MIKO
I want to go back to the guys, but I can't find the energy to do so.
So I end up in my room, face down in the pillows as I try not to think about Rin and how I have hurt him. This is all on me. I am disgusting and heartless. It would be so simple and easy for me to turn to my whorish ways right now to forget about the hurt that's seeping in my heart right now.
But I can't.
Something …. No. Someone is stopping me.
Jude.
I don't want him to see me in my fucked up ways. I have to be in my best behaviour and not be a pig like I have been so far if I want to win him over.
I have always known I break hearts, treat people like shit when I am done with them but I never thought that I would cause pain to one of my friends. I wish I didn't care, I wish I didn't take it to heart, and I wish I didn't mind, but here I am.
