To my dear Jiang Sui
Husband, by the time you read this, I'll be gone too.
No, you won't be able to see this letter, but I still wanted to write it to you.
You're such a mean old man.
Not only did you leave before me, but you also didn't let me feel sad or cry.
Okay, if you don't let me cry, I won't cry either. Not a single tear will shed, and you'll be happy, right?
You guessed right. I wanted to go with you, but you're so mean, calculating every step.
You left me with such a huge project.
I love you so much, but I don't want you to be so lonely. You can't wait for me, can you?
For over a year, I've suffered from the pain of longing. I know my health isn't what it used to be. I want to wait a little longer. Once I've finished everything, it's time to find you.
Actually, I've thought about suicide. The nights alone are so hard to endure.
But I'm timid, you know? I'm afraid. People say it's not about cherishing life, that suicide will send you to hell. I don't want to go to hell. I just want to be with you.
Brother Sui, you're so kind, you must be in heaven. I don't know if there's such a thing, but it's probably because you never wanted me to suffer with you.
The child has grown up.
Oh, yes, I know you don't like hearing about your son. You always think I love him more than you do.
Brother Sui, you're wrong. My feelings for Qin Qin will always be family, and my feelings for you will always be love.
I know you don't want to hear it, but I still have to say it.
You said your son married Tiantian, and you've always been nagging him about not having a wife. Now, he married the daughter of a famous basketball player.
Jiang Qin wanted to mourn for you, but I wouldn't let him. Our family doesn't have so many rules. I'll just accompany you.
The children shouldn't have to endure all that hardship.
Life wasn't hard for me, but since you've passed away, I've felt utterly miserable. Everyday has been an excruciating ordeal.
I'm old and ugly now. I wonder if you still recognize me.
You must be saddened by what I've said, but you deserve to be sad, having left me in this world for so long.
Brother Sui, you fell in love with me at first sight, right?
I remember the day you met me was in the early part of May, I think it was May 2nd. I'm adding a zero to the end of that date today.
I know I'm dying. I'm going down to find you. You'll see me soon.
Not you always felt like you've loved me longer than I've loved you, and now that's eighteen days longer.
But then again, you've been alone for a long time, too.
Don't be afraid, your Qing Qing is here.
By Qing Qing who loves you.
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Su Qing slumped over her desk, tears streaming from the corners of her eyes. The sunlight from the window shone on her white hair, and she slowly closed her eyes.
In that instant, she seemed to see Jiang Sui reaching out to her.
Su Qing remained in that moment forever.
Her face remained as peaceful and calm as ever, a faint smile playing on her lips.
She went to find her Jiang Sui.
The troubles of the world no longer belonged to them. They might have embarked on a different life.
Who knows?
Although no one knows, we do know that everything is beautiful.