Daisy:( I'll wait for an important moment. Then I decided to do the thing that I promised I wouldn't do which is to kill myself by killing myself. I would have to eat 5 tablespoons of salt. I'm swallowing it without water at the time. It can take half an hour for it to stop my heart. And at the last minute, all I can hear is a scream. As I sadly lay on the kitchen floor.
Angel:( angel yells) JASPER.( he wakes up and gets to do where angel is who is now crying on the floor) she is gone, she has gone, she really is gone. I can't believe that I don't want to believe it. How will we ever survive without her? We won't, we really will not. Jasper: I can't believe she would do such a thing like that, but why didn't she tell us if she was struggling. I just don't get why she would not want to tell us. Angel: I followed as though it was our fault for not detecting her from what she was feeling and how she was being hurt. I wish we could have done something soon( we both start to sob)
( We call the police and they certified that she's dead as can be. And they take her body away for examination.But before they do that, they put her in a body bag)
Angel: Well, she'll be in her resting place in a few days, time that she is not suffering and can finally be at peace. Jasper: We will never forget her. We will both. No longer feel true, happiness or love or anything pleasant like that. Angel: Well, we do know she's going to be outside. And to make the sky prettier for us that's what we want a baby angel to do, just for us and only us. Jasper: Come right. I know we have to have a very thoughtful experience, therefore, we must always look at the sky in admiration.
Angel: Yes, so let's do this.
( we get ready for bed and i'm ready when you are ready … The weird thing is we sleep in the same bedroom because we have to protect each other from anything bad happening to each other) Jasper:(I slowly wake up and Angel slowly wakes up too) Well lets do this as we need to do the big long run but we need to spray paint the clothes. Angel:yeh ... .well yes as we do need to get sorted and you can do the food while ill do the shirts as it's very important people know why we are doing this.
(We get all of the food eaten and the t-shirts done and we have to get a book and wait for the shirts to be dry and ready to wear before we wear them.)
Angel:well lets do this then as there is no going back and and we are here to raise awareness about being silent about suicide and how it can affect our mental health and mindset and out body. Jasper:(we get ready to go the the back of our t-shirts covered with information and) lets do this please (as we start the walk) Angel:I cant believe we are actually doing this as it's so crazy how we are doing this and a lot of people are watching us too which makes me so nervous but we can do this.
(We stopped to chat to a few people who had caught our attention as they wanted to find out some information about what happened and how they could spot the signs as they felt as though someone might do something stupid like.) Jasper: Yes( the t-shirts are helping soon as everyone else's questions are so important and all the information is on the back of the t-shirts) I can't believe we're really making a change.This is something amazing.
(We have been writing so much awareness about mental health that we don't actually stop until past 8 PM. It's going so well and the memory of Daisy makes us think of mac and cheese for dinner, because we both know she would absolutely love mac and cheese) Angel: I wish she was here to see us accomplish. The longest walk we have ever encountered, as it's so amazing how we are here to do this. Jasper: Well, I'm so sad because we're not here to be able to detect her help her one.Nope she needed the help. Angel: For as long as the police stick together, nothing will tell us anymore because we also have the protection of daisies from the sky.
Jasper: Well, as much as we hate to admit this( he quietly says in between mouthfuls) that it's the fact that she's dead and the fact that we can't do anything about it. And now we just have to accept it. I don't want to, I know but we have to. Angel: I know I know we have to but I still feel as if it's our fault I want to help the people that are in need.Cause that's the best thing, and we can do nothing else. Jasper: well that's it you know( he didn't know what else to say, so he stares into space. His quietness is the best thing at times)
Angel: To be honest, I don't know. I really don't know what to say. Or how to talk about my feelings? It's as though my feelings are all mixed up and I feel happy. That I'm with you, but I also feel sad about our loss. I'm starting to feel as though I would be back stabbing The person we lost if I didn't talk about that person.( I really want to go home and go steep as I am. So tired, what we've done so far) Jasper: So I can clearly tell you're shattered and I will not let my princess be.So tide and grumpy, as that is a big no- no..
Angel: Well, one I am getting quite tired and sleepier. That is my main issue of long days out.Is that it gets so tired?Also, ( i don't realize how close I am to him and how I am actually leaning it against him) i can also get quite clean when I get retired. So yeah (We very slowly go on and we walk to the house. And when we get back in the house, it's like 9 PM, so we both just get ready for bed, and I finally have to get some courage to sleep in Daisy's room. So I can fully sleep safely and peacefully. And only because I want to remember her like I used to be able to.)
Jasper: Well, I guess this is good night. Angel, as I wish you to have a fantastic sleep and you deserve the best sleep. Angel: You two jasper( we go into our own different rooms and we fall asleep almost instant as that walk absolutely knackered us and we don't want to talk because we to feel too sad about everything that happened)
( The next day comes around very rapidly.)
Jasper:( i quickly wake up the first and I creep dance days because I need to malta and from upstairs I hear a crash and then followed by a yelp though, I quickly rushed back upstairs to see what was going on)Angel: ( she's now awake, but she's in a bit of pain) well i can't believe I just fell off my own bed. But, you know, quite frankly, it is what it is( I got up and I dust myself off an icy jasper, looking concerned at me) . I'll be fine to be honest.I'll be fine.Jasper: Well, hello, messy. How are you? As I feared, as if I've been in the root of a hurricane, but I'll be fine.I just feel a little bit rough. Angel: Honestly, I don't know how I feel any more. I don't want to feel as if feeling is the worst type of thing possible.
Angel:You seriously know how to win my heart dont you …..I love you for being that kindhearted person I have always wanted in my life and I'm so grateful for you and I must say this food is very tasty. Jasper:I am truly great full you love the food and I did the good just for you and me to shair….you know what they say sharing is caring and I care so dearly about you…
I want you know so badly ….. will you be a mother well if you don't mind with all the pregnancy cravings and birth problems….but on the positive side you miss your period
Angel: I thought you would never ask, but it's going to take time and effort from both of us. Yes, I will have a child with you. And I will forever be grateful for a gift you gave me. Jasper: I'm so glad you have agreed because that's made me so happy. Also a change of subject.What food do you want as it's your choice tonight. Angel: Well, to be honest, I was actually thinking pizza but definitely pepperoni pizza, as that's the best pizza that there will ever be. Jasper: Well, how about we get that down then as I believe you deserve the pizza as a treat after all of the pain you have been though.your a true brave little marshmallow.
Angel:FINE …. But only because I know you haven't eaten yet and I want to make sure you have eaten today so ill eat but ill only do this for you . To be honest i dont want you to starve yourself.(he orders the pizza and I get the plates out ready but we still have to wait 30 minutes as the pizza is being cooked and delivered. Jasper:I told you that's the spirit you need to be having as we both need food to live…..but I know you may not want to eat after the last few days but you need to take into account that it's important to eat … (The food shortly arrives after he says that and the pizza so happens to taste so delicious that angle mouth waters in anticipation so that they both dig into the food)
Angel:Well it's for one can definitely say that the food well I say food its actually just pizza is one of the best things i will ever eat . I love food as the texture and the simplicity of the food is perfect for me. I will admit I love you more than anything in the world and I believe you know that for a fact as I show you everyday just how much I love you.
Jasper:Well if you do love me that way as in more then pizza…how about you prove it to me why dont you . But you know im only joking right…well i hope so Angel: do i or do I not(I laugh slightly) too right I love you … who in their right mind wouldn't love you … ill always love you … not going to lie but I feel so robotic like I want to laugh but I feel as if I have no emotions to know how to feel …well I do but im starting to feel so depressed like ive been hit with a ton of bricks. Jasper:(as we slowly finish up the last slices and I decide to ask a question to angel bit im so anxious because im not actually being direct about the question)so I was wondering would you perhaps
... well you know ... .WILL YOU HAVE A CHILD WITH ME FOR GODS SAKE…
Angel:(my pizza slice drops dramatically as I hear the word child and my face goes as pale as a ghost)I…I mean of course I would absolutely love to and I wouldn't of picked a better person to marry other then you …(I somehow recover from the absolute abomination of a shock as I never thought he'd want a child with me) Jasper: I'll never force you to be doing something that you don't want to do as you want feel comfortable in doing this but as long as your comfortable in having a kid and going through the pregnancy cravings and the birth then im happy.(she cuts me off as though i've said something that don't make sense)
Angel:Honestly it would be my honour to get pregnant by you because you are my little angel and I love you so much and I can't express how much the pregnancy would make me so happy.but one of us has to work whilst the other is looking after the babe and we don't want to hire a nanny as it will cost a fortune and also be so much trust issues.. Jasper:Well I'm more than happy to be at home and looking after the child whilst my independence from an ambitious partner goes to the conferences and will even pay you double and your job as my secretary is very important to me and our work. I'll always want a report at the end of the meetings so I know what's happening too... Angel:well of course ill do that for you but whilst im pregnant you can work then ill take over the work load to do the busines..(he nods in agreement and we both decide to wash my scene, do the dishes. And we get in our PJ's, but we sleep on the sofa and not on our beds and we fall asleep by listening to our crunching asmr music)