I walk down past the dark hallway past the bathroom then stop in front of Chloe door, it is late almost midnight I haven't seen Chloe since this afternoon. I want to make sure that she is okay, but I'm not sure on what to say or what to do.
I know carefully and step in all the lights are fully on, she's not on her bed which is the next to the window and it is pitch Black outside.
Chloe is laying on the floor on her black carpet, but she was down in a book she must have fallen asleep while reading.
I wish I could turn back the hand of time, to take back all of the bad things I have said and done to her. She looks so sweet and innocent while sleeping, adorable should probably be the right word to use.
I move my legs further towards her, Chloe's golden hair is drowning in the book. Her mouth and eyes are closed she is breathing softly in and out. Her left foot moves more away from the right one, and she turns her head the other way towards the bed.
It must be a little painful to sleep on the floor like that, her ribs will probably ache when she wakes up. I moved down on my knees I do not want to wake her but I think I should.
Chloe I whisper, he does not hear me. I lay my hands on her arm.
Chloe I speak again with my regular voice, she moves barely but she turns and sit up and back away so fast that I could barely blink my eyes. Her face buried in her knees, and her back leaning against the bed. She looks like a scared little kid.
Please don't-don't hurt me she says sobbing.
Chloe it's me Jason I say softly, she peeks gently at me again but hides her face.
Sorry, I did not mean to scare you. I say to her and walk towards her.
Don't she says I stop, frozen on the ground. I am not sure on what to do and dad is not even here to help me, he would have known what to do he always does.
Please just tell me what to do and I will do it.
Please just go, he shrinks back.
Anything except that I don't think I can leave you like this, I take one careful step towards her, Chloe does not even look at me.
You can tell me I say to her, she shakes her head.
If you are not going to tell me can I at least sit with you here, not one word from her she has frozen me out again. But I move over and sit carefully next to her anyway. We both sit here in complete silence, with only the sound of our Breathing. The air in here feels so heavy and uncomfortable, it is starting to get hard to keep my eyes open. The yawning is getting more intense the tears are coming out of my eyes.
Chloe, I rub my eyes to clean the tears away.
Yes she says.
I am not sure how long I can stay awake, I close my eyes but open them quickly again.
I think you should go to your bed she says.
I am not going until you are fine I rub my eyes, god dammit this is getting too painful.
I am fine.
Don't lie to me I close my eyes and give into sleep.
Jason I hear a soft voice calling my name. Hmm I mumble too tired to form words, I am still sitting down still leaning against the bed.
I think you need to go to bed, I turn to the sound with eyes still closed. I can't remember the last time I was this tired, I shake my head then hear Chloe standing up next to me.
Come on, I shake my head again I lay my head on the floor where Chloe had sat before. I like the floor I told her and she just chuckled. I don't think I have heard her laugh before and it made me smile, I wish you could smile more often.
Jason come on she says I guess she is still amused, there was a little hint of laugh in her voice and it made me smile.
No I like it here, she snorts at me.
You don't even like me, her words made me to open my eyes and stand in front of her. She laughs at me making my face turns red I hope she did not see that.
I like you I tell her she's shakes her head.
Why is it so hard to believe I ask and sigh, she shakes her head and I roll my eyes, it made her smile again.
What do I have to do to make you believe me I ask her, it feels more like I was begging her but I did not show it. I want her to know I like her even though she doesn't know she drives me crazy, she walks to the door and open it.
I am not leaving your room until you tell me what I can do to change your mind, I told her stubbornly. She shakes her head, it makes me realize she is as stubborn as I am. I think in some way she has gotten warm under her skin around me.
I think she is testing my limit, she moves the door more open another sign for me to get out of her room. I shake my head with a Smirk, she looks down at the floor with red cheeks I laugh.
Get out she says, with a hint of anger in her voice. I know I need to leave now but I want her to believe me, then thought hit me.
Why do I so desperately want her to believe me? I never really cared about what she thinks about me but now I do, I scratch my neck in frustration.
Jason out please, she sounds impatient. I clench my teeth and feel my skin on fire, why can't she just tell me why she don't believe me.
Just tell me god damn it, I feel the heat on my skin in my body and in my bones. Now I can see the hurt in her eyes I shake my head.
How can she make me feel so angry and guilty at the same time? Sometimes I feel like yelling at her. Other times I feel like wrapping my arms around her and apologizing to her, even though I know that is the last thing she wants for me.
Chloe I'm sorry I didn't mean to.... get out! I have never seen her this angry before, so I just give him to her stubbornness and walk out. I opened the door and slammed it close.
God damn that girl, I want you to my room and laid on the bed. Fire in my veins slow down a little, I close my eyes and feel the tiredness take over again.