Helena had so much she was bottling up, so much she was crushing down, so much she could say but chose not to. Of all the students caught up in the Dark Continent incident, she considered herself and Afkon no victims at all.
Many weren't given a choice. However, she was. And she chose to do it.
Not because she needed to. Not because Rughsbourgh preached some strength-aspiring message to her. Simply because he had promised to take care of her family.
Of course, Helena was young then. She had applied to the academy hoping to become a student, join a great citadel and lift her mother, brother and sister from poverty.
She was especially confident in her victory because she was the most talented in her town. Everyone was certain she would get in.
However, the Academy shattered her hopes and dreams. They refused her. Someone with S-class talent was told she was talentless.