A heart that is not true to itself can never be attained. So what does it matter if I abandon everything? What would I gain by doing so? They don't care about the thoughts buried deep within me—they only hurt me again and again. Time and time again, I find myself forced into a corner, left with no options, crawling back to beg for forgiveness. This is not the life I want. I have never begged anyone for anything while humbling myself, because I know that begging can never give me what I truly want. Begging leads to no resolution. I should make myself stronger, make sure I never bow to anyone easily.