After I calmed down, Dad announced to everyone in the room that the next blood moon would be in six months. It was like the cherry on top of the sundae that my life had suddenly become. After waking up from that dreamland, everything had gotten worse than I thought.
Everywhere I looked, I saw an utter mess. All I wanted was to live a life with Alijah, to travel and see the beauty of this world with him, not fight gods or have him bonded to me to the point that if something happened to me, it would take him down with me—even if he called it a type of marriage.
After all, none end in death when one participant expires!
With everything Midnight had said, it was too much, leaving me feeling like my head wanted to spin in place.
How will I ever figure any of this out?
The world was becoming a scarier place than I ever thought possible. Unable to take it any longer, I suddenly stood up and ran out of the room without a destination. I could hear my Mom call out for me.
Midnight had called me nature's way to combat what was coming.
Why does it have to be me? Why's it getting hard to breathe? Ah... because suddenly the entire world depends on me instead of the fate of one man. How did it come to this?!
I still couldn't digest how Alijah was the reincarnation of that god's dead brother, while I was part of this other one, which made everything happen.
Hey, wolf, why is this happening? Everything is so confusing. How can I swallow any of this?
I was supposed to be the unstable link, not the one that held the world together.
How the fuck will I manage that when I can't even control my emotions or anger? There is no way… How can a savior be such a mess? How can I ever save anyone like this? I'm just a luma.
There was nothing more to me than being a stupid hybrid who was supposed to be the useless one of the quad. A degrading fact that the Silver Fang family needed to hide. Suddenly, before I knew it, a portal appeared before me.
When she emerged from it, Vera intercepted me, stopping me in my tracks. Alijah was right behind me, too. My brothers were probably there, too, knowing them. Yet all I wanted to do was run away.
Why do you stop me? I can't stay here. I...
"Where do you think you are going?" My sister chided, staring at me with her purple eyes shimmering.
All I could do was growl at her. After all, I desired to air my head and needed space to digest everything.
Why can't they leave me alone for a bit?
"Out of my way, Vera," I huffed, clenching my hands into fists.
She wouldn't, since it was never her style to back off. However, Ruzgard was eyeing me like he could attack me at any moment.
"After everything you have done, you want to run away. How foolish can you be, Rem?" She chastised me, triggering a flare-up.
"I never wanted this to happen!" I snapped, feeling off again.
The same black aura was radiating from me again.
I can't understand why they can't let me be alone for just a second!
All I needed was a single moment to breathe freely. Then again, my clock was running out too, and because of that, my sister stood in my way. She pointed toward Alijah behind me, causing my gaze to follow her.
"Tell me, Rem, do you regret saving him?!" Vera questioned, stopping my train of thought right where it was.
That was something I would never regret. Even if it hadn't ended with him by my side, he was my everything.
"What the hell does that have to do with anything?!" I snarled. "I would never regret saving Alijah! To even think that is unforgivable! Don't anger me any more than I am!"
That isn't fair. My feelings for Alijah were real, even if I don't make them.
I felt it every time his skin brushed mine, I was in his arms, and when his voice vibrated my eardrums.
Everything about you makes me whole, like I yearned for it for so long, yet… Ah... Like Midnight says, perhaps I'm made for my wolf by Fenrir. Fuck it...
If that were what Fenrir wanted, I would shower his brother with the love that filled my soul.
Even if I wasn't the reincarnation, there is no way I can't love you, Alijah.
Getting involved with him and betraying my family to save him would be something I would never regret. Fate bound me to him, and I didn't care if I had a part of a god within me. As long as I could be with him, I would be happy.
"Then suck it up, sis. This is your new life! You chose that night when you deceived us and went on your way!" Vera pulled no punches, yet I wasn't ready for that.
The responsibility of having their lives on my shoulders was too much to bear.
Alijah is one thing, but the world... It's something I'm at a loss for words.
However, everything she said was true. My choices were what led us to where we were. Perhaps if I hadn't saved Alijah, we would've been facing a different future. Maybe it would have been a better one, or it could have been worse.
Wait...
I had never thought about it before…
What would've happened if I hadn't intervened that night? Would've Alijah been captured?No...
There was no way he would have been, since he was too strong for my father and brothers to handle; even Vera would have eventually been run over by the mad lycan.
So does that mean that I already...
"It's time to grow up, Rem. You need to realize your choices brought us here! Own up to it and keep walking forward! You don't need to run away or hide anymore!" Vera declared that I had lost the strength in my legs to keep me up.
It's like… the weight of the world is no one and that's… heavier than anything I've ever felt.
Yet I might have already saved it once before without even knowing it. If Alijah had killed everyone, he would've fallen into Edna's hands and that book's desires.
"I never wanted this to happen!" I shouted, holding onto myself.
Releasing a soft sigh, she took a few steps toward me, kneeling before me and grabbing my shoulders. "No one ever wants anything like this to happen, but this is what you got!"
Her silver hair reached the floor below, capturing my eyes. Even though the curse was present within me, she didn't seem to care. I could barely hold it anymore.
You should be afraid of me!
However, nothing about her said she was. No matter what I did, I would always be her annoying little sister.
"I..." I mumbled, shaking my head.
How will I ever do this?
"Rem, are you an idiot?" Vera huffed, prompting me to gaze up at her.
I expected to be yelled at, but instead, she had the gentlest smile on her lips.
Huh?
"You're probably thinking that you're alone in this and have to figure it out yourself, but you aren't alone, dimwit! You've got that cantankerous wolf and your entire family behind you! So, don't you fucking try to run away from the mess this has become!" She breathed as I felt tears running down my cheeks.
How... can I ever reach you? You're… too bright.
"Everything's just a fucking mess, isn't it?" I sobbed as she nodded.
Alijah kneeled next to us and patted my head lightly. "Life's always like this, my love."
It broke me. They were all so warm.
Why are they like this when I'm such a handful to them? I guess I'm loved beyond belief.
Even Vera was trying to be less of a bully than usual; everything had to be as bad or worse than I thought for her to be so lovely.
"Alijah!" I cried, throwing myself onto his chest.
The way his arms engulfed me was tender and enough to soothe my troubled soul.
"We'll figure this out." He reassured me as I nodded my head.
"Okay," I whispered.
"Oi, why don't you two get a room already?!" Vera scuffed, putting some distance between us.
However, I turned to her while clinging to Alijah before she could get too far.
"Thank you! For being there for me, even though I'm a handful." I simpered.
"Your face is so ugly," She huffed, rolling her eyes and heading back to the dinner.
Alijah helped me as my brothers peeked from the side corner of the hall we were in. Upon spotting the two interlopers, he rolled his eyes, pulling me to meet with my lips. The moment his tongue brushed against my bottom lip, Caden grabbed onto his shoulder.
"Oi! Don't get ahead of yourself! The last time you got lucky, Sophie was passing by! She dragged us away! I won't let you taint my baby sister!" My brother growled, eyes twitching.
Alijah chuckled, holding me closer to him. He wasn't threatened by my brothers at all. Instead, he took it upon himself to ensure they knew their place in this relationship.
"Oh... You won't let me taint her? But you were pestering me so much about what I did earlier. I thought I should show you instead." Alijah teased both my brothers.
In an instant, that statement broke the poor pup, and Aiden took the lead for his fallen brother.
"Oi... She's our precious sister! Don't touch her lightly." He huffed.
It was creepy.
Did Fenrir's affections for his brother get inherited by these two, too? But instead of Alijah for me? Ew... No... That would be disgusting.
The gods might not give a damn about it, but mortals did.
"Touch her lightly? Are you kidding me? From the moment I held her, I've never touched her lightly. Not once, pup." My wolf snapped.
However, his words caused me to grab onto his shirt. His tease was working on me, too. It was almost like a triple combo for my wolf, and my cheeks were burning madly.
"Don't tell them that!" I whimpered, feeling the full force of his playful nature.
"Well, aren't you adorable? Getting shy over this, even though you're still hiding things from me." Alijah narrowed his eyes at me.
Oh…
At that point, I knew I was doomed. Even though he had comforted me earlier, it didn't mean I would escape my punishment after what he heard at dinner. I could only gulp while he turned to my stunned brothers, who were slowly recovering.
"A-Alijah... don't t-think we'll stand f-for this because we like you!" Caden tried to shake off his initial shock.
My wolf smirked in return. "Oh? What will you do?"