As the clock hit 4 am, I had just finished my newest song 'the light in those eyes'.Even tho I wasn't a popular artist but I wasn't the worst, I still had few thousand streams. Most of songs were all really depressing if your really focused on the lyrics. Although not having that big of a following, I still constantly try to make more music in my free time before and after school, mainly because it was my passion, after a few years of trying, I had finally started to earn money from the song I made. It wasn't much but add onto my part time job, it wasn't a bad wage for a college student.
Making these songs were fun but took really long to make mainly because I was a solo artist without a team or anything so that meant all the editing, labeling and art for the cover were done by me. Even tho it was tiring, I still tried my best and I learn lots of different skills like drawing, editing and much more. As the song was finally published, I got out of my chair and pulled out my earphones and collapsed onto my bed. I remembered to set and alarm because I had classes the next day in the morning and I had to be there at 7.
When I woke up the next day, I was sore all over, I checked my phone and it was 6 am. I then went to my computer and checked on my song, I didn't expect much from the song because it was newly released, as the checked the numbers it was higher than I expected but not by a lot. As I thought about how this song might turn out to be one of my best doing songs. I prepared some breakfast, once I finished my breakfast I got my bag and put my laptop in the bag. I then took off to my class. After finishing my classes at about 11 am , I headed off to the daycare nearby my apartment. I had been working there for the past few months, as I changed into the uniform, one of my colleagues that was in the early 30s questioned why I had such dark circles under my eyes.
I didn't feel comfortable telling people that I made music so I just told her I had been studying for an upcoming exam. She told me not to tire myself told me to take it easy for today and rest if I needed, i didn't say anything and just worked. The work wasn't much that day and I wasn't complaining, there was only a few kids that day and they were all well behaved, growing up as an older brother to 3 siblings, I learned a thing or 2 about taking care of kids. After their lunch, I was told to put the to sleep, as I ask them to sleep, they said they weren't sleepy. I then asked if they would sleep if I sang them a song. They excepted and I sang ' the light in those eyes' the new song I made. After the song most of the kids were asleep, after a while I had finally made them all sleep. This time a different colleague came up to me and said that my singing was beautiful but questioned me if that song was appropriate.
She asked about the artist's name. I then told her the name was called "yari". I chosen that name because had the same initial as my name Yuto Inagaki. As the time for my work to be over, I changed back into my normal clothes and went back to my apartment. I then slept until it turned dark.
As I woke up and check the time it was 11 pm. I then went on my computer and check the song again and it was already one of my top songs I was shocked to see it blowing up and I was grateful. Because it was night time I could start singing and annoy my neighbors so I just decided to draw some art of my OC.After a few hours, I still felt awake so I took a walk. I then laid in a patch of grass that was near the river bank . As I listen to the river flow I thought about how my life was finally getting better.
In highschool I dealt with lots of traumatic event, some i still hadn't fully healed from. In highschool I lost both my parents, my mom had gotten into a car crash with all my siblings and because of that my dad commited suicide. That day, I saw my own father on the floor, with a knife in one hand and another hand that had been slit. That day I felt so much grief, that whole month I didn't go to school. During that time, I tried to take my own life too, the same why my dad commited. I slit my wrist and the blood came gushing out as I passed out. The next thing I woke up in a hospital bed, that time I had begged for the doctors to just kill me and take me to my dad and mum. I tried to forget. As I came back to the present, I was unconsciously crying. I then started hyperventilating and I was super distressed. Then a girl that seemed my age came up to me and looked down at me to see me crying she asked if I was alright.i told her I was fine and ran off to my apartment.
Once I got there, I lock the door and took some pills that were supposed to help but it didn't help much so I just laid down on the bed and tried to sleep, I then felt my eyes closing. This time I didn't set the alarm because I had afternoon classes. That night I slept soundly and woke up later than usual at 11 am.Looking at the time, I quickly grabbed some breakfast and took of to campus. Luckily I wasn't late. After that, continue with my work at the daycare. Because my classes were in the afternoon, I had to take the evening shift.
During that time, I sat down on a small stool that made my knees hit my chin and I started to think of more lyrics for a new song. I then felt a tug at my shirt, it was one of the kids I sang too yesterday, he asked me to sing to then again. I complied and sang. While I was singing, the girl from yesterday night entered and heard me, she then waited until the performance was over and I heard some slow clapping, I turned and saw her. She said
" fancy seeing you here" I blushed at her comment and turned my head. As she laughed at me she said she needed to pick up her little brother. She then asked me about the artist of the song I sang. I told her the name and she thanked me. Later that night, I was tired but still couldn't sleep so I decided to think of more lyrics for a new song.
As I was writing, I decided to check how my song was doing, what I saw shocked me to my core, that song had hit 1 million streams only after 2 days. I then tried to find out how my song was blowing up. I then received a shout-out from a huge creator. Apparently another music artist had heard one of my songs and loved it so much to advertise it and share it with her community. I was so happy.
Even tho it was late, I still message the creator and thanked her profusely for shouting me out.
She replied quickly said it wasn't a problem. She then questioned me about how I was producing my music. I told her I was a solo artist and she reacted with surprised because I could do everything so well. I then thanked her again and went to bed. For the next week I was extremely happy and glad that I achieved what I have been trying to do for a long time. One day while I was doing the night shift again at the daycare.
The girl I saw at the riverbank came to pick up her brother again. This time I greated her properly and she looked happy. They were supposed to go but suddenly her little brother ask to go to the bathroom. While she waited, she then asked if I was yari, I replied no but she said she already knows and I shouldn't pretend. I gave in and admitted it. I then said to her that I was grateful that I got a shout-out from a big artist. I said that I had because I huge fan and listen to all her songs. I then asked for her name, she said her name was " Ayumi Yamada ".She then asked me why I was so distressed and insane looking that day with tears running down my face. I looked at her and said in a whispering voice " its a sensitive topic and I don't wanna talk about it". She then said ok and stopped asking.
That same night, I couldn't sleep and I went to the same riverbank and I wondered if she would be there. Before i could think of anything else she appeared. Unlike last time, I actually stayed and she laid beside me. She asked me to sing. I complied and did as she said. After I was done, I told her that singing and music is basically a coping mechanism for me. I then told her I was leaving, I asked her where she lives so I could walk her home. She giggled and said that I was a gentleman.
I blushed and told her to shut up. I also asked her for her number. she said sure and we exchange contact. I asked her again where she live and she finally told me and I walked her home. It was quite far from my house but it was fine. The next day I had the afternoon shift and after work, I was going home but it started to rain really hard. I couldn't go home so I just stayed at the daycare until the rains stopped. While I waited I helped out with the kids and after a few hours the rain finally was about to stop. As i was about to leave, I met Ayumi, she was just about to take her brother home.i then asked her if she wanted me to walk them home, or at least until the train station, they said sure. After dropping them off, it was already evening when my shift was suppose to end in the afternoon. I then went home and had dinner. After dinner, I sat down at my desk and started to write. I kept scraping all my ideas and I was suffering from a lyric writers block. As I kept writing it was already night.
I then went out to take a walk to take a break.
I went to the side of the riverbank like usual and I thought that she wouldn't appear because I just sent her back, but she was there before me she was already laying down there.