What was that? Being alone really sucks i thought i got over with it but i guess not. I am hungry.
Haaaauuuppp its the same dinner. Ooo some eggs i like it though i am not an expert to turn it into some delicious dish but i think i can make something with it.
Tomato.. its about to be finished.
Onions... their are plenty of it.
Some garlic i hate garlic though if pieced up to the point where i can't bite it i like the flavour it brings to the dishes.
Chilli... unfortunately for some reason the chilli aren't spicy anymore it more of sweet than spicy guess they have been using to much chemicals in vegetables now days.
Not a lot of addition ingredients but i guess it will work out some how. Now what do i make omelette with fried rice? Boiled egg dipped into seasoned tomato sauce?
Boiled one sounds good specially since i have been only eating raw eggs and omelettes. Its been like what a year? without Boiled eggs.
"Prostp we are going to the supermarket so take care of the home and make sure to feed the dog while we are away"
.....i am gonna be alone that's nice. Sometimes i wish they never return...
"Hey their buddy sorry for leaving you alone."
It my fault.. i like dog's they are obedient stays buy your side no matter what since i was little i always wanted one seeing other kid's play with their's but i never got one then for some reason my parents decided bring one into home still skeptical about it. I was happy having someone finally by your side though not human it still was heartwarming as time passed by i came to regret it my parents keep it chained up 24/7 i tried to remove him from chained life many times but at the end my parents would chain him. One day he got sick instead of taking him to veterinary hospital they just abandoned him in the jungle for it to die. After that i was quiet angry specifically when they talked about getting a new one..
"The dog was sick who knows what diseases it carrying on"
"Whaa? What so you just threw it into the jungle? their is a hospital for that shit type of shit god dammit"
"Don't worry we will get a new one"
"Don't you fucking dare to bring another one if you did i will fucking kill it my self....."
It was rough.. though they still brought one and i of course couldn't come to kill it..
Now it's suffering trapped in his chained life just like me. I ignored him at 1st but i couldn't hold myself from playing with it..
"Hey their"
I tried to free him off the chains but he was always latched onto me no place to run, no place to live.
"Don't worry okey i will prepare some food for you"
Hhhaaaaaaaaaa let's make some food
30minutes later....
Hhhuuuuuuaaaaa uuuuaaaaaaa too much seasoning this shit sucks aaaaaaaa how am i making the same mistake again and again well dog is a dog....
"Here is the foooouuuud"
"Oooouuuaaaa thhaaaaa thaa"
Oohhuuuu okey well gotta stay hungry for the day i guess.
Opphhaaaaaa my mind is so clouded with thoughts that i can't even think anymore. I still have buch of memories but its all just past. Its all just past not present no future.
At the moment like this i like too look into the vastness of sky reflecting myself upon it what am i worth to this world it makes me calm but the thought still lingers behind my back. A thought that i am some better, i can be something better and i will be something better. A thought of i being worth something. Makes me wanna just run out this life and suffer, struggle, suffer, struggle aa... and win like in movie's. That's a nice dream to have but i am afraid and frustrated at the fact that it's just a dream, delusions i created to compensate my failure.
"Did you all brought your birth certificate"
"Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Sir"
"Aahaaaha prostp is your real name"
[Such a weird name to have what was my parents thinking when giving me that name]
"School last exam is near it will untimely decide your future, fate so make to study don't waste any time is that clear"
"Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Yes" "Sir"
"Good luck for the exam and college life"
[I am at trouble my scores have been decreasing lately and the final exam is here god i wish i was some genius theif breaking into the department and destroy all of exam questions or answer sheets wouldn't it be cool world greatest theif capable of breaking into any place and self any treasure haaa]
A MONTH LATER
[Ahh the exam is finally over ot was bad like always just hope i passed, just the idea of repeating class just blows my head off]
3 MONTH LATER
[Finally results are here finger crossed just don't fail, don't fail, don't fail.....y..yyyyyess i passed well the score still sucks but i guess it better than nothing]
[I haven't eating for while, i have no friends well i have the one who i grew up since kid but is just another type who just knows me, her mother is the one who recommend this college to me snice he joined that college. When the results got published their where a lot of time for college admissions to reopen some students learn computers in that time period some got into tuition for the preparation of college and their i was doing nothing i had no idea what college i should chose what should i do in this free time.
After his mom recommend the
i joined this college with some hope.]
-Rule-
*No phones*
*Dressed in uniform*
*Clean hygiene*
[ i mean look at the rule's no phones? In college like who is joining this aside from students who wants to improve their studies.]
"Wait for a minute class"
".....hdhsisishhsiaoqowbwhiwisishshshjisosjwjhwjsjsisijwjwjwjsisijssjhshsisiidhdvdvshshsvsvvshshshsh"
[Aaoouu My ear hurt what was that the teacher just leaved for a minute and the entire class is rambling haaafff what did i thought joining this of course we are still young students they are gonna gossip talk play a lot a lot...]
2HOURS LATER
[Finally some breaks time to get some lunch.]
[Their he is right their with his other new friends should i join him no it's gonna be awkward and their is no place to sit in the bench ahh this is getting embarrassing and awkward. The cafeteria is full of people this sucks.]
[I will just sit alone]
"Hey" "Hey" "Hey" "Hey" "Hey" "Hey" "Hey"
"You can sit with us" "us" "us" "us" "us" "us"
[Huha? Just let be eat in peace i don't understand people when they see me they ignore they don't talk to me, they don't sit with me but they are also saying me to sit with them now like what am i supposed to do, ahhh damn this is more embarrassing situation i got myself into, i shouldn't have came to cafeteria at 1st place. It's not like i am gonna die not eating for like 2days]
No memories, not the good one's, no new one's, just repetition of thought's and day's again and again and again and again.
Can't escape it, Will not escape it.