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Chapter 16 - Callum

The space between us felt impossibly small. And still, he didn't touch me. Just looked at me like I was something breakable. Like one wrong move would shatter everything he'd been trying to hold together.

"I didn't want to," he said again, softer this time. Like he meant it more than he should have.

I held his gaze.

And then I said the thing I'd never let myself say out loud.

"I knew you had to go."

His jaw tensed slightly. But he didn't look away.

"I knew," I said again. "Even back then. I may have been fourteen, but I wasn't stupid. I knew things were getting worse with your dad. I knew you were barely holding it together."

He exhaled like he'd been waiting years to hear someone say it.

"You never said anything," he murmured.

"What was I supposed to say? 'Hey, Callum, I know your ribs are probably bruised and you flinch every time someone raises their voice — but could you stay and break my heart in person instead of disappearing into the night?'"

His mouth twitched like he wanted to smile, but couldn't.

I looked down at my hands. "You didn't owe me anything. And part of me—part of me was glad you left. Because I was scared you wouldn't if someone didn't make you."

He blinked, hard.

"Leaving was the only way I knew how to survive," he said finally. "I thought if I got out, if I stayed gone long enough, everything I left behind would be better off."

"You really thought I would be better off without you?"

"I had to," he said. "Otherwise, I would've come back."

My breath caught in my throat.

The cold didn't matter anymore. The parking lot, the lights, the dull thrum of pop music bleeding through the walls — none of it felt real. Just him. Just this.

"You came back anyway," I whispered.

"Yeah."

"Why?"

He hesitated. And then, almost too quietly to hear:

"Because I couldn't not know you anymore."

My chest tightened so suddenly it hurt.

I wasn't sure what to do with that sentence.

So I said the only true thing I could find.

"I missed you."

His eyes closed. Just for a second. Like the words physically landed.

"I missed you too," he said. "Every day."

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