead drop gorgeous and everything I was insecured about.
The face that had seemed shocked at first slowly morphed into an unbothered, bored one.
"Our relationship was nothing but a pastime. My girl travelled and I needed someone to pass the time with. It's a shame that you had to sacrifice all that for me," Ralph said as he clicked his tongue. I must've looked very pathetic as he quickly raised an eyebrow at me. "Wait, did you expect that I was going to settle for a thing like you? Well, I won't lie, the sex was good but now my better half is back and…"
I had no idea when I had made that decision, but the next thing, my palm collided with Ralph's cheek in a resounding slap. But I didn't regret it as his mouth suddenly turned crimson. I heard a gasp expel from the mouth of his bitch and just as she made to slap me, I held her hand midair and glared at her with all of my might.
"You didn't ask your man slut what I'm capable of, did you?" I raised a brow at her as she began to squeal. Ralph who had been initially surprised that I had raised my palm at him rushed to Jane's aid and it took a while before they were able to get my hands out.
Jane glared at me and wanted to swear at me when Ralph hushed her and kissed her right there in my presence.
"She's not worth yelling. Don't do anything that would hurt our baby."