How could Gao Yongfang not resent her daughter Xiao Mei, even deeply resent her? Gao Yongfang often thought that if Xiao Mei were a son, she wouldn't have to suffer so much, nor would she have faced the Feng family's cold treatment for not being able to bear a son.
In Gao Yongfang's view, the Feng family was unkind to her because she could not give birth to a son, did not provide them with an heir, which made her a sinner in the Feng family.
Thus, in her heart, Gao Yongfang was self-critical, feeling her body was unreliable, and even blaming her daughter for not being a son. She resented heaven and earth, herself, and her daughter, but she never blamed Feng Zhiguang. She just felt that by not bearing a son for the Feng family, she failed them and owed an apology to Feng Zhiguang; hence, whatever beatings or curses came from the Feng family, no matter how harsh, she took them. Throughout these years, she had cultivated a nature of enduring passively.
