It's May 24, 2025. It's been a year since my best friend, Song Woobin, passed away. I'm still holding onto the thought that he's with me, but in reality, he's gone. Gone far away from me. May 24, 2024, was the worst day ever for me. I can barely think about it. It's just so...
Hi! I'm YJW (Yang Jungwon), the living monster in the world. Hmph... I'm a newly joined national esports player on Team VainX. Everyone says I'm the most silent person. Or maybe something made me this way.
Do you want to know what happened to me a year ago?
I think you'll hate me after this, but okay, it's the truth anyway. On May 24, 2024, I was enjoying my day with my best friend Woobin. We casually played various games and enjoyed every moment. Those were the best days for me.Our days were filled with joy, and every second felt precious. With Woobin by my side, I felt like I was living life to the fullest.
I still remember that night, Woobin was with me, and we were just walking around. Then, out of nowhere, some guys came and started beating me up. Woobin tried to save me, but they hurt him too badly. I passed out, and when I woke up, I was in the hospital. Woobin was fighting for his life. I found out he got hurt so badly trying to protect Doctors said his body was internally bleeding so hard. It wasn't good sign.I stayed with him for 10 days, but... he didn't make it. His death crushed me. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened. Woobin's girlfriend blamed me, and I blamed myself. It's all my fault. Those guys were angry because I stood up for a girl they were bullying. I never thought it would lead to this. Now Woobin's gone, and I'm left with this pain.
I stand before your grave, Woobin-ah, and my heart feels empty. I bring flowers, but they seem meaningless without you here.
Annyeong, Woobin-ssi... I still remember our laughter, our gaming sessions, our late-night talks. Saranghae, Woobin-ssi... I love you, my friend. Life hasn't been the same since you left. Everything feels dull and gray. I wish you were here to share my joys and sorrows. Gwaenchana, Woobin-ssi? (are you okay?) I know you're not, but I wish you were. My eyes well up with tears every time I think of you. Why did it have to end like this? Why did you have to leave me behind? I'm still trying to move on, but it's hard without you by my side. Woobin-ah, I miss you so much...
I stood before Woobin's grave, and Maya(Woobin's Gf)'s eyes met mine, filled with anger and pain. She ignored me at first, but I couldn't blame her. I deserved her hatred. I took a step forward, trying to apologize, but my words felt hollow.
Maya's gaze snapped back to me, and she accused me, her voice cracking with grief.
MAYA :You're the reason he's gone! You're the reason Woobin is lying here!
I felt a pang in my chest, knowing she was right. I was the reason.Her words cut deep, but I stood silent, my eyes fixed on the ground. I knew she was hurting, and I deserved it.
MAYA : You're always so careless, Jungwon! Woobin was always there to save you... He's gone, and it's all because of you!
(Maya's pain and anger poured out, and I felt like I was drowning in guilt.)
I looked up at Maya, and her tears streamed down her face. I saw the pain in her eyes, and I knew I couldn't take it away.
MAYA : I hate you, Jungwon. I hate you for taking him away from me. You are the monster Jungwon-ah. Alive monster.
Her words pierced my heart, and I felt the weight of my guilt. I stood there, frozen, unable to respond, unable to take away her pain.
Maya turned and walked away, her body shaking with sobs. I stood frozen, watching her disappear into the distance. My eyes returned to Woobin's grave, and I felt the weight of my guilt crushing me.
ME :Woobin-ah... gwaenchana?(are you okay?)
I whispered, knowing he wasn't. I thought back to that day, replaying the events in my mind. Tears streaming down my face.
I remembered our laughter, our late-night conversations, our gaming sessions. Woobin was always there for me, and I... I couldn't save him.
The sun began to set, casting a golden glow over the graveyard. I stood there, lost in my thoughts, surrounded by the silence. Woobin's grave was the only one that mattered to me.
ME :Woobin-ah, bappeo haji ma (Woobin, don't be busy), ( whispered,smiling through tears) Don't be busy in the afterlife, wait for me.
The wind picked up, rustling the leaves, and I felt Woobin's absence more than ever. I stood there, frozen in grief, my heart heavy with sorrow.
Author's POV:
"Woobin, Maya, and Jungwon were inseparable, a trio that brought laughter and joy to everyone around them. Woobin, with his bright smile and caring nature, was the glue that held them together. Maya, with her bubbly personality and creativity, added a spark to their friendship. Jungwon, with his quiet strength and loyalty, was the rock that kept them grounded. Together, they explored the city, shared secrets, and supported each other through thick and thin. Their friendship was a beautiful thing, filled with memories that would last a lifetime. Woobin and Maya were each other's everything, and Jungwon was the brother they never had. But fate had other plans, and their bond was tested in ways they never could have imagined.
Jungwon's POV :
"I walked back to my dorm room, the weight of my guilt crushing me. Every step felt like a betrayal, every breath a reminder of my failure. I stared at my reflection in the mirror, and a monster stared back. "I am the monster," I whispered, tears streaming down my face. "I am the one who took him away from her. I am the one who couldn't save him." The words echoed in my mind, a constant reminder of my inadequacy. I fell onto my bed, overwhelmed by grief and self-loathing. "I am the monster," I repeated, my voice barely audible. And in that moment, I knew I would never be able to escape the guilt that haunted me."
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Author's POV:
It wasn't entirely Jungwon's fault, but the guilt would consume him nonetheless.he'd just saved a girl's life, a selfless act that should've been a heroic moment. But in doing so, he'd lost Woobin, his dear friend. The bittersweet irony would haunt him, a painful reminder of the sacrifices made in the blink of an eye.
Author's NOTE :
I feel like God has another plan for him. Maybe something good is waiting for him. Stay tuned! I'm so sorry for making this sad story for Jungwon. I'm really sorry. Don't take it to heart; it's just a story, unrelated to his real life.
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