Chapter Eighteen
Lucianna's POV
"Let me go!" I snarled, struggling away from his strong grip. Jacob didn't bother to do what I ordered, instead, he continue walking while dragging me with him.
I got more furious. I'm mad at Jacob and its on a different level plus, the guilt from what happened to Justin fueled my anger.
"I can walk on my own!" I shouted. We were walking in this dark forest with the moon as our light. I can hear a faint noise from afar, probably coming from the bonfire party.
"Jacob!"
He finally stopped and turned to look at me but his hand on my arm gripped even tighter. I flinched from the pain but hides it as I fought his intense eyes on me.
"You!" he cursed and closed his eyes tight, frustration and anger was plastered on his face. "Do you know what you've done!?" his voice echoed around the forest and I heard birds flew away from how he growled after.
I shivered but I kept my self tough.
"Why did you kill Justin!?" I tried to struggle away from his hold but failed. "He didn't do anything!" I almost cried loud but it turned to soft whimpers.
"You're asking me 'why'?" his voice was like thunder. I got more irritated and his anger stopped making me tremble.
I'm angry, too! I don't care about you!
"He did not do anything wrong! He didn't know that I'm your mate! Death shouldn't be his punishment! Fuck! He shouldn't be punished at all!"
"I got to decide on that! He held what is mine, he kissed what is mine, he fucking touched what is fucking mine!"
How dare he treat me like a thing?!
"I am not yours!" my voice roared like a wolf growling in command!
Jacob's eyes slightly widened and his jaw tightened from the intensity that my words sent.
I tried to take my arm and he let go of it from one pull. I was shock from it but I quickly took one step away from him, facing him clearly now. Showing him my expression by going to the light from the moon.
"The moment you fuck your whores, you already lost your right to me! If you can cheat and I don't then we better look for answers on how to break off this mate bond because I'm only up for a fair fight!"
"We are not in a battle!"
"We do! From now on, treat me as your enemy because I quit being your partner, and I no longer want to be your mate!"
He growled and took a step closer that our face are just a palm away. I looked up to him despite our height, not backing down or taking a step back.
"There is no room for rejection." he said like I needed to be inform! Fuck him, I already know that! "Its impossible for you to reject me. You can not escape me, Lucianna."
The fact that what he said was true almost broke my resolve.
I already know that but I'm no longer willing to be a slave for this bond! If I can only walk out of this fate!
"Maybe you must remind that to yourself before you fuck more of your whores." I said, tasting the bitterness on the tip of my tongue by the words.
If he already knew that rejection was not an option, then he shouldn't have done all his sinful activity that left me in pain and turned me to this.
"I told you, I am not gonna do that again." he said softly.
I watched as his eyes looked at me with gentleness. My jaw dropped when a hand caress my chest, as if I'm hypnotized by him, as if I was compelled to give us a chance!
NO!
"Oh, please." I chuckled while shaking my head. "Go on and continue what you started, Jacob. I already hate you so why bother to change? Its not like there's more of you to like."
I lick my lips and looked down to his body, slowly moving my eyes up again to his face, to his confused eyes.
Wow, he dared to act confused, huh? He didn't expect that I will turn the tables?
Fucker.
"You won't hate me for long." he smirked. My cheeks heated not from butterflies but from how egoistic he sounded! "I'll make sure of that…" he whispered and raised his hand to touch me.
I quickly took a step back. My heat didn't died down naturally but only covered by the recent event, I can't let him touch me now or the bond will make me succumb.
Now I have more reason to hate this mate bond!
Fuck!
"Best of luck." I hissed before turning my back on him. "I will continue to hate fate for pairing me with a monster." then I shifted and ran away from him.
I need to run in my wolf, it will help my heat to somehow subside.
The past few days, Jacob has been sating my heat by making me reach my orgasm and today he failed to do that.
I cursed upon thinking I have nowhere to go.
I have nowhere to run! I forgot I will still end up in his house!
Damn it!
Maybe I should try pleasuring myself? I think that will somehow help me to ease my own heat rather than my jerk of a mate's help.
I suddenly wished for the ground to swallow me whole! There was no other option to choose and I felt downgraded upon thinking that a mated she-wolf like me will masturbate just to ease my fucking urges!
'Why don't we just complete the mating with him? That way, we can run away from mate without the urges getting in our way.' My wolf suggested.
'You're with me on this?!' I'm shocked! I thought my wolf will keep being hell-bent to Jacob until the end!
'I'm in so much pain…' my wolf admits. My wolf form whimpered, feeling the agony that we both shared.
Well, if I wanted to run away from Jacob then my wolf's plan may help though tempting him was a hard task from the beginning. I always ends up being the one that was carried away from the pleasure.
I groaned.
'We can run away if we mated with mate. Go to Trivian pack and join the game after.' my wolf continues to share her ideas.
It may be possible…
'If Jacob will be tempted, that may be possible but what if he won't?'
'He said he will stop using another female to sate his heat. It will be easy to lure him in by then.'
I wanted to clap with my wolf's wit!
If I ran away from Jacob without completing the mating process, I will suffer. He will suffer, too but the female heat was like a great battle. It's hard to win. Given that Jacob was an Alpha, I bet he will survive it more than I will.
'But if we mate with him, the situation will turn upside down. We're the ones who won't suffer, freed within a month or two, while our mate will go manic.' my wolf disrupted on my thoughts.
She was right. We have studied this before in mate lessons and I'm glad my wolf can remember it. I only focused on the good points, I never thought I will need the downside of it.
I don't know if I can even touch him without crinkling my nose though. He just killed a wolf, an innocent man. Just the glimpse of his face and all I could remember was how he dug his claws on Justin's chest.
'Try to act for now. I wanted to be free from mate, too, even for a while…'
I sighed.
This needs a lot of thought and since I have nowhere to go, I decided to sped up on Jacob's house and locked myself in my room.