What does it means to be living a life? to help strangers to whom we never meet and will not be able to meet in our entire life? or to help parents to less their burden? or continue our generation?or to do whatever we want to do! As far as I seen people say there is purpose for life people are born for ! And some say we are just like insect living in vast universe ! I am shimorikichi a high-school student living a normal life of an introvert .
I don't want to communicate with hypocrites and specially to girls. They always wants attention exact opposite to me. And life is so cruel the worst things you don't want to do somehow happens or everyone force you to do. I'm trying to avoid all these thing called friendships which has no meaning they came because of interest and leave because you are no longer needed.
I am going to school in the morning so there will be no one around me a deep silence and it fell like nature is more beautiful and peaceful with no negativity, no hope , no comparison, no discomfort and no awkwardness just me and the novel 'Nothing I can do' I read it and feel like there are more people like me an I'm not outcast but I'm in wrong place with wrong peoples but I can't do anything about it Just walking corpse in a rat race without a soul. God watch everything may be God want us to struggle. Death relieves the pain but it's not a solution.
But does the pain worth it.
Forgot about it .
it's doesn't make sense
I just want to take a nap for a second.
Someone was calling my name "shimori","shimori","shimori " wake up class is going on my vision was blurry then in a instant my eyes open when I wake up I realize everyone gaze was toward me and laughing like crazy mad people, Teacher send me out of class now I was thinking roam around but the luck was not with me . The students council members meet me in the way there was no escape from her . She is the popular school girl of our school every one envy her.
She was tall , long hair, wearing glasses her name was Yamada she pull me to the student council office. When I enter the room was cold some unwanted and intimidating galzes was toward me . She told me that our Vice -captain akira need my help I want to deny but they force me if I don't they will always disturb me so I have to fullfiill the request but fell like bullied.
They told me to come to karaoke far from city in an abandoned. The place was giving me chills I have so many questions in my mind but still went in there was no one in the counter my instinct was telling me that there is something wrong with this place. I open one of the door and see in front of me was Akira and his friend who looks like goons. They told me to come in and get some cold drinks and to sing , I was having fun there it look like they are not bad people in that time I forgot why I came for? After some time I wanted to go home but my vision was starting to get blurry before get unconscious I can hear them that finally we can get money from this weak looser. He whisper in my ears and says 'can you survive from it' this does not make any sense. I hope i can get to home and these all are just dream , no girl wanted to talk to me and we have never had a conversation before it's just a illusion.
The Pearson who don't socialize came to the sketchy place to meet with these shady people how ironic it is !
Now everything turns dark as night without moon.