Song For This Chapter: Through The Eyes Of A Child by AURORA
King Wilhelm;
Staring into space. It's all I can bring myself to do.
For some reason, I've found it difficult to cry.
I wish I could. I wish I could let all these emotions out. I wish I could break down, break things. Cry till I feel lightheaded and light inside.
…But when you close your heart up for too long… When you force your emotions onto a regulated path for too long, you lose your ability to feel the things you naturally ought to. No… Not feel them. You lose the ability to express and process them.
I drag another shaky breath that feels sandpapery as my fingers curl tighter around my goblet.
I take another sip. Suffer another burn, and hold my breath as I feel the warmth travel down my throat and die somewhere in my chest, unable to thaw anything inside me.
I breathe out slowly, letting the echo fill the empty room, and my gaze shifts.
