Everything went blank, I felt like I was holding my breath while burning inside. I skipped school today. I deserve to process what happened, don't I? Grandma didn't ask why, I'd rather she didn't either way. I skipped school today. I'm too tired from staying up all night.
Thalia knocked on my door asking if I was alright. She usually just acts sassy and teases me all the time, but she seems sincere now. I don't remember what I told her... I'm just so tired. I skipped school today. My head and eyes hurt from crying. I'm feeling sorry for myself, aren't I? I didn't even bother waking up on time today. I'm tired again I guess. I completely stopped going altogether. If I went back, I'd get picked on again. I just know it. People will start asking where Ren went, and I just can't handle those questions right now.
After not leaving the house in almost 2 weeks, I decided to take a late-night walk. Quietly, I tip-toe down the stairs and put my shoes on. Slowly, I turn the lock open and push the door very slowly but it creeks as I do. Grandmas' snoring can always be heard throughout the night, but it comes to a sudden stop and so do I. I hold my breath for a moment, and she starts snoring again, signaling that I can continue. Walking outside, I take in a fresh breath of air. It feels really good, so good in fact, that I end up walking till the dawn rises. I got too carried away. Grandma had already woken up and was spam calling me, breaking the blissful trance I had put myself in. At the doorstep, she stood in her nightgown looking very upset.
What were you doing out all night hmm?! You've always been so extra with everything. Can't you be a normal child for once, huh? Do you know the stress you cause me? Refusing to go to school and now sneaking out at night. Are you hanging around with gangsters?
I can feel her built-up frustration all being let out at once.
What are you talking about? I just went for a walk, please... just leave me alone grandma.Oh, nooo… I've left you alone for long enough mister, you either go back to school or I'm plugging out the internet cables and throwing them in the garbage disposal!
I had been watching a marathon of shows and videos online to escape from reality for a bit. She knew how much it would trouble me not having that. Monday morning, I walked to school with grandma. We had a teacher's meeting about my absence. My heart felt like it was beating in my throat. Everyone at school was staring at me, a 15-year-old walking with his granny to school. I felt so ashamed, I could hear the girls giggle behind me. I-I know they're laughing at me...
Kill me
I was forced to go back to school from now on, or I'd get expelled and have no future, I'll die alone on the streets. Or at least that's what my grandma and teacher told me. I go to my locker to get ready for my class, but a couple of guys are waiting there looking at me as I approach.
Yoo bro, you good? Where's your shorty?I-I don't know...The fuck you mean you don't know?
He smirks, and his other friends start talking.
Are you guys a couple or what? No...
I reply while looking away from them.
Say less brother, she is fine fine. You got her number, right? Give it to me.Hey!! I said I'd get first dibs.Nuh uhh! I asked first if you snooze you loseWho the fuck even says corny shit like that, whatever man.
The two guys continue to argue over who gets "first dibs" on Ren.