01/05/2025
-Hi
03/06/2025
-This is a portal to the past for me, *****
-Glancing at your profile photos from almost a decade ago.
-Nostalgia.
-That's all I can say.
04/06/2025
-I've admired the past for a long time, perhaps too long.
-That's why I'm here, to bury the past with a final goodbye.
07/06/2025
[Letter to the Past]
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I've remembered you for a long time and I haven't forgotten you, ever since you were at ****** School.
The little smile in your gaze, your ravings, my ignorance about you.
Well, I never had you, and yet here I am, longing to have taken advantage of that opportunity that fate wove with silk threads for my younger self.
I wish I had been there for you, maybe then I wouldn't suffer this nostalgia.
You probably don't know who I am, you don't remember me, that's obvious, but I remember you perfectly.
You have been the precursor to my sleepless nights for a long time.
Maiden of my mistakes, and executor of my sentence for my own shortcomings.
You were like that sparrow that comes once to sing by my side and then flies away never to return.
And I longed for you for so many years, but this hurts me.
I can't go on with this, keep remembering you so intensely in my heart.
You don't remember me.
I would have loved to have been part of your life, even if only for a couple of days.
I watched you from a distance with faithful madness, admiring the furrows in your eyebrows every time something displeased you, the way your lips curved when you smiled, the movement of your eyes, fleeting and vivid.
Every time I passed by you, I watched with cruel pain as my body went crazy, all in a cocktail of emotions capable of killing me if I exceeded the dose.
You don't know me well, but I can say with complete certainty that I have loved you more than any passing boyfriend ever could, and I can even swear to heaven that I have loved you more than any existence in this passing world, but your presence in my mind is driving me crazy.
Remembering you every night as the cold wind gently blows against my face is no longer pleasant.
That's why I'm sending this message to the girl I met nine years ago. I haven't forgotten your name, *****, but I'm going to do so. This is my farewell.
It wasn't pleasant to remember you for so many years, not even a little bit, but I wouldn't give up that pain if I could, because you were part of my life for nine years.
Thank you, *****, and GOODBYE!!