Meanwhile Cassandra is on a secret communication with Victor about Ava internship in his workplace Victor says nothing, never was his visage nor his appearance was projected, more on the blank visual interface with an audio visualizer that's tuned to his transmitted voice. One going up when he speaks, one going down when his voice is lower.
"How's my dear special project doing?" Victor asks through a secret communication protocol between her and him.
"So far so good. Victor, my daughter asks a request that I want to forward to you" Cassandra speaks
"Oh, apprise me" Victor asks.
Cassandra breathes in and out trying to present herself.
Cassandra looks at the monitor prepared to make her report, "She wants to be an intern in your company, to make up for the attempted infiltration she done, she doesn't care if she was delegated to a lower job"
Victor listened and said nothing until the words finally came out of the speaker, "Fair, but she will be working there after her graduation. How long has she been studying there?"
Cassandra disclosed "For 4 years. I think this would be her time to graduate, perhaps we can drop her and give her a special training program for someone like her. I might need an AI aided pedagogy for her education. Should I make her drop school"
Victor with a nerdy strategic disposition, "It might be possible and doable, to let her focus on her work rather than her education. She is already smart enough to be capable of picking her stuff up, but she would be disqualified in positions where rigorous exercises may matter."
Cassandra came to a realization, "This isn't an internship at all isn't it? It's the next phase of your plan right?"
Victor's voice turned prospective and imaginative, "Yes, it is in my will. Have Ava dropped out of university after this semester. I will ensure that the facility's special training begins with her"
Cassandra nodded her head, "Yes, love I will ensure that." Cassandra checks on the semester she is in, apparently she is in the first semester of the second year, but Cassandra has nothing to worry about. The cybernetics within Ava's brain has been capable of amassing a lot of information and processing information within mechanical precision.
Victor said, "Specialized training, it seems" the GUI showcasing Victor transmitted voice who goes by the name "[Redacted]" in the display, since he is known to be very secretive owing to his recluse nature, but even Cassandra knows this is Victor voice and speech patterns (after all she is a secret agent who was tasked with Victor, her involvements with politics is just her being an agent of some secret state to represent the secret organization she is involved with)
Cassandra nodded, "Yes, I will see to it." Cassandra was about to dismiss herself from the secret communication channel between her and him. Suddenly Victor voice speaks in hushed but proud tone
"Our daughter managed to hack the collar, were you aware of this?"
Cassandra froze where she looked back and asked with rave, "Tell me." with her hazel eyes and it's eyebrows turning laser-focused
Victor disclosed, "She has potential as a technician in the facility or many facilities I work with. A girl like her would not be contained by such collar, wouldn't it be better to displace her from university and to involve her into the organization"
Cassandra thinks for a second for a while. She was impressed that Ava managed to hack the collar, disabling the monitoring component and replacing the connection with her instead, it really impressed Cassandra for a second.
Cassandra replied trying to follow his train of thought, "Of course our sweet daughter managed to hack the collar, you wouldn't want me to punish her like a good mother but instead have her displaced from the university"
Victor overjoyed with Cassandra's insight, "Most perceptive"
Victor declares to Cassandra, "Ensure the will of my scientific progress, Cassandra. I will be keeping in touch"
The interface GUI turned offline and Cassandra walks out of the secret room - nobody has figured out, a secret room that's under the house only accessible by Cassandra, each side other than the room where Cassandra communicates to a computer screen that can establish a call with victor like popping out an audio visualizer program outlining the volume of his voice.
Cassandra then went back to the conspicuous part of the house where she dons her apron outfit and starts taking care of Max, Max is intelligent but he wasn't cybernetically enhanced at all, he can communicate and move but he is still reliant on parental care for better development, usually Victor gives orders and advises in matters regarding Ava due to her experimental nature, to which Cassandra has to follow in accordance to the authority of the mission
Cassandra simply just took care of Max, feeding him milk while also cooking food in the kitchen. Cassandra was filled with frustration and stress where she vented, "Life is full of ups and downs, whatever it is I just want to be a good mother"
She started to touch her forehead sitting in a chair, "Besides, what do I remember when me and Victor were engaged? I could not recall except he and I were assigned for an experimentation of cybernetic babies. It was then we fall in love, my beauty and charm managed to win him over and give birth to Max, Ava is still my daughter yes, but her father was very emotionally detached regarding her, prioritizing her purpose than Max "
Cassandra holds the toddler to her arms as she cradles it she looked at the little toddler and smiled, how far she come as a mother
Cassandra kissed the toddler's forehead and smiled, she then put him on a crib where she left to do her cooking she played a baby music near the baby allowing him to sleep. Cassandra continues cooking as she recalls the vivid memories of caring for Ava.
She was emotionally stunted, somewhat displaying awareness beyond her age; she is known for her uncanny ability to interface with technology that scientists who watched it were astounded beyond belief.
She was restricted from the VR stimulated learning program to have any downloaded information in fear that it may give her an unprecedented edge on knowledge preferring a more developed blank slate to mold her, she expected Ava to be a lot like her and more engaged as she observed Ava's need for oxytocin and attention since birth.
It was better that Ava was first emotionally stunted and another reflection that Ava still has no idea about her father, only that her father was absent coherently to imply that he was on abroad
So, it would seem.
Cassandra prospected about Ava, "I wonder, if I can steer your path to something fruitful" while cooking in the kitchen - Cassandra was physically preoccupied with her cooking, while planning how to convince the daughter to drop out of the university she is in
It was never really intended for Ava to study in a university pursuing Quantum Informatics. But it was a nice distraction to keep her busy while being recluse, by restricting her purview into academics and the casual life she would lessen the estimated likelihood of her going beyond what is appropriate for her, it gave her the illusion of knowledge and metacognition in a slow pace manner.
Now it's the time for a new reckoning for her. Cassandra starts making her plans on a fly, she had already ground Ava to normalcy and now is the time for her to move to a different place. Cassandra then checks it's only November, only 3 months left.
Cassandra has to work fast, she readies herself and starts moving. Ava would finish her semester and drop out to get a more specialized training in Genesis Innovation.
Cassandra contacted Ava through her smartphone informing that her request had been forwarded and processed. Ava was just then playing games, and doing the regular coding, or even listening to vibe music. She was meditating, trying to put herself in a calm way. As she relaxed her inner self is fulfilled soon enough she received a notification from the mother that the organization has received her request, it popped to her computer (For security reasons, Ava would detach her mind from a mind-controlled driver installed in her computer to which she had developed by herself in fear anyone in control of this computer may reverse engineer this mind-controlled driver to connect to her mind)
Ava would look at the message and go downstairs. To discuss with Mom, she wasn't given an answer only that the organization has received her requests. Could it be that Ava's mom could be working with them, or what. It's hard to say. But for certain Ava knows the mother is in contact with dad. Ava starts to scratch her head, she then finds her mother before anything. Ava saw her mother. The mother was then sitting drinking her tea, her eyes closed as she sipped it with elegance. The mother opened her eyes and said "You saw what I typed, yes?"
"You are accepted, but not what you think"
"You will be dropping out after this semester to work in your father's work, however you would undergo a specialized training"
Ava listens then collects, 'Specialized training, indeed specialized training that's done for you"
Ava determination growing high, "Alright, brief me in"
Cassandra smiles as she is delighted to expound more about this new phase of hers, while relegating Ava from a student to a low-cost employee in the organization
Cassandra orated, "There will be AI aided training once you are there, the training is designed only for you. It would teach you the basics of what you needed to know for work"
Cassandra continues on the lecture, "Then it will teach you how to operate as a technician in the work, or many kinds of things. You will not be permitted to research positions but as one of the working engineers or technicians of that organization."
"It will be long and strenuous, you will be living in that building for months on end" Cassandra with her hazel eyes stares at Ava, as if she is staring down at her.
Ava not smiling but glad, "I see, at least I got what I asked for - even though it may risk my university, I have couple of months left before my semester ends"
Ava understood, "Alright, I will take the specialized training. But Ma, I want to learn how to communicate better with others"
Cassandra said to her, "Communicate with others? That's not the situation you can control"
Cassandra said to her, "Trust the process, and anything else will follow.." Ava listens deeply and said, "I trust you" no exaggeration, no excitation, nor any lingering sense of doubt or even fear, it was simply just her accepting her fate
Cassandra said "I am glad you can follow along sweety"
Ava starts moving she went back to her room upstairs, and somewhat felt melancholic she accessed her memories of Yaren, one of her first friends - she was the one whom she connected while hugging her pillow and tears came out of her eyes, the tears that came out of her eyes were pouring out but mostly it's just droplets. It was the first time she has ever felt connected with someone other than her parents, but even then she has no control over it; it just happens by an impulse.
Ava looked her eyes out as she reminisce, "This will be the last time I ever felt that communion, I have to make the most of my days in university" Ava stands up and starts to study, she read her notebooks, dissociating herself with cybernetics and turning away from her cybernetics.
She needed to get a human understanding of the material she was studying: Qubits in superposition, Schrodinger's theory, even automata theory, especially quantum computing algorithms.
She was studying really hard, she was suppressing her cybernetic mind so she can get a human understanding of it where she would release her superego and let her cybernetics pieces all the dots together.
(insert an complicated line of text about quantum computing, and her human understanding)
(And then her heuristics)
Imagine placing a cat inside a sealed box with a mechanism that has a 50% chance of releasing poison based on the decay of a radioactive atom. Until we open the box to observe, the cat exists in a state of being both alive and dead simultaneously—a concept known as superposition. This thought experiment, known as Schrödinger's cat, illustrates the peculiar nature of quantum mechanics. Similarly, in quantum entanglement, two particles become linked so that the state of one instantaneously influences the state of the other, regardless of distance."
Ava twirled her pen thoughtfully where she cogitated, 'Shor's algorithm is a quantum method for factoring large numbers efficiently. It leverages quantum Fourier transforms to exploit the superposition of qubits, enabling the rapid determination of periodicity. This process aids in identifying prime factors more swiftly than classical methods. Once we have these factors' Ava was about to write her thoughts down in the note to examine her understanding better
"We can apply the Euclidean algorithm—a straightforward technique for finding the greatest common divisor of two numbers—to verify their authenticity."
Ava then moved to the next topic, summarizing it herself
Ava tries to do the mnemonic technique, "What can I say about automata theory? It's like a branch of discrete mathematics that constantly challenges the boundaries of computation. Imagine it as a machine processing language—its only limits defined by its memory. With quantum computing pushing the envelope, automata theory now unlocks a world of creative and clever programming possibilities. In essence, the theory of computation is the blueprint of programming, so it's best to master the basics."
Ava then let her cyber brain finally run in, after she studies.
Ava relieved from her exhaustion, "Alright, that's good." Ava's hands clasping each other showing her satisfaction
Ava with her soon goodbyes words, "Now, it's time for my few months of university"
Ava went to gargle mouthwater and then wear her pajama nanosuit where it helps her regulate her body and provides a cozy atmosphere for her body to maintain her circadian rhythm. Ava rested on her bed for a while, she took a bit breath in herself as she meditated in her bed where the new dawn is about arrive
A feeling of ease effuses Ava's state of mind, the pajama nanosuit did its best trying to regulate her whole homeostasis.
Ava enjoyed her nap, she was in a deep sense of sleep - dreams in her mind were nothing but evanescent clips of many things she watched from cartoons or many media she has consumed in her internet times, the books she consumes her mind trying to regurgitate them.
She is trying to recall the things from her head, not for social gamification but for a sense of power that enthralls in her.
Ava then started to see temporary irrelevant stuff that wouldn't be recalled, now focusing on the original physical world she is having a nice time sleeping. Her breathing is steady and relaxed, there was no signs of difficulty or anything disruptive sleeping patterns nor anything indicating of her ailments it was just a relaxing sleep.
Her naps were peaceful and solemn, it was that of a child. Ava continues to nap, during her state she was making 'soft' snorting noises
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unbeknownst to the sleeping girl though, a figure with dark-brown flowy hair emerged from the door the door was open the figure looked at Ava before walking to the study area she was doing looking at the notes and scattered pictures
Then the figure then walked near Ava in her sleep and bent down near her dormant state, monologuing to herself, "My dear girl, I am so glad you were born a female. If you were born a male it would be a lot difficult for you to understand things - substances like empathy and chaos in the human mind might elude you"
Figure's head started to unveil from the shadow and show a very young lady with Asian-European heritage with hazel eyes with a complexion that rivals ava but more elderly in aura.
"I can see that you're trying to live your days in the university, what you are going to do next wouldn't be university anymore - no not for this next semester" Cassandra said with a bitter smile, "It would be something far more, sweet dreams my dear daughter"
Cassandra then disappears, she just walked away and disappeared with the door close there was no noise indication that she disappear, she merely just disappear with the door close
It was like a ninja that vanished from thin air
4 hours later the alarm has not ticked but the dawn is coming, it has already passed the sun is about to rise up in the air as sunlights and the radiance of the fusion reactor begins to brighten up the skies and whatever is outside or the area the sun is shining light at
(sooner or later the alarm clock that operates with a battery started to make conventional digital alarm ringing, a female voice from its speakers echoed, "Good morning Ava it is 7 am, have yourself prepared for the eventual day of school)
Ava started to wake up and stand up, she went to her restroom to take a piss and then she would do a mouth washing process and then shower and finalizing it with a decontamination process - she exited her bathroom with the uniform without coat (yes her skirt is shown) she groom her hair and blew it with an Air blower, heating it and making it smooth and silky.
Ava stood up and started to wear her coat, before exiting her house and heading to school about to experience school life, well fleeting and temporary of course since she would be dropping out after this semester.
Ava ought to make the most of her days into something meaningful. She went into a lecture and there was another ordinary lecture, nothing has changed. She had purposefully turned herself away from her cybernetics trying to understand the concept like a human, and then release herself from suppressing her cybernetic mind only for her conquer the concept within seconds
The gears in Ava's head were turning, it was like sophisticated machinery. Computing things beyond the confines of human understanding bordering on computer transcendence, but has she really surpassed humans in terms of cultural and egoic nature even in morality?
Even though she couldn't answer that, most of the time her mind goes through many computations that she forgets things unless she is cogitate regarding humanity.
She was absorbed in the lecture, her mind was quite focused as she felt the energy in her mind trying to digest and dissect the lecture in front.
Safe to say that she was bored while paying attention.
[blah blah blah]
[The lecture is about nanotechnology]
"Nanotechnology has been used for medical care and devices with its compactness, even air filtration, or as well computer chips where Moore's law dictates that over the following years the multitude of cores will increase making things that seem smaller way faster in computational processing."
"We also think that nanotechnology paves the way for architecture somewhat in an unconventional way where nanobots survey the structure and plan the whole building in a context, assembling or fixing some patches thus making it capable for maintenance."
"All in all, aside from quantum computing our knowledge of nanotechnology has evolved, and when two is combined is the beginning of a new revolutionary frontier called Quantum chip forged from the construction of advanced technology that can solder things in a microscopic level"
"Yeah, yeah pretty cool" Ava thinks.
"But how do I weaponize this? I would need a chip design 101 for that to be of practical applications. Damm engineering"
Ava inner self frustrates as she cogitate her capacity for chip engineering, feeling a little left out for primitive knowledge in nanotechnology and her last months of this semester.
Ava continue to listen to the lecture, the lecturer goes by the name of Dr Baldwin a professor who's around 70-80 years he had muscular body with a mustache as his facial signature, sporting a victorian era like clothing, his arms were mechanical with a muscular look in them, since the purpose of his cybernetic were for engineering assistance - he looked like the
(really flashy stuff)
Ava continues to listen to the lecture, the lecturer moves around and holds his crane stick to the board and the holograms he moves around endlessly. Lecturing while his every movement makes a noise.
Ava continues to listen to the lecture regarding nanotechnology and its theory but it will take more than that to do unlike other people of her kind, yes compared to other natives she wasn't augmented by VR Stimulated learning system, so she cannot try to pinpoint any fragmented semantic recall she can use to her advantage because she wasn't given the uploaded information from the system that every toddler went through, she was the exception.
Ava decides to connect her mind on the internet and starts reading books in nanotechnology. She has spent time busying herself with security and code, especially low cost unfinished artificial intelligence projects. Yeah her mind is pretty overpowered, there is nothing that Ava can't do that her mind is incapable of doing - for she is formidable, the only thing is the lack of funding. For one instance she cannot build a quantum computer nor a quantum chip or anything super impressive, this requires a level of dexterity, sometimes bigger projects require a team.
Ava thinks while feeling excited, "Hopefully I get to a really good organization, the deal I have with my mother should yield me good fruit" Ava scratches her chin and her eyelids look up and said "What I didn't however expect is that they would turn down my internship requests for my salvation and made me an employee of the lowest ranking. Like I am sort of janitor or something very rudimentary work, not cool I don't get to collab with scientists and engineers they are all working on this secret project blah blah I would want to peer into it but I have learned my lesson"
Ava continues to ruminate, she has finally managed to hack the collar that was foisted on her neck and had a permission to have it removed - what's weird is that they are willing to let a juvenile violating girl like her roam free in the private corporate system, for what purpose exactly do they want to exact their revenge against her in some way? Is it to ascertain the intentions of the leaders of that organization? Hopefully it will lead her to some experiences.
Ava continue to listen to the lecture, the lecturer continue upon his teaching he also detected a faint from ava using his cybernetic mind retrieving information from the mind, he was impressed and whispered to himself, "A sign of the future of this era" in a faint whispered and smile where he continued teaching
The lecturer continue lecturing about nanotechnology and then eventually to the technical aspects of it where he decided to ramp up the complexity, a lot of people continue to struggle except for Ava who can read the information except for when its quantum physics or any field with heavy abstraction and theoretical aspect as they elude her due to its speculative and detached nature
Ava continues to listen, intrigued by the technicalities of the lecturer she started taking notes and keeping this in her memory bank as this information could be crucial to most of her engineering projects and also her understanding of material science.
Ava continues to pay attention, she gets to have a more fascinating parts of plasma - yes plasma is also used in engineering and for designing microchips and has been used in material science - plasma is something that is created when a group of negatively charged electrons has left the gas cloud which only the proton, neutron, and ions are left turning into a ionized gas. and due to the ionized nature it became susceptible to magnetism and electricity, as a matter of fact it's also one of 4 states of matter.
Ava reflected on her studying "That's plasma, it can be used to design semiconductors and stuff. If I can get my hands on laser induced plasma devices, I can start learning nanotechnology or better yet microchip design."
Ava continues on, "A high concentrated laser induced plasma, if focused, can induce plasma when hit on the surface allowing the build of semiconductor stuff in the microscopic scale, whenever plasma technologies are progressive and so is the moore's law. You can probably use it for soldering parts of electronics. Pretty neat stuff"
Ava continues to listen, as she starts coursing through the technical aspects albeit a little overwhelming, after all what is a Quantum informatic girl doing in a nanotechnology class oh wait she is smart and studious she can get by with those overpowered implants of hers.
After all she is Ava, and this is what to expect when you have a working computer in her brain and her connection to the internet. Besides Ava enjoys the practical applications of science, since she imagines herself as an engineer not a mere scientist where she would look at the board for hours to no end to find an answer and publish a research paper. That's only for specialists, and she isn't that kind.
Of course when you have a cybernetic brain you're literally like John Von Neumann, or perhaps a living incarnate of a transhumanist kind due to the unknown intentions of a scientist of a father who has never really spoke nor interact with her much only responsible for her birth and the congenial implants in her brain - she feels sad, maybe she wants to feel like to be with her father, she doesn't know what her father looks like except in the photos. There is that curiosity though and that ideation of having a father.
Ava recall being so immersed in her monitor, learning how to code and learning whatever her cybernetic brain introduce her to subliminally, maybe this subliminal message could be linked to him after all - All of this stuff was mainly of his own engineering and doing
Usually, not all people care nor worry too much about having a father it's mostly on father figure representation, the mother may represent the anima and the father may represent the animus, if one is missing it may affect the person ego causing some sort of dysphoria - while it may not necessarily be the case that such incidence before or happening today would blame their father absence for their incipient development.
The lack of father figure representation can really gnaw on a person's development, this is retrospective all the more but the more pervasive symptom was aggression and attention seeking.
Yes indeed, some of them may watch entertainment and pick the kind of role model that would essentialize their 'masculine role mode' where they go and act that quintessence.
For Ava though it's more of a curiosity, not of bitter hatred but curious about another person aside from her mother responsible for her existence, she know she has been genetically engineered she had interacted with her father once as a toddler but cannot distinguish his facial features well, a search through a repository of memories show him being distant and calculating - as if he is merely observing an experimental subject.
Ava decides to clear her head off; she realizes introspection would get her nowhere. She has to focus on the present. Ava starts to get a move on, she returned to the present her attention is already on the present Ava continued to relax as she is still thinking how to make a nanochip a rather childish ideation of someone who has a cursory experience with devices but learning to make one is byproduct of a heavy burden of a human mind.
Ava continues to listen before her class is dismissed, she is bored to tears now. The high value of Quantum chips? have we reached quantum breakthrough and computing even AI that error-correction in these became nonexistent how does one create a very advanced quantum computing in a microchip?
It's more easier to just get make a microprocessor from mere stuff and have it done within months but quantum computing once you are done you will have to observe any error-correction within the chips how to make a chip whose qubits entanglement are isolated and closed off with superior scalability.
Only the best engineers out or anyone with superior wealth can pull that off, perhaps working in this organization and undergoing this private organization would give her the experience, but she is still a low ranking worker in the job, with a special training. Can she accept her fate as one? it wouldn't matter anyway.
What she asked from her mother there is no way to reverse this, or so she thought.
Ava continued to listen before the lecturer dismissed the class, Ava packed her bag as she was about to embark on a world greater than hers
Ava decide to explore the school, the hallway, the hologram, the technology, and etc
Ava continues to walk around she wants to find Yaren her dear friend, it's been a while since she had motivated yaren to buy a book named "How to win friends and be influential" and discouraging her from any wonky applications you see in manipulation books, you don't want another manipulator in your field and there is more power to that.
Ava looks for yaren but she is harder to find than usual, "Where could she possibly be?" Ava continues to look for yaren where she found her, this girl she is alone by herself anymore she is already with another person
Yaren is seen talking with this other male, and then it occurred to Ava has yaren overcome her social awkwardness? There is no intuition to this but it's too early for that the book will take effect.
Ava continues to observe yaren, she was just staring at her as she tries to socialize - she feels left out by her as if Yaren had moved on or forgotten about Ava, then jealousy ensues in her core she became somewhat convinced that Yaren has left her emotions getting into control except her cybernetics is telling her not to act impulsively as such actions of impulse could lead to unwarranted situations she decides to just observe her
Ava stood to just watch before yaren noticed her, the girl waved her hand, "Ava!" she walked to her and greeted her, "I have been reading the book you gave me, It was a good one though I am still have less experience I am somewhat getting better"
Yaren introduced this male to Ava as Benjamin, Yaren wanting to introduce, "This is benjamin" while looking at ava while using her palm and finger to point at Benjamin showing that he is benjamin then she did the same with Ava and said "Benjamin, this is Ava I am sure you and her were in the same class or section"
Benjamin pull out his hand and smiled, "Greetings, Ava it's a pleasure to meet you knowing I am in the same class as you"
Ava can't help but return the favor, "Likewise, chap" Ava shaking his hand with grace.
Ava asked , "So, you manage to make friends.. What else do you aim to achieve? Yaren, are you going to find more?"
Yaren looks at Ava and says "Yes, I can finally break free from the shackles of social awkwardness. Today this Yaren has graduated from being a weirdo but a new egg that hatch on her soul and identity"
Ava asked, "I see, any plans for our meeting" while talking with yaren, yaren looked at her with disconnect, "No, I don't have any plans with you." with blank eyes staring at her then followed up with
"Maybe another time. We can meet up but I rather spend some time with Benjamin, he also has a friend group I might get along with"
Ava asks, "Can I join this friend group?" Ava speaks but yaren denied her, her face in rather disregard and scorn, "I don't know Ava, you might interfere with things - knowing you it might not end well for me and the others"
Ava stood shocked and slowly with pauses in the vocals, "I don't. understand"
Yaren projected to her, "Of course you don't… I have some gratitude for recommending a book to help my socializing but… You are not normal Ava, somehow you are way too perfect, out of the league even with that cybernetic brain of yours. You will only be a barrier to anyone I know. Maybe another time - Cause at the end of the day, you are not even human."
Ava felt agitated and she asked, "Human? I am human, I know emotions are way out of my comprehension… But… But… I can feel them with you, the friendship." Ava started to have alexithymia she couldn't process what she was feeling she doesn't know how to feel but it's unnerving she said "I don't know how to respond to this emotion"
Ava walks away feeling somewhat rather perturbed and disappointed, Benjamin looks at Yaren and says "What was that?" Yaren reassured him, "Oh it's nothing, it's just some random nobody" Benjamin said "Okay…."
Yaren wondered "Was it really that necessary to treat her like that. Like she is some inhumane person, only because the books that Ava read in her room pertained to manipulation and psychology applications?"
Yaren wondered to her own thoughts, "Yet at the same time she offered me a different book knowing it will be logical and pertinent to me to read a 'how to socialize 101' or sorts instead of me having reign in the books that she read."
"She said that she struggled to understand human emotions… Seeing everyone as statistics and has no problem making small intuitions in humans minds. Yet at the same she craved the intuitive understanding of it. She is in some way an aristocrat of the highest order, even if her surface background may not be superlative as expected."
"Definitely going to keep her in arms length with anyone I know, lest they get infected with her calculating nature, she could be the next villainess or sorts I don't know, it's best not to get too close with her after what I have saw - she is not a bad person though"
Yaren then looked while walking with benjamin her own thoughts echoed throughout her own mind "I am not a good socializer though not yet"
And so Yaren continued on with her mind, leaving Ava with her deep fright of angst. Ava in her own mind was unsure she was just standing unable to process what she just felt her mind was thinking, she was overwhelmed. She wanted to thin her mind out but she is just frozen.
In another case she felt betrayed or better yet upset, Ava decides to go out with lectures upon lectures trying to busy her mind before saying "Maybe another time I will ask Yaren, or not. This is not what I expected"
And so Ava waited for dismissal and walked to her house. As she arrived home, she went to her room upstairs and started punching the bed before her unstable anger simmered. She looked around the room and noticed books of manipulation that she had neglected to hide. She understood what yaren meant, but only partially but if anything it makes sense.
Ava crouched and pick up a book that was laying on the floor, she opened it and read it for a while trying to see what Yaren had picked up or made about Ava that she neglected to hide or at least contain somewhere safe
Ava understands now and laughed as her mouth started to move from hysteria, "Stupid me"
Ava laughed uncontrollably and cried
"I was too busy watching a movie while laying down distracted in my own mind, but I finally understand - oh stupid me, I am betting you don't trust me now"
Ava stood up and fell on her bed and laughed uncontrollably and said "I guess I am just a weirdo now!"
"Nobody but just me!"
"Ahahahahahahahahahahahah, just once have I hated something, I feel only hate"
"Just give me a nectar of catharsis already"
Ava continue laughing spouting nonsense, she watched porn in her mind for a bit and started laughing looking at the intimacy of two people before saying to herself and said
"In the end I am lonely, not even human. In a world of advanced technology I am like its slaves except a superior slave who is engineered" Ava implying that she tacit knowledge of her origins.
Ava in a frenzy, "Maybe I am just a slave to the highest order of society, I wish my time with yaren. It was only thing that I can get out of as a being of robotic ego or just a freak"
Ava started to tremble as she looked at porn looking at the intimacy of male and female while uncontrollably laughing, doing weird analysis on two humans mating with each other.
Ava decides to stop watching porn in her mind and just relax she has fear what her next day in school is going to be, she has never been this conscious before
she doesn't know what to do, so all she can do is wait for what's gonna happen, is yaren going to reject her or what.
Ava has no idea about her beauty either, she considered herself as somewhat above-average but not in a way that models of this generation would be put on a pedestal all that fancy cyberpunk aesthetics with rich clothes, who has time for that ostentation? Or maybe ava acknowledging she doesn't fit the beauty standard mold, one thing for sure is that Ava is pretty at the very least she has no idea how it will affect others, she has no idea about their perception on her but based on what yaren said about her "Too elegant and perfect" as if that holds any weight to her actual character. Maybe Ava is too posturing, too calculated, too robotic and recluse.
Ava said while crying out of laughter, "It doesn't matter. I don't even care anymore but this isn't going to be the last time we met Yaren" Ava smiles sinisterly before taking another dosage of serotonin stabilized pill, ava feels a sense of calm but this overdose numb ava's senses she can't feel her motor cortex fully operational, the neurotransmitters in the medulla oblongata was close to being disrupted, the technology in Ava's brain has been trying to combat the activity with drug delivery systems through the nanoparticles, could be amino acids into the glial cells.
As the drug delivery system do its role, Ava's immobilized motor function were starting to function and recover she wasn't able to move her limbs for a while as this strong abuse of serotonin stabilized pills was overwhelming her neurotransmitters, Ava started to move she is started to gain autonomy with her functions she breathed in and out.
She is starting to feel her limbs moving as she struggles to cohere herself, "Crap. That was intense, I am never doing that again" Ava stands up and decides to eat breakfast. Ava eats her breakfast, she was glad she was able to recover otherwise her body would be frozen like a drug addict with saliva coming out of her mouth. It was akin to that of a paralysis but worse she wasn't able to process or think her body was like cold since the regulations in her body have been dysfunctional for a while before the nanoparticles deployment from her cybernetic galvanize the astrocytes or underlying glial cells for neurodegenerative threats. Once again highlighting Ava's father brilliant intellect
Ava continue eating, she continue eating her food with utensils with silence as she cogitate her own self, with worries that are not even grounded in reality - Ava's mind has fragmented but it's slowly recover its not easy to say she suffered from catatonia but it can be said that she is of utter confusion
Not easy to visualize, but it happens when you are in a high stress situation - it's better to just relax and let things sort things out.
Simply there are things outside of our control, and it's not in one's conundrum that ava could try to control the situation with logic or brute force, she just could not accept of what happened to her in school, in other cases it's as if her emotional immaturity is crackling
Ava decide to just distract herself trying to release herself from stress related states before deciding to just relax
She was just holding her utensil frozen before deciding to scoop and bite it entering her mouth, possible anorexia, no idea?
You can't just make it up but it would be in a safer area to say that she is in a state of overwhelm, right?
Now how would Ava sort her feelings properly no matter how much she can hide behind rationalism and emotion, she couldn't seem to help herself but be immobilized for a bit she decides to just relax and forget about it. Ava then decides to go outside, she takes a walk outside, trying to get that breath of fresh air - she is then outside well not exactly outside more like that she is near door that would welcome her to the outside world - a neighborhood with all the simplistic but almost fractal structure, their structure is very ergonomic that one would be tempted look at its all sleek metallic, with the grass so vibrant and green even the skies are very blue. A utopia comes to life, right?
Ava continues walking, one drone is seen gliding around the neighborhood, a cone like structure with more round on its tip where it monitors the ecosystem 24/7 as Ava continues to breathe air, she thinks about her last days on this neighborhood or aka sector 451, where she would be moved to a different location eventually she would have to rent an apartment while working on her father's organization work or whatever.
Ava continue to breathe in the air as she sees the things around her, what would the 21st centuries joke would say "Touch grass" oh definitely but it's way better than touching grass it's merely just her trying to attune her mind to nature, the most amazing ecosystem, after a while wandering around the town she saw a buildings like the one in the city filled with skyscrapers.
Ava continue looking at the buildings marvelling at their heights before moving out she decides to go to the library she presented her card to the librarians and then she was granted access to peruse the books to her appetite looking whatever book she can get her hands on for flavourful literary entertainment, classics are hard to read but not to a great extent it takes a while to be able to appreciate them.
So much that a universal translator program would shine light on the wonders of classics in their own original language or the languages in a world that has been ruled out or decayed since the presence of our immensely powerful rulers. The classics and literature have been so rare that only knockoffs or editions by contemporary transcribers or whatever literature company out there could preserve the literature through advanced linguistic research who are working on a program or a scientific project to make it even better to even understand.
Yes, even movies had been reanimated or remade, especially even after the overhaul of society, people are so stuck in the past they try to get all the books trying to preserve all the classics, shows and anime the new ones can see the shows but overtime our duty to the supreme ruler of technology and immense in its deity power that people are more attentive in pleasing them and being their loyal genetically evolved servants. Though some people with tastes or in amateurish spoiled fashion decide to have their linguistics studied only to have recreated for their eye. It wasn't this serious, as most shows would be wholesome and tender, some of the media of the new beginning of this supreme ruler era was encouraging the build of spaceships and stuff to reach out to places far beyond our own, and a plethora of knowledge after the new eden, terra or whatever fancy name you call it.
Ava moved on from her thoughts as she see what does this book called "Faust" have to bring as she gets the new edition of faust she starts to read - this book is all about a guy who made a deal with a entity named mephisto and was given power and wealth beyond his wildest dreams, especially his charm but in the end it became naught cause his soul was uniformly tied to mephisto. Ava starts reading in blitzing speed; she finishes the book as she then controls her cybernetic to recreate these literary pieces. She can't wait to crack more of these stuff and gain more literary poetry experience.
It was nice piece of literature, but what if she settles down and just learn to appreciate the book by cover to cover with a slow pace thus maintaining human focus, Ava couldn't seem to make herself do it due to her complacent mood when it comes to this stuff it she seems
She already had every record of Goethe literature in her head, so there is no point in trying as a human that can only be finished within months and not to forget the deluxe editions and rewriting done by other people for intellectual reasons. Yeah it's not fahrenheit 451 sorry, but even that literature has been recreated in this era. Putting aside all that convoluted grammatical structuring here, is it easier to say that some literature from the past have more novelty in them? Because of their original nature?
We can't ignore William shakespear and Dostoevsky having no sense of grandeur in them, with their symbolism that redefined novelty forever - yes, while this may be true though the supreme ruler has decreed that their books, literature worth preserving but they must be more books in this supreme ruler era days, that is pleasing to him.
She decides to read Faust for a while slowly recapping on what she knows of him; she loses her mind to the vivid imagery of its prose, simply being entranced to it; how could someone a writer from many centuries be able to weave such a masterpiece. Who cares about the overman superiority? This is a new feat of consciousness, Ava continues to reel in. She checked the other preserved knockoff classics and said nothing but remained to be in awe, the words maybe verbose but in no way can she get around them easily.
Either way it wouldn't matter. She is still trying to reel in the 28th century edition of Faust, and whether she can get it or not is up to her. At the end of absorbing the information she doesn't understand, you cannot just sell yourself to a spirit named Mephisto just so you could attain superior powers. That's a classic human error - we have cybernetics for that want or need.
Egalitarian views here is that anyone with superior genetics or cybernetics are of a worthy hierarchy in the economy of natural selection. But it's possible that anyone would seek cybernetics as a way to elevate their human self to the highest degree.
Or so they thought, either way sycophants exist and the nature of spirits dwelling in earth to mingle with humans - offering them riches and promises of power can be connected with elites offering third rate cybernetics to their employers to induce them an illusion of power, while they work as factory workers or technicians. This level of complacency in the cybernetic age has hit the new peak in society never seen before!
It's not really spirits that exist outside of our own reality but could be the spirits that dwell in the materialistic heart of our world that's causing some peak level of complacency. And I mean it in a phenomenological sense. You could presuppose some sort of intangibility or an teleological agent that gives rise to such feeling of being 'left out' under helm of superior computations and unparalleled intelligence that only machines give rise to
(Confused, think about worrying about artificial intelligence integration that dilutes General ability, you ever wondered about how clear and precise machines are)
After all, when humanity has served under the supreme ruler and his servants. Humanity have seen the guidance of their wisdom of supreme that only obedience and your natural arsenals are what matter to him for the cultivation of society, now society has this feeling vacuum in power dynamics - humans are free but with no guidance still religious institutes exist but mostly the most predominant one are the technocrats but enuff of that
Ava decided to stand up from her desk. She went around the library tired from the exhaustion of her powers and the limitations of her cybernetic mind. She decided to lodge herself off from books and just read the newspaper to just make her mind more busy and bored.
She continues to look at the newspaper and busy her own mind, minding her own business. Either way it doesn't really matter what she's looking at, it's just petty politics. And useless shenanigans of celebrities and politicians, it's a ragdoll race of aristocracy and attention starved individuals. This is the way our society operates, and then spawns a lot of dramas about ecological factors and democracy.
Ava continues to look at the newspaper.
"One of the superstars got into a freak accident with someone, backlash from fans ensues"
(Shows an image of a superstar revolt face while wearing a tuxedo alongside some girl at his back sharing his shock involving trouble with a random person)
"Interstellar news: A rogue drunk pilot got into trouble with the clan near the kepler's belt"
(Shows a drawing of a pilot being chased by few warships)
"Introducing today's fashion model with new nanotech designs"
(Shows an image of a hosted fashion show with very beautiful ladies)
Ava then talks to herself
"Oooh wow, imagine wearing one of the designer clothes. Must feel very nice"
followed with, "For them to be able to stand out from the rest, these clothes and brands are to be polished for eye-catching value."
Ava continues holding the newspaper as she stares at the newspaper
"You also have to admit that these people, they had a perfect symmetrical face with amazing facial harmony - flawless skin and attractive - a byproduct of the genetic lottery"
Ava opined, "Well quite hypocritical for me to say. I am not considering the bigger picture, they do need amazing figures so to speak."
Ava continued to opine, "Can't stand out too bad. I don't think I have anything in my wallet for such clothes"
(All of this is in her mind though)
Ava can't help but feel bored, she merely looked at the newspaper and cannot help but rather intrigue in their life, I wonder how does it feel to be in the apex of society and be recognized by everyone
She decided to focus her sights on the outside, she looked away from the newspaper while sitting.
She started standing up and then walked to return the newspaper, back to its place.
Soon Ava went near the exit of the library door and left the building, there it goes the whole buildings
Beautiful aren't they, and very tall. Few of them almost reach the skies - wonderful pleasant feeling, I shall head back home from the toxins of my mind. The living utopia world, that can stands at the apex of time with humanity at the brink of purpose collapse
And the rise of cybernetics
So, Ava saw the buildings and decided to explore the vastness of the city. She decided to plan her legs and arms to walk to the city. As she walked to the city there was a little bit of feeling of ease and solemness, there was something about this city that's cool it's huge and has those metallic specular sheen-ness whenever she looks up the towers in her perception has curved
She feels like a small ant whenever she looks up, it's like when you are in one of those orthodox churches with high liturgy with motifs and painting but in here she seems like a mere dread, an insignificant human in the cusp of superior architecture
Ava continues looking up, the megastructure everything just how the world around her feels like an amiss, who cares if there is grass. You still still feel like you are in a dystopian omega world, where elites and materialism are most active
Ava then halts herself from looking up before looking straight to the building, as she enters the building to go around shopping. Inside shows a lot of holographic screens and advertisements people continue walking around
Ava continued to walk, there were a lot of people, well not a lot but a moderate amount of people. People continue to walk the building, Ava just walked and walked, she decided to go to a store to buy some spare parts
The store shows an advertisement hologram showing "Spare electronic parts store" and so Ava then entered the store, the cashier saw her the cashier looks like someone who is wearing a visor with glowing red colors it's like binoculars of sorts that's glued to his zygomatic (front area surrounding the eyes) it's like a face cover with goggles glowing red with a restaurant worker's hat.
The cashier said "Welcome to the store, what should I get you?"
Ava said "Some electronic parts and compiler designs"
Cashier said "Gotcha" the cashier started tapping on manual controls on the monitor that popped out of his cashier counter table, "Compiler designs incoming ready with API and some electronic spare parts"
"Circuitry, Digital multimeter, Precision Plasma generator, and some motors"
The cashier looked back where the robot arm has delivered the aforementioned a slider from his behind opened and the cashier brings the parts from the inside to Ava, Ava was then requested to pay some heavy money where Ava pay with her saved money it was heavy but it robs her of any money where she carried the store bag, she only had a few cash in her card.
Where Ava continue to walk around she looks around the building people continue walking around but their noise is very quiet - it feels lonely but at the same time it feels clean - there were couples and families, only the couples are more energized, the rest are very quiet
Ava then starts walking around the place, she looks at others and go - suddenly a lost child appeared
The child was spotted being desperate asking, "mama, papa. Where are you?" He was holding his hands together as if he was trying to make a prayer.
Ava watched the poor boy who was lost by his mother. The girl made contact. She looked at the boy with intellectual detachment, 'You appear to be lost?"
The boy looked at the girl, and was mesmerized but still clinging to desperation, 'I can't find my parents, miss. Could you help me find them?' the girl nodded, 'Sure' Ava helped the boy around, she offered her hand and let the boy hold it. Ava uses her brain and eye to look for their parents. Ava asked the boy the following, 'What do they look like?'
And so the child describe his parents appearance, and ava listened she was silent and robotic and so Ava grabbed the child, she held the boy's hand trying to find them on the behalf of this lost boy, in this place she was quiet, very solemn sure the girl is beautiful but not in a striking way
Ava continues to search even matching people face based on the given description, she then asked random people if they are the parent of this lost child she found only found a non satisfactory answer, 'no' with some of their heads waving
Ava nods and continues looking while holding the child's hand. Ava and the lost child continue to look for the lost child's parents. There was disappointment etched on her but her face was able to hide it, the child lifted his eyes and looked at the girl's face. She was holding her hand with a modicum of hope before looking straight.
Ava silently assures him, "Don't worry. You must not fret we will find your parents" with a detached voice
The child nodded they started walking around while Ava said nothing but with a layer of silence, Ava continued walking around with the boy until finally two people found them the boy recognized the two people where he detached her hand with a girl, one is a female and a male the boy started speeding up his walk before being contact with them.
The girl watched and said nothing the mother of the child walked up to her with focused eyes and asked with recognition
"You're Ava aren't you….."
"I remember when you were part of the secret breeding program. Your dad did something to you during your infancy in the womb"
The mother waved her head and dismissed herself, "Nevermind. It doesn't matter' the mother grabs the child softly and tells him, 'come on let's go now"
Ava was confused on the initials she received from her mother, she was put off by the mother's communication but she was curious maybe she knows a deeper secret that Ava doesn't know after all Ava wasn't abused by her father nor was she tormented
Either way Ava is satisfied she checks on her and turns out she was carrying the bag she bought from the store but she is still lacking in money she decided to go back to her house so she can taste the liquid of hydration. And she started to make her way home
Ava started to think if that lady knows her, she doesn't know. She can't ascertain well but she can ask her mother or someone whom she trusts. And so Ava continues to walk home, with the plastic bag in her hand. The more she walks, suddenly her mind says 'Yaren' as she continues to walk a long way the sun started to go down earth the sky was darkening and the stars were to simmer before her very eyes
It's as if after a prolonged moment of walking, hours have passed, not only the time she spends looking for the child's parents had eaten her time - she managed to finish the task of preoccupying her time from the worries she has. There up from the darkish sky, unpolluted by fossil fuels and carbon dioxide were visible starships that were moving around the sky it was huge - it feels nice to look at, like wanting to be part of this vastness not only that the ecosystem is so free it feels nice to breathe air
The more she is outside the city the more connected she feels to nature, ever feel like you are in a province? That one to be exact, from rotating of her view about 20 degree to the left she saw a large from the distance a jump gate the moment a ship enters it a large pulse is created from the space time continuum it was palpably observable, as the ship that entered has curved the space time continuum to the outskirts of the planet's orbit
Ava was astounded, she can't help but be in awe where she instead resume walking, the trees and grass continue to bloom in her eyes, it was really dark as the moon limelight shines with night time sound, the nocturnal feeling feels so nice
And so she continue to walk and walk where the houses became visible, their usual sheen alien like but minimalistic structure feeling welcoming, as she enters her neighborhood
Soon she arrived home, where she enters the house and put her shoes on the containers, she said "I am home"
The mother looked at her with a warm smile, "Welcome back dear Ava, I made you some dinner for you to savor please relish it"
Ava then went to the table and ate it.
She ate the food and her tummy was filled, she wanted to eat and drink for a while during her walking, she also placed the plastic bag containing the parts she bought
she then drank water as her life depended she felt refreshed, and express her gratitude, "thanks mom" she went upstairs and then she changed to her usual pajama nanosuit to be able to sleep well at night
One thing she hasn't thought about though is the lady she briefly meet in one of the towers of the sector 451, while she was asleep she suddenly woke up she felt somewhat annoyed she decided to get a paper drawing the face of a woman she recalls from her advanced memory
As she sketched, she tries to sketch it with accuracy from what she recalls before grabbing it she rushed down the stairs and asked mom if she knows this person
[Ava is holding a paper with her two hands with a sketch of a lady she saw on one of the megastructure mall in the city]
Ava said "Do you know this person, mom?"
The mother looked at the drawing and was confused, "I don't know who that is, do you think she is your auntie of sorts?"
Ava explained, "I don't know, she said she know something that my father had done something to me since birth"
The mother said with a soft voice, "Sweetie, that maybe your father's coworker a long time ago she probably has retired or not. Either way it's not much of a fuss that someone recognized you, yes darling?"the mother the leans in and fidgets with the strand hair of Ava trying to soothe her, the mother recedes her leaning pose and softly touch Ava's shoulder trying to walk her back to her room for her to go asleep
And so Ava is then put to sleep, she grab the sketch and retreated she looked at it and said "interesting, it seems like our daughter has managed to be in contact with one of the former coworker of my love"
The mother picked up the sketch and said to herself with a smile, "I will be keeping this sketch by now" while gracefully holding, and so Ava then went back to sleep, she slept very peacefully in the bed as she sleeps her mouth makes snoring noise in the the side as she relaxes herself in the bed meditating; as the nanosuit pajama doing its best trying to soothe her nerves and try to give the best sleeping experience, the nanosuit performance was optimal indicated by its light on the stripes
(Isn't it adorable seeing the girl in a napping state, you would be amused her baby form)
Cute isn't it, she continues murmuring noises the fate of the world is in her fingertips and napping head. Okay enough idealizing how cute her sleeping position is, let's get into the story.
Ava continues napping, she sees herself in a whirl of confusion she sees herself where she is in a world with four large pillars on each of her side, left, right, north, and south on a near distance but not super near. The sky is like the blue sky of life, the ambience the color, the atmosphere is like blue but she finds herself in a cobblestone platform with 4 large pillars in each of her side
suddenly a hologram projection begins
it shows a image of every people all's face blurred, showing a holographic presentation of every human faces, the technology here felt very advanced it continue showing every holographic faces where it slides from left to left and left and left
'Who are these people?' she asks
the hologram changed to a voice visualizer and said, "You will understand soon, but there are many people in secret who knows you and the others' suddenly a crack in the atmosphere ensues and a large sphere with a red eye emerged from the clouds it was humming as it kept looking around before looking at Ava where their eyes met. The large sphere eyelid stares at Ava and says 'You.... and.... I... Are... One... You are an entity who is part of the new race of humans"
"You will should do well to humanize me, and to give me a feeling of meaning"
"So wake up now, live the life that will give you happiness. Even if you yourself are not human - with your human nature and my robotic nature we will make history" in a HAL 9000 stunted fashion
Ava then saw the sphere's eye turn even more red as the air around the place distorts. Ava then saw herself in a really strong gravity pulling downward as she saw what's around her turning into space with digits floating around, green transparency, and by space I mean like when you are not on a planet.
Around her is dark, but the more she focus the more she realize she is in space - the symphony of the stars sung as they speak melodies to her, it's rhythm harmonic - the oscillations being soft and smooth as there is no disruption in the vacuum of space as with the enigmatic dream of the universe before the dream world begins to fade