Actually, the kiss Shen Zuimo gave Xiaofan was undoubtedly a way to express her feelings for him.
It seemed there were no regrets left. Even if she were to die, at least she had loved once and tasted the flavor of love.
So, while Shen Zuimo was afraid of death, she was also not afraid anymore.
Even if there were only a short forty days left, they should spend it well together.
Everyone will face death someday, so Shen Zuimo hopes Xiaofan won't blame her for taking risks anymore. She doesn't want to see him putting his life on the line for her again.
During those forty days, let him accompany her through the rest of her life. Ah... The biggest regret is not being able to give him a child. If she could have a child with him, life would surely be more interesting, yes, it definitely would.
