Song For This Chapter: The Conflict Of The Mind by AURORA
Elián;
I still feel it in my chest long after the magic fades.
That warmth.
That… loosening. Like something that had been clenched inside me for weeks has finally shown mercy, and let go.
I know it wasn't real.
I know Seun and Kishan didn't really stand there smiling at me. They didn't really place Anwil in my arms…
I know Koda didn't actually lift me into his arms like that; he didn't really press his forehead to my hair and whisper how much he misses me.
I know. I know it was all an illusion, but my heart doesn't care.
My heart is still humming softly, echoing with gratitude I can't put into words.
Gratitude that's still rolling over me in waves, so I just sit there on the floor with Asa, as her magic dissolves.
The ache and discomfort that previously terrorised me are now gone, and I rest my hands on my stomach without even thinking.
I breathe slowly, begging myself not to cry.
