Entering my room. I used my arm as a pillow while slumping down my body atop of these soft bed of mine.
Although I'm always sleeping here every night, this time I feel a little strange from this bed.
Ahh, I see. . .
Maybe because this day of the night, she won't come in. She won't knock in front of my door anymore.
Astraea-sama won't enter here.
I already receive her falna just this morning and I haven't yet to enter the dungeon nor doing things to increase my status, so she won't come, huh. . .
...I guess loneliness will fill my body tonight. Cold and abandoned. Anyway, we just met a few minutes ago so why I am thinking of this? I'm sure this is not a death flag, but. . .jeez. I'm helpless.
Even if its just a mere seconds with her alone. I am more than satisfied. I can't wait to passed this night without seeing her and talk with her alone. But my body is already nailed by my own bed. I want to see her. But I can't. I won't let her look at me like a spoiled brat anymore but I can't resist. Ahhh. I want to see her pretty bad.
Looking at my entrance door. I'm still waiting for her arrival.
1 minute
2 minutes
3 minutes
4 minutes
I can't help but sigh helplessly. Again, my disappointed doubles the effect. I should have to sleep but my consciousness didn't leave me. Argh. What's wrong with you! I scold myself. Ahh, helpless Agwin, truly helpless.
Screeech---!
As I am about to lose hope, fragment of it blows into my head after hearing my door, slowly opening.
Yeah right. I forgot it wasn't lock. Maybe because every night, I expecting her to come.
And. . .finally! my wish is granted for real!
Damn! Thank god! To you who granted this small wish of mine! Thank you! Guess that god was Astraea-sama herself.
I release a faint fan-girling sound which is heard by Kami-sama as she enters.
"Did I disturbed you?"
"A-ah, N-no. . .not really, I'm actually thankful that you've come" I immediately raised my body as if asking her to come in a hurry!
"Thankful?"
"A-a-ah ah ah ah! I mean, Kami-sama I-I'm thankful, I'm always thankful of you he he he" I embarrassingly scratch my cheek. Who am I a fool?
"By the way, I already receive your falna just this morning. Is there anything you need?"
She repeatedly shook her head and stated: "I just came in, lets say it become a habit of mine" with wide smile.
Ahha ha ha. I see, it become a habit. Our feeling is mutual I see. It turned out to be a habit because of those two years whom she always came to grant me her falna even though it was negated. Its just a habit, I see.
Maybe I wore a disappointed look that made her lonely? she asks: "Why? You don't want me here?"
"I AM happy! very happy! I mean, I don't care if you always come every night! I'll let it open just for Kami-sama!"
I accidentally raised my voice out of happiness after hearing her word. I am happy, really. . .really happy. But why am I disappointed?
Is it because of the word 'habit'? Ahh I see but I should let that useless word flew off like a dust, damn it Agwin! Well, at least I convey what I feels. Kami-sama is always welcome in my room. Every night. . .Always. I'll let it unlock. . .Always. Yeah. I leave it like that.
Haaaah, I'm super happy right now.
"Agwin-kun? Why are you drooling?"
Eh? am I? I subconsciously wiped my lips but, nothing? I wiped nothing!
"Ha ha ha, got you! You really fantasizing of me aren't you? Scary Agwin!" She let out a wicked smile and walked towards my direction and slumped the back of her body into my bed.
I copied her position and we started to stare at each other. And without waiting for her to talk, I hold her hand as our fingers intertwined.
After a few pause did I let out a word: "Kami-sama, I love you" with soft voice as if whispering.
"Agwin-kun, its normal to accept and receive love between deity and their children" But contradicting her own words, she flushed in red. Ahh, cute Kami-sama.
"He he he, so I've got dumped huh" I wanted to cry. I know how hard it is to hide ones feeling especially when in this world, when a human and a deity shouldn't have an intimate relationship.
Although there are gods who break this, by conceiving a child and uses them wherever they wants as a toy. I guess, Kami-sama is different.
"I won't Agwin-kun, I never dumped you. I too love you but its. . .It's different love, I don't know if this is.. " she placed her free hand at the top of her chest with that reply.
"Ha ha ha, is it frustrating? I don't know either. I just confess, just that...just remember that I owe you and love you Kami-sama. No jest. no shit, but pure love. I know its not easy to acknowledge this sincerely. Well, lets count it as rejection but I experienced it once or twice too so. Sheesh, I'm still sad though. This is the first time I was rejected by a goddess, heheh" Stimulated as her breath is like a steam created from her embarrassing answer, I moved my head near hers while saying so.
She only closed her eyes and still red as if welcoming me. She don't know. . .huh. Heh.
But our lips momentarily clashed. I only peck her red lips though.
I cannot resists this feelings no longer. But I cannot let this beast inside me ---this perverted me, overwhelmed my mind. So that peck, maybe is enough to cage them? No, it stimulated even more. Ha ha ha. Am I a beta? I sure am not.
I purely respect my goddess, that's all. And as her child, I always did.
So maybe, if right in front of me is Ryu-san and not Kami-sama, I might dominate her for sure. Letting this wild me explode.
Ahhh. Stupid mind. Stop thinking perverted things.