"What I want to tell you is... back then, compared to 'blame'..." Li Lingling's voice was as light as a sigh, "... there was more fear."
At this point, her Adam's apple gently moved.
At this moment, she was actually a bit surprised at herself for being able to describe her past experiences to such an extent outside a counseling or healing setting.
"After growing up and becoming a nurse, especially after encountering similar disaster scenes, this fear turned into guilt." Li Lingling's voice gradually steadied, "I couldn't help but think, why am I the one who survived? Was it because I wasn't obedient enough at the time, and that's why they didn't come back for me?"
"I would deliberately avoid all topics related to 'home' or 'family', as if not mentioning it meant the guilt didn't exist."
Unconsciously, it seemed there was a bit too much self-exposure again. Li Lingling unexpectedly found that she had quite a lot of extensions on this topic.
