After the Prayers, I rushed back to my room like a headless chicken, the stairs almost seemed like an endless journey coupled with my speedy heartbeat. I bumped into someone and I could swear the face was quite familiar but at that instant I could barely even see myself if I had passed by a mirror.
At last I reached my door and with shaky hands I pushed the door open and fell on my bed,hoping to catch my breath.
" Oh Mother Mary..." I tried to say a silent prayer but I can't. I stood up pacing the room,then I heard a knock. My heart beat increased with so much energy that I could burst. I opened the door frantically and standing at my doorpost was a face that I can swore that I have seen before but at that moment my brain was already preoccupied with the event that just took place some minutes ago and without a second thought I replied,
"Please I'm not hungry and I won't like to be disturbed"
I saw something like disappointment on her Beautiful eyes,but I didn't care about it as I was so not in the right frame of mind.
"Alright my lady"
She left immediately and I banged the door, and went back to my array of thoughts
Sleeping tonight was really out of my reach as I tossed and turned on my bed.
Time seems to slow down and it wasn't long before the grumbling of my stomach jolted me back to reality. I tried to control the pangs of hunger gnawing through the walls of my stomach but I couldn't.
I later headed to the Kitchen to see if I can grab a bite
On my way I saw a figure sitting at the servants quarters but I didn't bother to check as I was in a hurry.
I reached the kitchen door and there I bumped into a rock hard chest and it seems like everything stood to a stand still.A rush like electricity rose from the core of my being, leaving my heart pounding and all my thoughts scattered.
"Ma'am " he said curtly with a bow and left, I turned around hoping that he will look back but he he did not.
I fled to my room and lunged on my bed with deep sobs forming in my stomach, I tried to use my pillow to suppresss the sound of my cry but it didn't do much as I wept loudly and bitterly.
"Maybe he has lost interest in me...maybe I was too harsh on him" asked myself loudly.
I didnt know that him ignoring me like he did will hurt me deeply. I tried to console myself but I couldn't hold back the tears spiraling its way down my cheeks. I later laid back down on my bed and fell asleep.
The next morning came with spatters of rain and heavy thunder. I woke up with a start and felt my whole body aching. I stood up and heade at my vanity to sit down. " My eyes are so puffy, how am I going to reduce this before going out of my room " I thought to myself.
I headed to my bathtub to wash and perhaps take a long hot dip. After I was satisfied I got out of the bathtub I headed straight to my dresser. I brought out the red flowery gown and cream colored silk gown. I later settled for the red gown. I tried brushing down my hair but it was tangled so I had to comb it in parts and that took a lot of time but I needed that moment to think of what happened the previous day. After combing my hair I styled it using pins and some sort of flowery clip to hold it up.
I opened my door and there was my Mother at the far end of the passage, I tried to go back in but she already caught a glimpse of me.
"Don't go back in"
" I thought I forgot something"
"You didn't come down for dinner last night , hope you are well?"
"Yes Mother, I was not feeling hungry"
" If you need anything tell me and stop hiding away in your room" she said and tried to make her way inside my bedroom but I was quick enough to block her from entering.
She sized me up in a scrutinizing way and turned around . I closed my door immediately and walked behind her.
" I hope you're not doing anything wrong?" She asked me in a very stern voice but I chose not to answer her as I was not ready to engage in any form of conversation with her and I really want us to maintain our aloof relationship.
On reaching the dinning area, I headed towards the kitchen to drink some water and there I saw her again with Mama Dorcs and it struck me. She was Eleanore, IMama Dorcs daughter. I had bumped into her yesterday after prayers and she was the same person that called me for dinner that I turned down. Eleanore is one of those girls that mothers will warn you to be wary of, she is very beautiful with an almond shaped eyes, her skin is always glistening that you could barely notice that she is not from a wealthy family and her hair is always styled into an elegant updo.
Once in a while she comes to the castle to help her mother and we have spoken so many times . We are not really friends after she once accused me of snatching her friend from her when we were still talking and were much younger. She is very flirtatious and has knowledge of almost anything and everything.
"My lady" she curtsied with a mischievous smile tugging at the corners of her lips .
" When did you arrive"
"She came in yesterday from the College" Mama Dorcs replied.
I nodded and went back to sit at the table.