How could I have known so much at that time?
I was still foolishly thinking it was my wife who didn't want to live with me, so she chose to leave. But the truth wasn't like that at all. She just couldn't stand my sarcastic remarks over and over again, couldn't stand me over and over again, so she chose to leave. Everything I did, all the things I did were so terribly wrong.
I was afraid every single thing I did would hurt her, and in the end, I deeply hurt her!
No one ever knew how desperate she felt at that moment, how lonely she must have been when she left the country for abroad on her own. I never considered things from her perspective, because I was selfish, just a photo of her, just choosing to abandon her for my own sake. I didn't know what kind of mindset I had back then to make such decisions and hurt her like that. Shanghai, there's only pain deep in my heart, no one ever understood, no one ever knew."
"And then?"
"Later...
