I have never felt like this before. I'm devastated to the point I can't imagine if l can continue living. My wallet only had one 1000 won bill in it.
I couldn't even afford a cup noodle from the cheapest convenience store. I was so embarrassed by the fact that I couldn't even afford a CUP NODDLE I quickly ran away from the store back to my so called 'house' which is just a tiny room that could barely house one person.
I lost contact with my family a long time ago and l have no one to talk to or do. I don't have a job and l definitely have no money.
I'm not proud of it but even if l try it never works out for me. "I fucking hate this life, piece of shit!".
I just wanted to kill myself.. I can't live like this anymore. "I really have no purpose huh.." My parents hate me, they hate each other, my brother hates me, my whole bloodline probably curses me.
The only person who is next to me is god, and l really believe that, but now I just can't. I know Jesus died on the cross for us, but still.. I can't do no fucking thing with my life! Now I made a decision.
I am going to a bridge, and jump there. That's going to be my final decision, I will do that, yeah..
I was about to arrive at the bridge, I was going there by bike, I'm not rich enough to buy a car. It was going to take about 30 minutes.
The world around me feels like a hallucination, a dream that lasts forever. Blinding lights are everywhere and l could barely see a thing.
It was like I drank 100 bottles of beer and l was drunk like fuck. But then everything happened in a split moment. A truck. It took me. I thought for a millisecond before my death that I was going to take my life and kill myself anyway.
This just makes it easier so I guess it's fine.. I guess this is the end now.
THIS WAS NOT THE END
I woke up the next moment. In a different dimension.
As soon as l woke up l knew something was wrong. What l was looking at wasn't hell like l expected, it looked more like paradise?
It was.. an empty open field, filled with grass. Paradise. The grass, the wind, it was, what you call perfection.
It was cold and windy but the sunlight hit my face, it felt amazing. Oh l loved it. It felt like a different world, a different dimension. But suddenly, after that, everything turned cold like it was the ice age again.
Everything froze. The grass turned into ice blades, the soft wind turned into cunning storm.
I, a guy who was just enjoying a nice breeze after I died in a place I don't know, is freezing to death by the icy tornado.
Then, I saw it. I huge monster that looked like my high school bitch bully. A huge 8 feet yeti that was covered with ice. I quickly ran and hid behind a tree, not knowing what to do.
I froze in place because of fear. My whole body was trembling and tears rushed out of my face. My muscles tensed up like never before, and my skinny body started turning red because of the blood circulating around my body.
I could hear my heart banging against my chest. But I could do nothing..
The monster was getting near, he was.. sniffing me? I tried to cover myself in frozen dirt like how I have seen in tv shows but I don't think that really helped.
The monster was getting closer and closer and I really had nothing l could do. But l accidentally kicked a branch that was also frozen, but it didn't make any noise.
The branch thankfully made no noise but l stupidly grabbed it thinking l could use it as a weapon.
I was waiting for the right moment to strike, my so called Weapon on my hand ready to strike. I was still afraid but l knew these kinds of moments were one of those times die or strike moments.
When the monster wasn't looking l rushed out from behind and with my stick l HIT him..
Only for the weapon to break into pieces, the monster made everything it touched brittle! I wouldn't even be able to attack even if l had a proper weapon!
Now this was it.. my end.
The monster freezes me with just one breath and l became covered in ice, unable to move. I knew this was once again the end for me, l couldn't even do anything with myself, same as always..
"It's always like this.." l tried to sigh even though I was frozen.
After he freezed me, for a second he stood still, and then he ripped my arms out into pieces. It was so brittle and quick I felt the pain in an instant.
"AHH fucking hell!" I yelped out as I cried out a tiny cry from the pain. It hurt so much even if the pain lasted for one second.
After that he broke both my legs off and started drinking the blood from it like it was a cup of red wine.It killed me inside to feel all the pain, and the fact that I'm not dead yet really broke me.
My life felt like a rubble all crumbling apart feeling every bump as it rolls down a hill.
"Fuck this shit.." I said as the monster finally ripped my head of from my body.
Alas, I am finally dead.