Chapter 180 - Chapter 180: Celestín

The meaning that my existence gives me I don't have very clear, it is blurry at this point of my life, the only thing I have in my head is my sister, I don't worry about myself or any of that, it's as if only she existed for me, it's bad, you could say it's dependency, which is quite funny, she's supposed to depend on me, but for my emotional stability to remain even a little I must act or move based on her, I always have to have my sister in my mind, I move for her and I worry about her, it gives me a lot of anxiety to see her lying in a bed unable to even make the slightest movement, even I lose my hunger and sleep, the few people that remain around me tell me I should have more consideration for myself, I try, I really do my best, but it feels useless, I simply can't do it.