"I am a villain but I Fell in love with the male lead"

Hello, friends. I am Eric, aka X. You must be thinking, why X? Because I am a spy in a national criminal organization, I need a code name, but now I am already 35 and thinking of retiring from this job. I have earned enough, and it can support me till I die, so no problem even if I do not work. You know what? I am a person who is addicted to reading manga. It is really enjoyable to read new stories, have new experiences, and travel into new worlds even without lifting a finger. If I have to tell you something about myself, I will say that I am an extrovert but just inside. Because whenever I try to talk to someone politely, my brain gets shut down, and I don't understand how to talk with the person in front of me. Because of this problem, many think that I am an arrogant person, but really I am not. I am just unable to talk to someone about what is on my mind and end up saying something really rude and mean. I have only one friend, and that is Edi. He is also a fan of reading manga just like me, and now I am heading towards the same store my friend recommended to me. As I reached in front of the store, there on the board was written its name: Fantasy Bookstore. I entered inside the store, going towards the reception. At reception there was a boy around 21 years old; after seeing me, he welcomed me with a sweet smile, and as you know, I was unable to return that smile. After getting near him, I asked him to recommend me something enjoyable. The boy smiled and said, What genre would you like to read? If you want to read something popular, you can try the new collection of the LGBT section; nowadays it is very popular. After hearing that, I just got angry and said to the boy, What do you mean by LGBT? Am I looking gay to you? I am not something disgusting like that. I am a straight man who likes women, do you get it? Of course, it was sounding too rude. I didn't want to say that; I just wanted to say I do not like love between the same gender, but it was sounding really rude. The boy was now on the verge of crying, and I could not even console him. Hearing my voice, another man came from the resting room looking at the scene. The boy who had just come said to the boy, You go and rest; I will take after you, and apologized to me, saying, I apologize on behalf of our staff that he was not able to guide you., I said, It's ok now. Can you recommend me something fun? Of course, sir, he said while taking some books from the shelf. Here, sir, it is the bestseller book of the last two months, and you will definitely enjoy taking that book. I sat on a seat there reading the book.