Ruan Chanchan was stumped when she heard the confession of the mer. She could feel her heart shaking even when she was determined to stay away from mers. In her mind, Ruan Chanchan knew that she couldn't be trusted with mers and beauty. In her first life as Mo Qiang, she had proved it with her actions. She recalled how she had hurt the mers after she got them and didn't treat them well. Ruan Chanchan was worried that maybe she would slip back to her old ways if someone started to treat her well. It was better to rely on herself, lest she become what she didn't want to.
Sure, she was poisoned and drugged by General Wu… her actions couldn't be washed clean just because of this reason. It was better to stay away from beauty. This was something that Ruan Chanchan had long learnt.
