There was a girl years ago '
She was younger and pure soul . She leave with here two brothers and one sister and with parents she was bigger child at home
She must caring all in home brother sister because at time her brother and sister wos young and she toke care for all in here home when she finish her school here father don't let her to go at school anymore because in year 2009 when she was only seventeen years it's wos other time and old mind of people here father let here at home to took care of everything my father say whoman are not for school just to be married or to stay home but not for eny things like to work or finish school hi let me without school and anything I stay home and took care of my family my brother sister at time with my family leave here sister she broke up with here husband and move to my house she was bad whoman who stay here and speak bad for my mom all time she was say brother look what she did she is not able to keep family save and she is not good enough for you she is to much slower with here work at home she was bad person who keep speak to my dad bad things for his family
I accept that I never was girl like others to have here need to have a father who protects me who say that I'm going to be a good girl and goin school been like every one else
In 13 years my children time finish and start my life as girl who in that time took care of her family no one else to help of to advise me tell me that you need to be careful I have only mom she was good with me when no one else was my mother was at same time father I was girl without nobody else just mom in my side everything was good till sister of my father start to be more like owning my home she did everything to take my home in here heand and she took
Father always did what she wanted she blame my mother for everything I was litle girl that time I grow up not like all children it's was heartbreaking for me in all that situations as litle girl I don't have that feeling of been with friends to school to have nice things like other
No one believe me when I tell them today
What I been through since litle and till now it's heard when no one I think all my life was bad to be fist child at family mean I take care of all
I let everything
When I become 24 years I come at prishtina to leave here after her sister dies I come to leave here I start a job in beaker I was not so happy with pay it's was my first job there
They pay me 270 months at time I leave with tre girl and this end after six months I move one other place I take my big brother with me when hi come here I help him to much my brother come with credit we have to pay every month
My father call as one time at month to tell as did you pay credit no one call if I'm fine or my brother it's fine just to finish this and nothing more
I'm tell my true story in my heart that I never been ike other girls I been leaving with my brother here when hi find job
My brother took care of credit and I pay rent home for eat and everything I will be able to stay strong for him my brother we change apartment we find one other place
My brother don't like anymore to go at village house hi stay with me since we got here it's was more good here we have I give space for my brother to work and been more productive at his life to stay strong but
For are father it's was not good because only thing that we work it's was something without high school I find a job
I was working for litle money
I want to share my storie it's not story it's my like 31 years that I live and all my worst things rhat happen my unhappiness in my life that is feel like hell luckily don't wos in my side
It's feel I don't have any look in my life for nothing all those things is was to much for me I started to stay alain depressed without nothing I was all alain at my one no one wos with me only to speak about anything good in life no I don't see no one here all what I habe it's was a flas of wine and one sang that I have listen all time I stay all night I cry all night alain no one was and I wake up at two day taierd my heart hurt my eyes was red burning me and all day taierd I been all days for tre yers like depersion don't let me in peace I sofer night all day and night for tre yers I want to be alain because I can't not accept what is happen with me even church don't help to share because they think that I'm crazy I stop going in church not because I don't want to be close with my hause but I was not eble to share I cry there but when someone ask me what is wrong with you I don't know what is wrong with me all my feelings stuck in my head I can't speak my heart hurts all time I can't even breathe well I'm still not good I have problems with my heart I can't to anything