THREE WEEKS AGO
We left the restaurant and went up to our room at the hotel to end the night because Parker thought it'd be better to tell me whatever he wanted to say in a more confined space.
"What!??"
As soon as the words left his mouth,I felt a sudden intensely cold shiver attack my body as though my body was being thrown deep with a bathtub full of ice water. The wine i had just slipped suddenly felt hot enough to make my throat burn and almost made me choke.
I stared deadly into his eyes,emotionless.
Still.Cold blooded.My mouth found no strength to open and let out even the slightest of words.
I started pacing up and down the room slowly,trying to get a sense of something. ANYTHING!
I was awfully unhinged.
Coming down to a halt,i closed my mouth momentarily as i pressed the fragile wine glass against my lips.
"Please say something." He voiced out."Anything."
His voice was a bit shaky,fear drooled all of his face.
Gathering all my senses and consciousness to remain back to reality,I asked...
"Could you please indulge me with why you decided to get into bed with yet another woman?"
"Im sorr-," as he opened his mouth i cut him off.
"Is there any sort of inadequacy you seem to always receive from me Parker?"
"Ohhh,for fuck's sake,Adamma! You're way more than enough to me and you know that."
"Apparently I seem to lack clue to that." I said,sipping down my drink."You still haven't answered my question."
"Because sometimes,just sometimes you're too fucken much!Just all that pressure all the time.You never stop making it clear that I'm your entire fucken existence,you literally have thousands of days you have envisioned for us!"
"Is that right?Oh-..,im sorry!You chose to do life with me and I recall trying to leave your dishonest self plenty of time which you always made it clear you'll never be able to let me go.A Solely fucken chosen choice over and over again!Does the deepest
conscious of your mind seem to recollect that piece of information?"
"I know that!But having you puts a whole heavy pressure on me.Do you have any idea what it feels like to have the weight of someone's entire existence,their whole reason of being,frequently being dependent on you,to take care and treat them like they deserve to be treated!!"
"You mean the same person who tries to free you everytime you fuck up?"
He gave out a defeatable slight sigh.
"If im really that much of a burden to you then why are you in denial of leaving me Parker?You have had countless times of sleeping around and I somehow chose to forgive and move on. Does my endurance and loving for you all go down the drain while the pain you inflict within me satisfy you?The life you're currently chasing has simply defined how you can have whatever I give you outside,why can't you just exit here and reside there permanently?"
"Because you're now pregnant for heaven's sake!"
[Screaming]"You're supposed to say because you love me that much!"
I attempted to throw the glass directly at him which obviously he ducked.
"Adamma,WHAT THE HELLLLll!!" Parker screamed back looking at the object which shuttered across the wall.
Pointing a figure at my bewildered face,"You need help.Proper professional help."
"I-I,you...you made me do that." I trembled,it was like I was almost out of breath.
I was not a violent person and definitely never threw anything at anyone before. But he pushed me,he raged me with his words and woke up the demon inside me.
Slamming the hotel door behind him,I was left only with four corners of the walls and a loud silence roaming around.
Parker's Pov.
Reaching down the hotel bar downstairs,I sat down and told Archie,the hotel bartender who had worked previously again at my parent's downtown restaurant,to give me a full bottle of champagne.
Drunk already? I was but I needed to get more intoxication within my bodycells more than i currently had.
I knew telling Adamma about the one night stand in had a few weeks ago with one of our classmate,Vivian,would shatter her into pieces. But I had to. I have committed infidelity a couple of times ever since we first met in high school and I kept them discreet each time but somehow the news eventually find her ears a time later and what killed her even worse having to hear out on the streets.
Why I do it even though i love her more than life itself? I -----.....
"You look like you had quite the evening already." A voice interrupted my thinking.
Turning to my right,a boy looking quite the same age as myself I figured,said next to me.
[SCOFFS] "Abouts of it." I replied,taking a huge gulp of the champagne i had in hand.
"A girl I assume?"
"You managed to guess the world's only correct answer!"
"Can I have a glass of double Remy-martin on the rocks,please." He said to Archie.
"Coming right up."
Turning his head right back at me,he thought for a second." Wait,you look very much acquainted."
Giving out a snickering laugh,"Yeah,this is my family's new millionth hotel." I said sarcastically.
I reckoned he knew me from my family's very social empire media or maybe went to the same institution as I.
"I thought i recognized your face.So how long have you been with her?"
[Slurring] "I have known her ever since we learned how to talk and we decided to elevate things to a much more deeper level than the friendship we had at high school." I scoffed at the thought.
"Whoa-," He was in disbelief,"Look man,I have absolutely no clue who is in the wrong between the two of you but basically you guys are more than just lovers.I mean,you practically been together for more than two decades.That says something and if it's cool ,I'll share something with you."
Turning my now almost about to spin head toward him,I asked."Oh yeah,what's that?"
"I absolutely dont have many rules when it comes to relationships or whatsoever but not going to bed on an argument is simply one of them. It just doesn't give the issue at hand any fixation to drag it overnight if I still want to be with that person the following day."
And then it hit me that this time I could actually lose her for good.I was the person in the wrong and she didn't deserve every pain and hurt I was inflicting her with despite the pressures of life that consumes me from time to time.
Without a word,I got up from my chair and left the guy alone.
Upon reaching the lobby going back to the hotel to Adamma,another voice interrupted me from behind. Although this time,it wasn't a masculine voice.
"Parker?"
Turning around,I saw her again.
"Viv,what are you doing here?"
Adamma's Pov.
[Thunder rolls]
The rain was pouring heavily outside as if a storm was about to strike.
I woke up on our hotel's living room floor,still drunk as if i didn't pass out while crying.
"Parker?" I shouted,hoping he was somewhere in the hotel room.
[Distant Thunder]
But the silence he had left me with earlier was still in my company.Sluggishly moving my body from the floor,I reached over to the couch for my phone and dialed his number.
[Calling ring tone]
To my surprise,his phone rang on the other couch.
Looking at the time,it was almost 2 in the morning.
Where was he?
[Frantic breathtaking]
"OTHER SIDE" by RUELLE.