Having lived a lifetime already, she did not fear death, but there was a reluctance in her heart to just pass away like this. She couldn't bear to leave her husband, the husband she now longed for incessantly, with whom she yearned deeply. Even if she was to die, she wished to see him one last time.
However, she had not dared to reveal her true identity to Mrs. Zhao in some devilment of the moment, and now she was even more afraid to do so. The persistence of Mrs. Zhao and Zhao Qi filled her with fear; she knew that if she were to disclose her real identity now, it might bring calamity upon Shi Fengju, and that was a risk she couldn't take.
